#Noahs journal

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sterile lichen
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3/19/26 10:57
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11:00

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My girlfriend left for Mexico to see her dad. I want to say "I miss her." or "I love you." But i know that cna be annoying. I dont really know what to do, in my last realationship when my ex broke up wiht me she said i was so sufficating and i dont want my current girlfriend to feel that to.

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My current girlfriend helps me so so so so so so so so much. She helped me get through the darkest parts of my life.

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She also helped me get over my ex.

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Shes so perfect

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she has dated 13 people and i have only dated 3. I dont really know what to make out of that nor what to think of that.

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I have wrote her poems and she reacted very blandly

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when i showed her friends they reacted more then her

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i miss her so bad

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i also have no one else to talk to since i ahve zero friends

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i hate being so entergetic on the outside but feeling so bad internaly

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i also dont like how i always regret saying stuff

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My girlfriend gets back next friday

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i wanted to make this journal about myself yet its turned to be about her

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ive been going to the gym

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its been helping with my self-asteem

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sorry if i spell horrid im dyslexic

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My girlfriend and i do engage in so freaky stuff, only talking no action yet

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but i feel so horrid starting it

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and i have asked her about it and she said i have been fine

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but last time i belived that rumors have been spread about me

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11:15 rant end

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11:17 rant start

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I really want her to ask me for selfies out of the blue, but she never does.

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I always have to say "My outfit looks so great."

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or "I did my hair"

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and then shell ask

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one of my fav things she does is she will always call me a handsome, and somtimes say freaky things when i show her pictures of myself

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cuase im not use to people likeing the way i look

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SHE CAN CALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

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WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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wish me luck

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11:22 rant end

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she said she could call