Nana's | The Therapy Center | Page 1

grand gull Mar 2, 2026, 6:12 AM

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Will do my best not to abandon this one, yet i may not update regularly

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Weather has been crazy

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just a couple days ago i was chillin in the cold air and now not even the ac at home is enough

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I've feelt so excited out of the blue

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I think i'm getting better

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but i'm not sure that i like it

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do you know that feeling when you have to sacrifice one of the two things you most value?

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similar to that

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i am a better person tho

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i hope so

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lately i've been remembering all the things i did when i was young, how careless and genuine i was

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i do miss my connections from back then

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but i am more than aware i shouldn't

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i really miss them

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sometimes i wish i was a dude

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mom said i was confused

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but it's been 6 years

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am i that bad?

grand gull Mar 2, 2026, 3:08 PM

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my heart is so heavy

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guilt sinkin into me again

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I'm really sorry C

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i can't even talk properly to my bf without feeling drained

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i wanna leave so much

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I'm sorry

grand gull Mar 2, 2026, 9:52 PM

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i cried at lunch

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my friends comforted me tho

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i am better now

grand gull Mar 3, 2026, 1:27 AM

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There are days where i remember how funny life can be

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you're down and suddenly you feel so light

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I skipped dancing academy today, i may as well leave it soon

grand gull Mar 4, 2026, 2:43 AM

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i got in an argument with my bf today

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well

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not an argument really, none of us is confrontational

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we were talking about future plans and he talked like we are definitely temporary

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we prob are

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we're young, it's natural, mom and dad always say not to get attached

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but sometimes the sweetness of empty promises is better

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.

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It's the second time i go out in makeup

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i don't feel as bad as before

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mom says i'm allowed now i've grown

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.

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i wish i could read peoples mind

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there's this one person

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i wish i could get to know them better

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lately i've been feeling like odysseus in calypsos island (in the musical, ik it changes in the book)

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where's my athena?

grand gull Mar 4, 2026, 4:05 AM

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i gotta improve my german knowledge, the humwork is gonna end me (left it all to the last minute)

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dude i just remembered i forgot to send another activity

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😦 .

grand gull Mar 4, 2026, 5:07 AM

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many people complimented me today, they said congrats and that i did great

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i participated on philosophy nationals about two weeks ago and won a 3rd place

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congrats

grand gull Mar 4, 2026, 6:19 AM

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my back hurts so bad

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ouch

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"maybe love isn't about always doing, but also knowing when to shut up"

grand gull Mar 4, 2026, 1:37 PM

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so anxious today i couldn'nt sleep

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i need something

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i need it so bad

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but i don't know what it is

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maybe anxious attachment? maybe because of yesteday?

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i wonder

grand gull Mar 4, 2026, 11:20 PM

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energy's restored now

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i luv my cat

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she's such a cutie

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"appetite" sounds in a loop in my head

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I wanna dance with someone

grand gull Mar 5, 2026, 5:01 PM

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i wanna cry so bad

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i built my reputation on being an accesible kind and funny person everyone could hang out with

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but right now i just desire for everyone to just shut up

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they keep on apologizing

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but i could not care less

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i may fake being sick just to go home

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but i gotta pay the inscription to the tournament today

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so i gotta stay for that

grand gull Mar 6, 2026, 4:12 AM

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i think i got closer to another friend

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that made me so happy

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may stay up a bit

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ii may be finding my people

grand gull Mar 6, 2026, 11:09 PM

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i had football practice today

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i laughed so hard

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today things aren't as heavy as other days

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i wanted to kiss him so bad

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we'll go to the pool later

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a rest from this house will do me fine

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even tho i feel bad for not being able to talk to my friends

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i feel so hopeful today

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i'm not sure i wanna marry, but i'm not sure i don't wanna

