fair bramble
I'll keep it short as it's kind of the same old same old, if I can be edgy for a moment when on earth do my hobbies actually, like start to mean something or prosper? I know hobbies are supposed to be fun and all that but at some point one wants to take it further and try and make a little cash or in my case try and make a career out of it later by getting popular. So far however, everything is just, it feels so hopeless whenever I do something.
I've vented my music frustrations and that I feel like that's not ever gonna get me anywhere and everyone just feels better at it than me, not to mention I hate how inconsistent it feels to gain any traction. I started with art a long time ago now and felt decent enough to try and take commissions, but even when I charge a low price no one wants them.
Now the cusp of my reason for typing all this out, I am trying out another hobby to see if I can make anything out of it, that being video editing. Right now plans are not in the slightest to make money but why does it already feel so hard? I feel like when I edit a video, if there is not like an explosion a loud sound or borderline professional editing people just don't stay interested, I didn't even have the energy to be mad at the time I'm just confused. Why does everything feel so useless to do? I understand I sound like a broken record but seriously what is the point of most of this, everything feels impossible to achieve.
keen vine