#The start

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solar atlas
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Aight lets start from the start. Hi guys my name is Oscar age 13. So 2023 one of my good friends left and like I never experienced that kind of like feeling so when I was on the car I was in a sad and bad mood you could say but my brother kept teasing me so I snapped I screamed at him and as a result my mum booted me off the car. She came back though but I was thinking "How could any mother do that" My mum said she knew where I was but on the phone she said "I didn't even know where he was" whilst laughing with her friend. I was so upset that she would make a joke out of it. Earlier this year she wanted me to do swimming and after school without warning said "We are going to the pool to look" and I was like yea sure but i didn't bring any of my stuff she said "You don't need to swim it's just to look. When we got there she said they need to test me and that meant going into the pool and I was like "WHY YOU SAID I DIDNT NEED TO SWIM I DON"T EVEN HAVE MY STUFF!" then she asked the person if they had spare swimmers and I was grossed out like how could you wear something thats not yours and I refused she got really mad at me when saying that I didn't even need to swim. Fast forward. I hopped on to a game and met this guy Slothzilla and I told him everything but now he hasn't been on and im worried. It was also exam week when I noticed and really stressed out on wanting to do good for my parents and my parents kept pressuring me to do good. Keep in mind I wanted the best for them but they pushed to hard and I gave up. They didn't ask what I wanted as a future they said I had to study hard and just kept stressing me out. Around this time my best friend kept making fun of me and I just stopped talking to him he said that he's sorry. I told him just about all of this. I just want people to listen. That friend 2.5Yrs of friendship. Slothzilla 0.8Yrs. I'm just confused and don't even know what to do as a career I want to become a youtuber pretty ironic eh? But im actually

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good at FPS and im just looking for an editor now

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I want to make new friends here because now my former friend is siding with my parents and

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i just want to go

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It feels like my opinion doesnt matter

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Nobody truelly loved me

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You say thats wrong but the car incident proved that and she threatens to do it again when me and my brother fight

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Now I feel pain at every comment being made at me

solar atlas
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Still feelin it

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So today Elephant ed came to our school and at the end she said like you can go to kids helpline to find some help etc etc I knew she was going to say that deep down Im visualising it and i can't control myself

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when i mean "it" i mean deaf

brave crest
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It honestly just seems like you’re thinking waaay ahead. It’s not a bad thing but you’re 13 man. Just enjoy it now cause life will definitely get a lot worse later

solar atlas
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I guess

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but Right now im literally battling myself now