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i don't wann have plans, just the goal and escalate thru events to do my best

grand gull Mar 7, 2026, 1:52 AM

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i feel so calm

grand gull Mar 7, 2026, 12:07 PM

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woke up early

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wanted to talk to friends but my mind's spent

grand gull Mar 8, 2026, 4:55 AM

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today was

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strange

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i kept on thinking about my past

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and re reading my old texts and diaries

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i wonder if i really got better

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i feel like people like me more

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but i'm afraid i've lost my genuinity in hypocrisy

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i'll try to mimic my old style

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Day 6. March 7th 2026

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I felt weird today. We didn't do much but i was able to talk to friends most part of the day.
I feel like i've gotten closer to them, i feel appreciated by them even tho there's something bugging me lately; me and my boyfriend have been having issues to talk to each other, and even if we're both very patient about how things go i feel like he's falling in love with my best friend

grand gull Mar 8, 2026, 9:51 PM

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Day 7

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i know social media influences in people

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but all the breakup posts saying that in march couples break up

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aren't helping even a bit

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my boyfriend's so closed, i don't know what he fears, what he gets sad about or what happens to him at all

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he barely tells me anything

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even less if it's about his personal life

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i've told him almost anything that affects me

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yet i got tired and stopped reaching for him for help

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i feel like we'll break up

grand gull Mar 9, 2026, 5:05 AM

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i am scared

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i feel fear for my surroundings and like everything could easily hurt me or worse

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i have a bad feeling

grand gull Mar 9, 2026, 11:26 PM

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i am exhausted

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i'm not sure what to do about he bf thingy

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i cried abt it today

grand gull Mar 10, 2026, 9:41 PM

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today i broke up with my boyfriend

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i do my best to act untouched

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i'm not feeling horrible

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but there's this lingering feeling in my chest

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i'm kinda disappointed

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i wanna lay on someone's shoulder and sleep

grand gull Mar 11, 2026, 3:44 AM

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i lowk wanna write letters for people that has been important to me

grand gull Mar 11, 2026, 2:32 PM

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the hopefullness in love is inspiring

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sometimes i fear i've lost someone that was supposed to stay forever

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but bad moments don't last forever

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i've gone thru this

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will keep going thru this

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because i'm young

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and falling is part of experience

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yes, he was a good person

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and yes he did things no one did and prob won't do again

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but that will happen over and over again until i find myself somewhere i feel good, somewhere i feel loved and respected

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somewhere i wanna stay

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and where they will also let me stay

grand gull Mar 12, 2026, 4:16 AM

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dude kept my bracelet 💔

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i swear i'm stealing it from him

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slowly progressing

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i keep on falling between these "i want him back" and the "but i don't love him" zones

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i get so jealous

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i'm his 2nd gf

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so ig that gives me certain pride since he's aroace..(?

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he may not be dating anyone for a while

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but my ego tells me that i should make sure that i keep him on my reach

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but i try my best

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i may move out

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it's sad to know i may leave people

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but life will take me wherever i gotta go

grand gull Mar 13, 2026, 3:17 AM

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today was odd

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i catched him staring at me multiple times

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i can't deny i stared at him many times

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today was the first time he didn't hug me gb when he left

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it sucks

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not even now we broke up i know a bit more about him than i did when i first talked to him

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sometimes i think i did wrong

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that he was a good future

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of all the benefits i've lost

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but i don't really want someone i can feel like home

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like someone i'd go with when the world is crumbling beneath me

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or when i just need an advise

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his lack or emotional openess left me feeling him like nothing but a physical and social support

grand gull Mar 13, 2026, 11:52 PM

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OMG

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flag football tournaments were today

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we won first place

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i feel so excited about it

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I feel like this is a good beginning to a new era of mine 🙏

grand gull Mar 14, 2026, 4:42 AM

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i had some kind of crisis i almost unvoluntarily screamed and cried sm

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the breakup is affecting me way more than expected

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how can he even act to calm and unaffected?

