(17+) i am recovering from being groomed | The Therapy Center | Page 2

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:02 PM

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thats a fair point, i have been doing that to an extent

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i have dms/frq off on this account

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:03 PM

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I see

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That’s good

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:03 PM

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how are you feeling?

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:03 PM

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I’m great why

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:03 PM

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i ask in return

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:03 PM

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Naa I js hate these type of men

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So came to see how ur doin

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:04 PM

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i appreciate it

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thats very nice

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:04 PM

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Like why don’t they fight someone who can if I face someone like that I’d make sure they won’t be able to do that again

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:04 PM

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im not much of a fighter, cant say much on that bit, but i understand the hatred

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i had it for a while

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cant anymore

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hating someone is too much energy

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:05 PM

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Yea like I mean those idiots need to learn a lesson

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Well it’s for you guys that you guys don’t deserve to be treated this way

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Some people just consider women as they’re toys and servants

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:06 PM

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you'd be surprised how prevalent in culture it sometimes is

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:06 PM

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F the culture

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Bro women are also human js like us

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Why don’t some idiots understand that like they also have feelings

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:07 PM

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crazy theories lmao

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i jest

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:07 PM

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Real

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It really makes me mad af idk why

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:07 PM

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for some people that sort of thing triggers them differently

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:08 PM

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I’m not a girl

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:08 PM

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i assumed

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anger can also be an emotional trigger though

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not just sadness

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:08 PM

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Yea it also makes me like

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Traumatized I’ve seen those situations

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And how people struggle

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I wish I could help

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Before things happen

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:10 PM

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there's signs sometimes but often its invisible to the victims

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statistically, victims of sexual violence are more likely to experience it again

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:10 PM

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Tf

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Wha type of theory is that

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:10 PM

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my therapist told me once

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when you experience a type of abuse, you become more vulnerable to it

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it can happen again

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:11 PM

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Fuck that therapist

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Like wtf

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And what type of a therapist says that

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Literally makes the person even more traumatized

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:12 PM

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she meant it in a logistical sense

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you can search it

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"revictimization"

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thats the term

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:12 PM

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Huh

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Gimme a sec

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Bro your scaring me

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:13 PM

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sorry

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its a real theory though

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which also explains why its so hard for abuse victims to escape abuse at times

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:15 PM

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Bro how tf is that even real

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Like how can some event like literally let’s say u missed a bus and that could happen again yes but not when u try to catch it

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:16 PM

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abuse works in weird ways towards a victims mental state, from my knowledge

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it has something to do with the nervous system actually

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which controls your "danger feeling," to put it simply

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:16 PM

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Bro

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Are you saying like u feel it or it actually will happen again really

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I know what’s a nervous system is

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:17 PM

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im not saying it WILL happen again

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:17 PM

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Then

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Man U scared tf out of me

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:17 PM

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im saying that by probability i am more at risk of it happening again

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not that its guaranteed

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idk if im explaining this well

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im sorry if im getting you emotional

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it is not my intent

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:18 PM

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How ma how

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Man*

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How tf

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:19 PM

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would you ever be interested in psychology in your life?

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:19 PM

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When a coin lands on its heads doesn’t mean it has a higher chance of it landing on heads again

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:19 PM

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abuse psychology is quite interesting

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:19 PM

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I’m a very logical person

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But this ain’t logic’s

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:20 PM

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maybe not, im not saying you have to believe me

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i was making a point but my train of thought lowkey slipped lol

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something something

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its 7 am

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im braindead

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:21 PM

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This part is sad but real. Not destiny. Not guaranteed. Just psychology:
• They tend to ignore red flags because they’re used to chaos.
• They feel guilty saying no or setting boundaries.
• Abusers can sense people who are quiet, unsure, or too kind.
• Their brain sometimes confuses “familiar” = “safe”, even if it’s unhealthy.

THIS IS NOT THEIR FAULT.
It’s the effect of trauma, not a prediction.

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This is what ChatGPT says

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:21 PM

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thats what i was trying to explain bruv

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i wasnt blaming the victims

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:22 PM

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So basically

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Yall jus need to be aware just like normal humans

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:22 PM

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idek

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im just existing

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:23 PM

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Man U scared me enough now I need therapy y

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:23 PM

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go get yo therapy young lad

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if you got supportive parents, its possible

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:29 PM

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Na dawg

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I’m js afraid for someone else

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I can’t be there that why

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:29 PM

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for a friend of yours?

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:29 PM

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Or I’m ready to f the guy up

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:29 PM

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nocturne jay for a friend of yours?

Yea

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:30 PM

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well, you can always ask them what you can do to help

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:30 PM

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I have no connections with her

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Due to personal reasons

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:30 PM

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i see

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:31 PM

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Man seriously if I meet that guy I don’t even know wtf will happen to that mf

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:31 PM

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well, i am not in this situation so i cant say the best course of action, but i hope it ends well

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:35 PM

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queen flower Yall jus need to be aware just like normal humans

I mean I also agree but trauma can mess with a persons head

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:36 PM

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past sentinel I mean I also agree but trauma can mess with a persons head

yo

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sorry for not responding nooo are you alright now?

