First time trying it but I think it will be beneficial for my mental health and hopfully improve others.
#Hopecore Journal
hot fossil
2/16/26 4:57PM.
This is my first journal entry. I want to start off with that I think I hit the lowest point of my life right now and honestly I am so scared of what is to come in the future. I recently totaled my car at 17 years old from dumb decision making and along with other things that have come up through my life like people calling me names and whatnot. I could sit here and not try anything new or not continue to move forward because that takes the least amount of effort. I want to push forward to not only better myself but also to give my parents some piece of mind about how I'm improving. I am filled with guilt and anxiety constantly and thinking about how I am a failure and just straight up not worthy of ANYTHING. Its constantly in the back of my mind but the disciplinary words of "keep going" and "never waver in times like these" (corny ik lmao), are bigger than the ones that put me down. I want to become somebody that people can rely on and that people can look up to, like how I do to my father who honestly sees me as a disappointment right now due to my actions for the past 17 years of my life. I want to move forward and continue to be better every day. I have no idea if its allowed to speak on religion, but through Christ, I can persevere in crazy hard times like the ones I'm going through now. I believe I can do it, I can be successful, and that I can be worth SOMETHING. - End of day 1 journal.