I Feel Like My Life Has No Purpose Anymore

[odd pagoda]

Hello, I don’t really know how to start this. I guess I just need some advice or someone to listen.

I’m a wheelchair user, and I’ve honestly been alone my whole life. I never really had friends. I’m 21 now and about to finish my engineering degree, but even here I didn’t manage to make any friends.

Most days I feel extremely lonely. Every day feels kind of empty, like there’s no real purpose to anything. A lot of the time I feel stuck, almost like I’m living in a prison. I can’t really go outside much because many places aren’t accessible, and even if I did go outside I wouldn’t really have anyone to meet.

My social media is basically empty. I never get messages or calls from anyone. Sometimes I check my phone and realize there isn’t a single person who would randomly text me or ask how I’m doing.

I had a girlfriend about a year ago, but we broke up. She meant a lot to me and losing that relationship was really hard. Since then life has felt very numb and heavy.

I’m just trying to figure out how to move forward and build a life that doesn’t feel this lonely. If anyone has advice or has been through something similar, I’d really appreciate hearing from you.

[analog verge]

Hi Solas,
I am the same age as you, and as much as i feel sorry for how much you are going through, i think we can both agree that you deserve applause for your courage and not some pity and honeyed words for your suffering.

Anguish and suffering, when they become a part of our lives , they cling like mud sticks to our clothes , it just wont leave us , no matter how much we despise it

And as much as bleakness fills our hearts and life starts to feel just a cacophony of dread and despair , i have only learned of one thing through my years of healing - power of your soul can and will go through it all

So if you are wondering and worrying on how you will survive - don't

Survival is laced in your every effort to get better- including this one to get advice to get better

I dont have any clear cut advice for you that will instantly cure every darkness, i only know one thing and one thing only- life is only what you make of it, and more importantly on what you do every moment to get moment

Just look at me, someone who goes through mental breakdowns, panic attacks , SH and everything in between , someone who is considered a freak by people around me
And yet here i stand
And even the hurricanes have been unable to move me an inch
That is all it takes

All the best

[frail crescent]

Dude did you try wheelchair basketball? I’ve tried it and I couldn’t stop playing it’s super fun and also you’ll meet other people who have the same situation as you so easier to make friends and stuff . Also they can give you advice etc because a non wheelchair user can hardly relate

I recommend watching some paralympics it’s sometimes better than normal Olympics

[odd pagoda]

Where i live there no things like this the place zero wheelchair accessible

[frail crescent]

That’s not good and you can’t move out or anything

[odd pagoda]

Move out how i dont know how

[frail crescent]

Like reach out to wheelchair communities they will have more support than any random stranger

[fiery forum]

Yea, true, there is a community for almost anything you just gotta do research.