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:37 PM

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Yeah no worries I guess I am 😭

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:37 PM

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i didnt know what to do lowkey 😭

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i dont think youre a narcissist though

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if it helps

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:38 PM

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Ayy no worries sorry for putting you in that situation 😭 Honestly I was just wanting to interact with my friends since you mentioned irl friends once and i was like maybe i need to do that too

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and they lowk called me narcissist 🥀 and then I messaged ya and you also didnt know how to respond

I just listened to some party music alone and slept lol

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:39 PM

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alright I think your friends are kinda asshats

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hamster

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no offense

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but like youre definitely not a narc

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:40 PM

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nocturne jay no offense

Yeah I know, but when my every friends turn out to be asshats it makes me feel the asshole

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I tried to create boundaries and they said that i used the word boundary and that somebody got suciidal over it or some shit gang 🥀

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:40 PM

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HELP???

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"Boundary"

"IM GONNA KIL MYSE-"

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are we deadass

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:41 PM

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The harsh part is that I still feel its my fault its hard to explain

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:41 PM

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I think you have too much of a guilty conscience

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:41 PM

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man i am just gonna be alone or at best with a therapist, my shit can overwhelm them and i didnt want to fight gang

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:41 PM

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but its understandable

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:42 PM

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past sentinel man i am just gonna be alone or at best with a therapist, my shit can overwhelm ...

nah youre not gonna be alone

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:42 PM

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well if everyone around me is shit, maybe i am shit too lol 🥀

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:42 PM

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I think therapy will really help you figure stuff out if you can get it

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like

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it took me 4 years to get to this point

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where I am now

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its a process

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:43 PM

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Hm understandable, I wish to take therapy like after getting into university or after a job mars 🥀

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Honestly my problem is that I feel like I can help myself, I have become my own therapist somehow but it just takes time and this shit keeps on happening

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Honestly dont worry about me I guess, I just need to think less but I am having this trust issue with society at this stage, I try to be honest and always fail forward 😭 If I cant trust my friends of so many years I feel like who can I trust 🥀

I think I need to resolve some inferiority/superiority complex/overthinking/trust issues in general. Its hard to explain ahh lol

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:47 PM

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yeah honestly

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I think you'd really benefit from professional help and I mean this genuinely

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so look into that pls

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:48 PM

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I would but the thing is

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like is the only person I can tell my mental health problems without too much struggles is just a therapist 😭

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:48 PM

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No! you can tell friends and family too

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but what i mean is

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a therapist will give you actual guidance

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:49 PM

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Friends lowk fucked me yesterday when I told them that I overthink, they called me a narcissist when I said this

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:49 PM

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friends and family give you support (if they are good)

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Support vs Guidance is different

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:49 PM

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Family thinks I acted the one day I cried in years, nah, I guess i am alone lowk 😭 just gotta accept it

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:50 PM

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well, looking into professional help is better than no help

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and I think youll get through this

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 12:51 PM

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Yeah I mean I would look into professional therapy as well I guess, just not right now but if my mental health deteorates I would ig its hard to explain lol 😭

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Honestly I guess the only person that can handle myself is me 😭 I just have this frustration sometimes against the world when I tried to be honest they just shut me down, some people helped but honestly like i dont want you or anybody else to be overwhelmed by my shit as well sorry for yesterday 😭

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:53 PM

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its okay man 😭 im sorry I didnt know how to help

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:55 PM

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Man I have a headache

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 12:57 PM

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queen flower Man I have a headache

go rest

queen flower Nov 16, 2025, 12:59 PM

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I need therapy really I think

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My head feels heavy js by thinking about it

sand swan Nov 16, 2025, 5:34 PM

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I think we all need therapy at this point

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 7:02 PM

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😭

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i have 1 hobby goal left as always

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writing

sand swan Nov 16, 2025, 7:02 PM

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Nice

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What do you write

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 7:02 PM

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my fictional world, mostly

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i have been skipping that goal though

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ill try to do it today

sand swan Nov 16, 2025, 7:04 PM

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nocturne jay my fictional world, mostly

Nice

sand swan Nov 16, 2025, 7:04 PM

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nocturne jay ill try to do it today

If you want it’s your choice

half beacon Nov 16, 2025, 8:48 PM

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hey i just wanted to say, we may not have been through similar things but reading your recovery journey gives me hope that it can get better, im so proud of how far you've come

nocturne jay Nov 16, 2025, 8:50 PM

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half beacon hey i just wanted to say, we may not have been through similar things but readin...

thank you !! thats very sweet

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im still recovering but I hope your recovery goes well too

half beacon Nov 16, 2025, 8:57 PM

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ty <3 its slow but eventually it will all be fine

past sentinel Nov 16, 2025, 9:11 PM

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nocturne jay my fictional world, mostly

