my ex and I were in a toxic relationship, we had been arguing for three years and she was always the one who left(in the sense of ignoring me and saying she doesn't love me) I was the emotional one who blocked her after my trying to get her back
It always comes back after 2-3 months, it's always nice at the beginning and we always fight, it was always my jealousy and I always accepted it back because I didn't have time to get over it.
Now that we've been at a long distance, we've been seeing each other from time to time, and now she came and wanted to see me, but this time I don't have feelings for her.
I made a mistake and I got into a relationship with her again because I didn't want to hurt her, I thought she would get angry quickly and it would be the same as before, only next time I won't make a mistake
She used to be repulsive, angry, she didn't care about me, I was possessive and I just wanted her to love me, I was always in second place, someone was always more important
But now it's different, all I wanted and told her that I miss her is now before she left, she even cried and I don't feel anything, I thought all this, but I worry enough not to hurt her, what should I do?