Hi! Im starting a new journal cuz why not 🎶
#Maw’s Journal
autumn vale
My first message here, yay!!!
Yesterday i was feeling bad in my opinion. As usual i poured out my tears for personal reasons, i dont want to say exactly why.
Afterwards, i suddenly just started laughing, strange or not, but i believe it was. After laughing, i suddenly vomited for no reason, but still, I believe it was because of the stress I felt at that time.
Trying to wash my face, i noticed that my hands were shaking like crazy, after which i started to panic even more for some reason, but in the end, i washed my face and left the bathroom, hooray!
I tried to calm down normally, tried to lie down on the bed and fall asleep in order to forget everything that happened that day, but i just couldnt, i dunno. I just lay there and stared at the ceiling, thinking about everything that came to my mind, but most of it was negative thoughts about myself and others.
What a day it was, huh.
OH come on i cant send images now here
😭
autumn vale
Hi.
Sorry I didnt write here yesterday, but nothing much has changed in terms of my mood and so on. As usual, i went to college, came home, and took a nap. That's all I've done at home so far.
I guess i have something to be happy about, which is that i have the opportunity to record a project with my friend that I have in mind for the weekend. Its possible that this state wont improve even over the weekend, but i promised him that i would try my best to record what we have planned.
About the first post. I didnt expect that so many people i interact with would start giving me advice and supporting me in any way they could, and i was extremely surprised and even somewhat pleased. 🐬
autumn vale
Hi! At the moment, i feel great, have thoughts that i have already let go of what happened, and i can move on with my life.
I have nothing more to say i guess haaa!!!
autumn vale
Helloooo, im feeling fine at the moment. Was feeling a bit sad today, but then my older brother's girlfriend came over and brightened up my mood. We had a nice chat and laughed about various topics, absolutely adore her!!!
Lowk embarassed that i couldn't work on a project with my friend this weekend due to my condition, but probably its ok i guess.
autumn vale
autumn vale
im fine
started reconnecting with friends I had lost touch with
i might rejoin the community I was in because i was accepted as a composer for one of my friends projects idkkkkkkkkk
autumn vale
helloooooo everything is fine
finally fixed the old roblox client just to finally start recording some shit for my arg with my friend
autumn vale
finally fixed the old roblox client just to finally start recording some shit fo...
lowk excited cuz going to record the first episode of our project on the weekends
autumn vale
disappointed a lil bit
not because of what i wrote about
its about my relationship with my family ig
autumn vale
hello i feel like shit while typing this
my mom broke her leg, she will be in the hospital in a week, and my uncle went missing in a military operation or whatever this shit is called.
He had depression for a long time, so my thoughts about all this are negative, or he was captured, who knows. Our relationship was good, and I am very afraid of what is happening to him at the moment
autumn vale
i am fine hello