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I'm yet again on discord talking my ass off about my problems. Sorry for making a new board but I have to get some things off my mind.
For context, when I was about (from what i remember) 8 y/o, I noticed i was different. I had everybody, but nobody. Everyone knew me, but noone Knew me. I was everyones friend, but nobodys best. I was just there.
Either way, I didn't think much of it and went along with the years as they came.
Those years were tough for me.
Fast forward to about 2022 when the pandemic started cooling off. I was down. A little sad i didn't get to meet my "friends" for a year. But oh well, things will probably get better once I'm moving to a city, right?
Right and wrong.
The Right is that I got new, actual friends that support me ( kind of ).
And the wrong is that since I'm a really insecure, sensetive and akward guy, I had trouble with learning how to get any friends at all. Insecurity and (probably have) depression isn't a good combo. At, all.
So now we go to the stuff that really made me worse.
I dated a girl, we'll call her Eva. So Eva and I looked like a good match. Similar hobbies and humor, you know the deal. We dated for about a month before she broke up with me because I was "Tiring"? I was naturally heartbroken, and I started 🗡 myself for a while. Some time later she wanted to get back together. I said yes for some reason but sure we'll see how this goes.
Exactly the same as last time. Like please think about how I feel stop spawn camping at my mental border. Anyways I became really down, and I think this is where everything just started going downhill.
I started dating this girl, lets call her Ava. Ava and I were an even better pair ( i thought ) untill she dumped me ( should've seen it coming ).
I got dumped about two months ago by Ava. She said that she just wanted to know if she could love again, thats it. Thats basically her saying i was a test dummy for her feelings.
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