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"if you came to me right now with a ring and asked me to marry you i would say yes...

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if you gave m the option of never getting to know you in the first place, i would also say yes"

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3 god damn days and he seems so over me, already looking like dating another girl

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but ofc

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bc i said being with him was hurting me

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but he said he no longer loved me

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so whatever was going on was already emotionally unlinked to him

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but whetever i decided was from an act of self love against the fucking love i had for him

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the things i did

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i planned

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i sacrificed

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sometimes it's easier to blame myself for what happened

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how can he erase me out of him so easily when i cry him almost every single day?

grand gull Mar 14, 2026, 6:02 AM

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I've heard letters help

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so

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Dear: AJ

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I hope you know i loved you, and i know it is love. I fear you may have just felt attraction towards me, i'm afraid i was nothing but that craving you couldn't satisfy last year. At first i thought i didn't love you but i dated you, yet just as months passed i found myself thinking of you every single day, staying up every night so i could talk more to you. I found myself getting lower grades because we were always talking. I found myself buying you stuff i considred expensive just because i knew you deserved it. I found myself planning a future and telling my family about you. I found myself mesmerized without noticing, shaping myself so you could love me more.
I found myself leaving bad habits and opening more so i could feel like i apported more to us.
When you talked to me with such sweet words, saying how beautiful i was and how you desired for a future with me, how you confessed and got all red when i gave you a kiss, i found it endearing. I loved that you sucked at remembering names but somehow found the things i only mentioned once but said i wanted, i loved how attentive you could be.
You were my safe space, the person i would talk to when i was in a good or bad mood, and even tho things didn't work for us, i found myself loving you more than i ever allowed myself to.
For that, i thank you, for that, i hope you know i still love you, or maybe i hope you don't know, because it'd be pathetic... I hope you find hapiness, even when my jealousy consume me and make me want to take you back, i hope you know i don't hate you, i hope you know i never will, i hope you know i wish you well. I hope you know i experimented many first times by your side, and that there will always be a part of me wishing a part of you, because soulmates or not, i love you.

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With love: Nani

grand gull Mar 20, 2026, 3:19 AM

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you know it's bad when someone apologizes for making you uncomfy with a genuine text and honest feelings and suddenly you're crying like a lil kid

grand gull Mar 20, 2026, 3:35 AM

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sometimes i feel like people like me yet i feel so lonely

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like bonds are superficial

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"everybody's friend = nobody's friend"

grand gull Mar 20, 2026, 5:07 AM

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i think i got too used to be used

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where's Chris..?

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oh i miss him

grand gull Mar 25, 2026, 4:24 AM

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i may go to a concert tmr

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i really wanna go

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i got best grades of my class

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and my principal bought me a coffee

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i also baked

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i sucked

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added too much sugar by accident

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i like em sweet tho

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other than that

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one of my classmates has been super friendly to me lately

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like fighting against others to sit next to me any chance he gets

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talking too much

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constantly asking me to take pics of him

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today i shared my lapt with him

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he found my old gacha life files

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i thought he'd judge me

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but he was so outgoing he even downloaded it and played it out of fun

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over-asking for him to do me favors

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he's sweet

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feeling so hopeful rn

grand gull Mar 29, 2026, 6:02 AM

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my philosophy idol texted me back

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i've been so excited since yesterday

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we accorded to talk on monday

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i wanna structure good questions

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appetite sounding on my head again

grand gull Mar 29, 2026, 5:34 PM

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i almost cried today

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twice

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it's barely midday

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i couldn't guess what my mother prefered me to drink

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she said it was my choice

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but couldn't guess what would make her happier

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later when we were having lunch i decided to tell a story from this morning

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i could see in her face she wasn't on the mood but i tried to test it

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i started talking and she passed herself correcting me

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i avoided talking by just pouting and saying "hmp, nothing ig"

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in a playful way, don't misunderstand me

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but she clicked her tongue and looked so mad

