Progress of Healing from my Past Friends

[blissful plume]

So far its been great, but they've torn a part of me I thought id never get back - somehow a burden has been lifted from my shoulders, but the burden of leaving as been placed back on me. I used to help them with any problem they had, I listened; but did they ever ask how I was? It's ironic really, because all I ever did was help them, being a shoulder to lean on and im so easily discarded? God how I yearn for a comfortable friendship with others. I have met some amazing people here this server, and some things have genuinely been improving, so im trying my hardest to continue meeting new people even if im scared

[hoary loom]

That’s great feel free to give updates on how it’s going

[blissful plume]

Its actually going quite well! I ignore the fact that they mock me behind my back though so im trying to not let their words get to my head :D

[blissful plume]

Update: they were actually the people who spread rumours about me after all i did was help them through everything 🥀

[rigid kayak]

is there a reason you blocked me ?

I was gone on the road for a few days and i couldnt talk cause we had no internet

if you dont wanna talk thats fine but i wasnt ghosting you

[blissful plume]

Yeah erh something super bad happened at home so it really wasn't your fault-

[blissful plume]

Like now im even monitored closely by my parents because of what happened between me and them 💔

[rigid kayak]

do you wanna talk about it ?

[rigid kayak]

oof that sucks i know how that is

[abstract jungle]

I feel you. It’s been 4 years since I blocked my best friend from college, she and a bunch of girls I was casual friends with, lied to me big time. The biggest thing was cover up that a guy who i was in love with, had gf or casual hookups behind my back. There was another tip off an I live in total fear when I look at the situation. Guy ghosted me after 2 years made some iffy comments and got serious with another girl and later on he married her

The funny thing was when I blocked the bestie within 2 weeks the next chapter opened. I was “rewarded” by being invited to state conferences of an org I had joined 2 years prior,

It was Covid that held it back but I felt it was one door opened another closes.

I want friends as well it’s very hard with my situation everyone being married or engaged and here I am perpetually single and friendless.

I am hoping the next couple months I switch jobs and get friends or real people to talk to

[scarlet violet]

hey i just want to let you know that you are doing an amazing job! you were a really good friend to these people and they have to be some dumbasses to not see your worth, i had a very similar situation and i can understand how it feels sadly i have still not been able to make friends here or on this server because i am very nervous to talk or ask someone to be my friend, but hey i would love to be friends with you! i yap alot and i can lend a ear whenever you need it.