azure bough
So, ever since I left my ex as well as my old friend group like 7 months ago, I've been unable to form new friendships, like I try to, but after about a few days people just ghost me, or quit speaking to me all together, unless I contact them first. I have to be the one to start conversations, and I try so hard to form new friendships and meet new people, but people don't want to validate that for me, and I don't understand why. It's like, "Hi! I want to be your friend! I want to connect with you!" and it's just, "I won't do that! and if I do! It'll only be for such a little while until I quit speaking to you all together!" for 7 months I've been alone without ANYONE, nobody can help me either, which is why I barely complain about my issues on here regarding this topic, when they greet me in dms and are like "Hey! hru!" or something, they only do it to TRY and help me, it's NOT real friendship, and after a few days? I'll just get left behind AGAIN, I AM NOT a bad person, I'm talented and I'm kind, I try to be helpful towards people and I try to be nice to their liking, BUT PEOPLE just dont want me, I wish this would end, it's espically annoying at home too when literally the only people I really ever conversate with are my parents of family members. I don't hate myself, I just want to figure out why nobody is interested in MY EXISTENCE, I want to form new alliances but NOBODY wants to validate that for me because I don't have ANYTHING to offer them, and it SUCKS, it sucks that everyday I have to be alone, because I WANT people, but people don't WANT me, NOBODY cares