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i left asap

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sometimes i am the daughter they always wished for

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sometimes i'm a spoiled girl with no manners

grand gull Apr 3, 2026, 5:21 AM

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life's odd

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been thinking a lot lately

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sheesh

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i'm kinda like a retired hooker

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with no means of insulting myself

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more like a comparison

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on how i would treat my romantical partners

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i never treated my first kiss as smt special

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it was with my ex bestie at the moment

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we said "to reinforce the friendship"

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until it escalated

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more and more

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and when i refused to continue

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i gave her a letter with all the things i disliked about her (being sensitive from my pov but don't trust me)

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and we stopped talking

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i later found out she was saying i forced her to kiss me

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but she never dared to say it to me

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we apologized

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then idk what i did but i fucked up again

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and it repeated a couple times

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we don't talk anymore

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i don't miss her

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but it surely was interesting

grand gull Apr 5, 2026, 5:37 AM

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i wanna go to a massive party with strangers

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and get drunk

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kiss and make bad decitions

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i'll be so good i can do that without worrying about conswquences

grand gull Apr 7, 2026, 7:07 AM

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so odd how things work.

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the dude i liked was unable to correspond to my feelings

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a friend of mine confessed to me

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ig i'm taken now

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yay?

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canadian ppl are so cute

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i think they're too kind

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CJ's been on my mind so much

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maybe i can get to love this guy as much as him

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not healthy tho

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i'm no longer sure if i miss him

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but a big part of him is definitely on me constantly

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i would write you a letter

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i might

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even tho i've written you a journal

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poems

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most of myself

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to you

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wherever you are i hope you're fine

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i loved you in a way i never did

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and you must forever be with me

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not physically

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but a part of you will always be with me

grand gull Apr 8, 2026, 1:02 AM

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i swear i do not like this one dude

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i used to have no issue on getting on meaningless relationships

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now it is too hard to even find motivation to talk to them

grand gull Apr 8, 2026, 1:27 AM

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needing a high strenght not to jst disappear

grand gull Apr 8, 2026, 2:17 AM

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i'm crying again

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i am strong

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i

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usually am not like this

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but a text from him and i crumble like i've been waiting for him all along

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if i'm in love with him i'm so fucked up

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what did i do wrong...?

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i'm sobbing rn

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oh god

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saying i love you to him wouldn't feel wrong at all

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not forced

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not invented or meaningless

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ilove him and i have no idea in what way

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he said my name

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it never felt more right

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i'm so fucked up.

grand gull Apr 8, 2026, 3:09 AM

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being with him makes me feel so reassured

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i remember calling him love once accidentally

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funny

grand gull Apr 8, 2026, 3:36 AM

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i love when he talks

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he's very dear to me

grand gull Apr 9, 2026, 4:44 AM

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i met you this month

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we would have turned one year of meeting this month

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remember when i told you i talked to you because i had a feeling?

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it was like you were shinning on glitter

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strong

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like you were meant for me and i was made for you

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i asked you so many questions to keep the convo alive, swearing to myself that we would prob not be talking tomorrow

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and you were awesome

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days turned into weeks

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weeks into months

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we dated

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even tho you swore you wouldn't date

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you confessed to me in desperation and a tornado of emotions we both were in

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and i felt high

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so high i started saying cringy delusional lovely stuff

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so fast

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my head dizzy

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my heart going fast

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and i swore you were the love of my life

grand gull Apr 12, 2026, 5:23 AM

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WTFFF

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😦

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medicine in spain is hella expensive

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i may do it if i get: an sponsor, scolarship, choose a cheap city and my fam helps me a bit...

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those 15.5k dollars i gifted like nothn could have helped me gng 😔

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i'm a dumbass lowk

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🥹

grand gull Apr 16, 2026, 5:22 AM

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imy cj

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i will always love you

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i am more than convinced we were made for eachother

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maybe we met too soon

#Nana's