Help for to throw extra pills in the toilet

[wind thunder]

I stopped taking my medication and saving for not healthy thing, i recently noticed that i kinda replaced sh with taking them so i don't want to take them anymore and i want to throw them but i can't. I feel that i need them in case something happens, i'm afraid i'm creating a dependence on them. ¿What should i do? Ik i should talk it to my professional but i'm afraid she'll cut my med or will speak to my tutor.

[boreal nexus]

it's always better to talk with your professional

most of the times they do know best and will do what's best

if you can then have an accountability partner in your friends or family members