I talk about my crappy mental health problems here
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My mental healths been awful and a reason for that is I am at a job where I am overworked, underpaid, and enslaved, okay
And I mean it is freaking hard. The coworkers? Manipulative and lazy. My health? Being sacrificed for a band here or there, and I HAVE 2 VIRUSES RIGHT NOW ON MY BODY. TWO
NOT 1 BUT 2 HEALTH ISSUES FROM THE PLACE. The STRUGGLE is real
It’s not just that, but I have become a shopaholic. To fill the bottomless void and hole of my heart that I have. I JUST WANNA SPEND CONSUME SPEND BUY, LIKE I DONT EVEN CARE HOW MUCH AND IM GOING BROKER THAN I CAME INTO THE JOB HAHAHAHA
Excuse my insanity
I DESERVE a few Christmas’ OKAY
I WANNA RIP OPEN SOME PRESENTS IN SPRING AND TREAT MYSELF TO RESTAURANTS AND BUY DESIGNER THINGS…
but I guess we can’t have the whole world on a platter, no, because when I am buying all that crap, I have no money for food to buy for myself, I can’t pay for gas suddenly, MY NEEDS ARE NEGLECTED BUT ITS FINE BECAUSE I HAVE A NICE NEW JACKET ON MY SLEEVES IS THE MENTALITY
The financial freedom is something I can’t be trusted with
And I am mentally ill in other areas OKAY? I HAVE ADHD WITHOUT MEDS, A CAFFEINE AND CIG ADDICTION, I CANT MAINTAIN FRIENDSHIPS OR RELATIONSHIPS, A SIXTH GRADER IS MY EDUCATIONAL LEVEL PROBABLY COUGH COUGH IM AWFUL AT MATH,
SOMEONE HAS TO DO THE HANDIWORK IN SOCIETY THAT MEANS ABANDONING THE BRAIN
I can’t get into all of it but Lindsay Lohan is someone I could probably relate to, if I met her
“SAME OLD CHIC”
I love that lady
From a distance
Sometime loving people from a distance is our only option anymore and for the best
ANYWAY
I have become MAYBE A TAD money obsessed and popular IN THE CONSUMING SOCIETY OF BRANDS AND B.S. NO U CANT JUDGE ME. ALL READING THIS FROM UR MACBOOKS AND IPHONE XRS
AND I guess I get addicted to doing things that feel good… I wana feel good at all times. It’s like I crave a happiness through all of the receipts I’m collecting, I have the biggest addictive personality ever, even with the energy drinks, I’ve had my run with anything the streets could offer and I try my best to stay off what’s harder, COUGH COUGH DRUGS, that I am sober from, and quit. So now I am this way… where I may cling to other things or have other COMPULSIVE habits maybe and it’s always OUT OF CONTROL just like my caffeine intake on the weekdays… no one’s stopping me and I think of the feeling it will give me and I go for it without caring about my consequences
I am getting A THERAPIST or psychologist or PSYCHIATRIST ALL THESE LONGGGGGG WORDSSSS THAT SPEAK… ILL FIX U… AND UR PROBLEMS… THRU OUR LITTLE PILLS… LABELED PAIN
YEAH THE PHARMACEUTICALS
WELL ILL BE NEEDING THOSE FOR MY ADHD
SOON AANDD I DONT KNOW IF IT WILL SOLVE ALL THE OTHER CRAP
This job… I’m gonna be quitting and I’m not keeping that
Because my health has gone
IT IS AT TYE BOTTOM OF THE LAKE AND NO ONE AT THAT PLACE GIVES A DAMN
I had dropped out of school for loads of reasons… all of them
I couldn’t finish freaking ANYTHING anyways because of my adhd Im getting diagnosed with
So how am I supposed to do it? My brain is not working that way, it’s not COMPATIBLE, and I mean I’d put my ALL into things and still come out with a failing mark, when I thought I aced that baby. How?
It was never adding up for me
The effort and reward ratio was far off and it was messing with my self esteem, my self confidence, MY SENSE OF INTELLECT
LIKE WHERE DOES SCHOOL EVEN END IT JUST GOES ON AND ON FORFREAKING DECADES IF YOU WANT IT TO
AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHAT I WANT JOB WISE AT MY AGE OF 22? CAN YOU GIVE ME A GODDAMN BREAK
GONNA BE A DOCTOR IN 3 YEARS EXCUSE ME
LIKE NO
I JUST CANT
GO FOR IT
NOT ME
CAN I STRUCTURE MY IDENTITY FIRST AND BE A PERSON LIKE TAKE A BREATH
THEY LOST ME EARLY
YES I AM A HIGHSCHOOL DROPOUT AND WORKING INSTEAD AND IN MY 20S UNDERACCOMPLISHED, OVERWORKED, AND HORRIBLY MENTALLY ILL
IM ONLY HUMAN AFTER ALLLLL
And those goddamn trades,
Could my life be anymore boring, random, and soulless at those jobs, JUST LIK THE CAREER IM ALREADY PREPARING TO AGE RAPIDLY FOR
IT ALL JUST SUCKS
THE WAY IT CONNECTS
ITS TOO MUCH FOR ME
IM OVERWHELMED JUST THINKING ABOUT BOTH OF IT
I NEED A LAWYER TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE
AND THE STUFF I WANNA DO HMMM
Maybe write some music, sing
Sell some art
I’ll get me some tattoos first thank you very much AHAHAHA
A SPLIT TONGUE PLEASE
A FEW GAUGES
ID RATHER BE A CHARACTER… THAN A NUMBER… IN THIS SOCIETY
I just can’t all the options, I want to create, what happened to the man who made the light bulb, that’s how rich I want to be, BUT DO I KNOW HOW TO… create and sell my own design, of something…
A little, yeah
Maybe NOT A TOASTER, OR A BATHTUB, BUT
Some art here or there
Some dancing for a price, NO???
Some streaming, a cam show, THAT WHAT THEY CALL IT?
ANYWAY
DIY, Do it at home… sorta job
I like the jobs where… you can be whoever you want, post whatever you want, and your source of income is not affected
That’s what I call living
DO YOU KNOW WHEN YOU GO INTO A JOB AND ITS NOT WHAT YOU EXPECT AT ALL AND YOURE JUST ASKING TO YOURSELF HOW THE HELL DID I END UP HERE HAHAHAHA
LIKE JUST THESE STRANGERS MAN AND ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN THERE, WHATEVER I GUESS
I need a job where I don’t have to be A FREAKING BRAND AMBASSADOR WITH IT TOO. OKAY???
AND I SWEAR MOST JOBS MEAN YOU HAVE TO BLEND INTO THE COMPANY IDENTITY OR WHATEVER THE CRAP LIKE YOU HAVE TO FIT IN AND I JUST…
IT SUCKS. EVEN TEMPORARILY
IT DOES FEEL A LITTLE FUNNY THOUGH LIKE I AM ADVERTISING THIS PLACE THROUGH ME
BUT CANT I JUST.. ADVERTISE ME FOR ME? DOING SOME JOBS…
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