Loneliness, experience over months, I feel deprived and dissociated

[surreal briar]

I wish someone would reach out to me sometimes, without having to ask. I don't know what I'm doing wrong bro, nobody reaches out to me, people don't try to talk. All I need is for people to talk. You don't know what to do, just talk to me. I need exposure. I'm tired of feeling as if I need to explain my past and lore so people can understand me. I'm so bastardly autistic. I have no idea what the hell I'm doing wrong.

I just know people will overlook this because this always happens and they go back to their regular life talking to the people they were already chatting with

I know it because that happens all the damn time

So I don't know what I'm doing wrong

Im forced to live this loop where I don't know how to approach people because of my gamophobia and I'm bad at communicating, so I'm not able to fit in.

Everyday I try to talk to the group I approach online, and do it again and again for different groups, but it never keeps going, it stops once I say something, so WHAT AM I TO DO AT THIS POINT

I'm tired of thinking it's the people I'm around because I'm gonna keep searching

And I know I am, because most of the things I talk about and add to, they have already happened, which is why I say I'm gonna keep searching.

So can someone please

Try THEIR BEST to reach out to me

[uneven hare]

Hi

Let's talk

[surreal briar]

Hi nitesh