cobalt bane
My father is not a kind man, hes proven to me that he doesnt care about me multiple times. Tho he has tried to make up for it with half assed apologies and goodies like little dollar store plus hes. Hes lost a lot of friends due to his "humor" mostly twords women he has made multiple "jokes" about women getting SA'D because of what they were wearing. And this is one of the "jokes" hes recently made to me in front of my entire step family
Also I don't do things like fist bumps,high fives hand signs and rarely I do handshakes.
Ok up to speed
So we're at the table, my step mom and aunt were messing around talking about how hand signs have changed over the years like the peace sign, the high five, etc then they got to the heart sign they were making the different signs like the gen x version, Millenial version and then they asked me what the gen z version was, I'm a very shy person and I don't like doing hand signs.
now my father thought it would be funny to say in front of everyone, in way that he said it so loud everyone heard it.
"She doesn't do that because that would require her to love someone" this broke me.
So everyone at the table starts laughing except for me... I looked at dad for a few seconds, then I got up from the table, put my dish in the sink, and sat down on the couch so upset. I started to cry, I cry easily and my dad knows this but he calls it me being "over dramatic"
the room got silent really quick after I left the table and they could all tell that dad screwed up. He then came over to me on the couch I scooted away from him, I told him I just wanted to be left alone then he tried to give me an apology but i could tell lit was half assed he said " I know you dont like that corny stuff I was making a joke" he then sat back on the couch and went on his phone until it was time to leave.
I've now added that line to the cork board in my head labeled "stuff dad has said that proves he doesn't love me"
I just need some insite on this.
bleak crest