rn I’m in last grade of high school, so 12th grade (2° de bachillerato for my spanish fellas), I had to repeat twice (so this is my third attempt) because of depression. I’ve always had good grades because I thought they marked my worth and a part of me still believes that, the thing is that right now, I’ve missed school for almost three weeks (depression and problems with self-worth), I genuinely want to go back but feel so stressed out about what will the people in my class think of me, the teachers, etc. And even if I went back, I still won’t even know where to start, so right now I’m just wondering if it’s better to stop studying and just get a job because I just feel stupid sometimes, or try to go back (I don’t even know if I can make it to the end of the school year if I do that). I already get stressed about tests because I wanna have good grades and at the end of the year there’s this huge test that basically allows you to go to one university or another (the test is called EVAU/PAU/EBAU) so I’m also wondering if I’ll even manage to do well in those, which is making me more anxious and consider dropping out 😭😭, genuinely, I feel so cooked
#how do i feel better abt my self-worth??
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Your worried about the perception of others about you?
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Your worried about the perception of others about you?
yess, and also, I feel really stupid myself 😭😭
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So you’d be 2 years older than those around you?
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yeah 🧍🏻♀️
which also feels even worse because I should be more mature and not like depressed because of some tests
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You shouldn’t give a toss about your peers
Your in to pass and get out
These people are your youngers
Just go in and do what you went there for
Cultivating indifference to people’s views of you is a process that takes time
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Cultivating indifference to people’s views of you is a process that takes time
But it’s something that’s situational
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Your in to pass and get out
I know I shouldn’t care about them but sometimes people can be so judgmental, and even if I go back, I still don’t know how to handle all of the subjects you know?
tysm though
I forget that I won’t see them again probably
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One step at a time
If you can find out what’s being covered if you follow through with the repeat
Start prepping now
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You look in to some things too deeply
And underestimate just how engrossed people can be in their own heads
Some people still to this day wait for others to finish speaking so they can say what they want
Not taking in what the former said
You’ll prob be talked about if you do follow through
Maybe some snarky comments here and there
But gotta realise that these people were raised by their devices
Phones, tablets and the like
Exposed to a lot of stuff that they could do without
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You look in to some things too deeply
I know, but genuinely, I’ve been bullied my whole life throughout school so I’m pretty anxious around people
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Reflecting on your past can help
wdym?
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Going over the things you’ve said
that lowkey makes me more anxious ngl
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It’s not a must
But I think it’s worth a try imo
You won’t get far if you remain a blubbering mess
Overthinking can be a good and bad thing
It’s all situational in the end
Everything has a time and a place
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I mean, I tend to do bad whenever I overthink stuff
I don’t really see how it could be a good thing
but I’ll try
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yes, like overthinking just gets me to “oh so I’m just stupid and I should give up”