spice badger
i hope yous don’t mind me venting, i just want to get it out to like a real human 🥺
||Why the fuck do i dwell in nighttime? 😢 It’s the worst time to be awake, and the time where i struggle most mentally. Everything from the days just build up and gets all tangled up in the night when i have nothing to distract me.||
||For example, I have been struggling with gender identity, and i get this physical feeling every time something happens, that like i need to figure it out all at the same time right at that moment. It’s so fucking stressful. It’s like my legs get shaky, my jaw clenches, i get physically restless, i can’t move, and i like start to hear things. I know these can sound line a little deal, but along with the other things that is bothering me, my brain just likes to make it a big deal. it has been happening for a long time for the past few weeks||
||i don’t really know how to explain it.||
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||im not sure if this is something i should speak to a professional (such as childline, most likely not in real life) about or like it’s not a big enough of a deal, and just kind of.. wait it out? i don’t know. i honestly haven’t been able to make any decisions lately. ||
sorry for the long ass vent ok i just needed to type it out idk how to explain it