#Break up journal

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tribal solar
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Today, its been 55 days since he left me, till now, nothing changed since the first day, i can't get up bed, i don't feel and can't do anything, i don't think ill ever move on, i loved him with all my heart, i only had him for the last 5 years, i can't even remember what life was before him

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life is more empty than ever

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i did everything i could

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i don't know who iam anymore

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the only thing that gives me a little hope and controls little this hell anxiety are divinations

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thats the only support system i got

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and its killing me

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55 days of non stop anxiety 24/7

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The area under my eye is swollen from crying so much

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iam all day, alone, in this dark empty room in this small messy house

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no one

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nothing

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the house is complete mess

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its hard to drink even 1 cup of water

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theres nothing i can do

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i completely lost hope

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in life

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im waiting and hoping an murder enters in my house

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because i dont have enough courage to do it

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thats why i let my door slightly opened

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but no one has entered so far

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please just end it alredy

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i pray everyday for it

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there are no reasons left to wanna live

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everythings gone

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my love is gone, my job is gone and my hope is gone

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i just wanted be his wife

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have kids eith him be happy

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everything we planned

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so detailed

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our kid was gonna be named simon

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we planned everything

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please god this hurts so much

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we were investing on everything

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i don't think i can do it anymore

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death is the best partner i can have now

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and ill brokeup with fear

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so i can date death forever