Go do that twin you got this!

fading cairn Nov 17, 2025, 4:20 AM

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Do you want me to become your person bodyguard or something?

nocturne jay Nov 17, 2025, 6:31 AM

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fading cairn Do you want me to become your person bodyguard or something?

nah, its okay man 😭 thank you for the offer though

abstract blaze Nov 17, 2025, 7:46 AM

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mb for tha

past sentinel Nov 17, 2025, 7:47 AM

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abstract blaze mb for tha

for what twin?

fading cairn Nov 17, 2025, 8:14 AM

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nocturne jay nah, its okay man 😭 thank you for the offer though

Alr then

nocturne jay Nov 17, 2025, 9:13 AM

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I have 2 more hours

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till school

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well

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till I get up for school

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ive been sleeping a little better

past sentinel Nov 18, 2025, 12:16 AM

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Any Progress/updates twin?

nocturne jay Nov 18, 2025, 2:26 AM

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past sentinel Any Progress/updates twin?

yes

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im doing my goals

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well

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still

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recently been hanging out with a certain group of friends

nocturne jay Nov 18, 2025, 3:23 AM

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i feel bad

sand swan Nov 18, 2025, 4:19 AM

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nocturne jay recently been hanging out with a certain group of friends

Nice

sand swan Nov 18, 2025, 4:20 AM

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nocturne jay i feel bad

Where do you feel bad

onyx shell Nov 18, 2025, 5:50 AM

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Your lucky you even have a therapist

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My asian perents think mental health is nothing to worry bout

past sentinel Nov 18, 2025, 10:01 AM

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sand swan Where do you feel bad

Shouldn't the question be why do you feel bad and not where?

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Why do you feel bad twin @nocturne jay

sand swan Nov 18, 2025, 12:49 PM

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past sentinel Shouldn't the question be why do you feel bad and not where?

Because like it matter where she feels bad

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If in the stomach the it’s a stomachache and if in the head the it’s a headache

nocturne jay Nov 18, 2025, 12:55 PM

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I feel better now

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im at school

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2nd day in a row

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if you guys wanna keep up with what im doing since recently ive been isolating myself a little

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#1438975446665658378

sand swan Nov 18, 2025, 1:02 PM

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nocturne jay I feel better now

Good

nocturne jay Nov 18, 2025, 1:04 PM

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sometimes I think no one irl cares about me

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just a thought

sand swan Nov 18, 2025, 1:08 PM

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I care about you

past sentinel Nov 18, 2025, 5:29 PM

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sand swan If in the stomach the it’s a stomachache and if in the head the it’s a headache

Good point tbh you may be right but anyways twin

past sentinel Nov 18, 2025, 5:30 PM

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nocturne jay sometimes I think no one irl cares about me

Mars maybe that is the case or maybe not, it doesn't matter because I am sure that you are gonna find the right circles irl as well and I know that you got this

I understand what you mean a lot tho so if you wish to talk maybe we can talk some day but have a nice day 🫂

nocturne jay Nov 18, 2025, 8:50 PM

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thanks

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my dad and mom keep stressing me out

nocturne jay Nov 18, 2025, 9:14 PM

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my mother and father are fucking idiots

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and my heart hurts again

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im having anxiety

past sentinel Nov 18, 2025, 9:39 PM

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Do you want to talk about it?

past sentinel Nov 18, 2025, 9:40 PM

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nocturne jay my mother and father are fucking idiots

about what happened? I hope they aren't but the feeling is relatable

past sentinel Nov 18, 2025, 9:40 PM

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nocturne jay im having anxiety

Realize that this isn't your fault twin

sand swan Nov 19, 2025, 5:30 PM

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How are you today

nocturne jay Nov 19, 2025, 7:17 PM

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im okay

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im gonna uhh

sand swan Nov 19, 2025, 7:17 PM

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nocturne jay im okay

Good

nocturne jay Nov 19, 2025, 7:17 PM

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im gonna catch up on missed work and workout

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today

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and focus on myself

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today's my self care day

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lunch first

sand swan Nov 19, 2025, 7:20 PM

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Nice

nocturne jay Nov 21, 2025, 4:05 PM

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hey guys

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I have updates

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I submitted my college applications and am almost done with both my virtual classes

sand swan Nov 21, 2025, 4:06 PM

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Good job

nocturne jay Nov 21, 2025, 4:06 PM

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I just need to apply to scholarships and pass this marking period

sand swan Nov 21, 2025, 4:06 PM

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I am proud of you

nocturne jay Nov 21, 2025, 4:06 PM

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thank you

sand swan Nov 22, 2025, 1:47 PM

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How are you today

nocturne jay Nov 22, 2025, 2:32 PM

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im okay

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i have a hangout today

sand swan Nov 22, 2025, 2:32 PM

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Nice

nocturne jay Nov 22, 2025, 2:32 PM

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at 12

sand swan Nov 22, 2025, 2:32 PM

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Have fun

nocturne jay Nov 22, 2025, 2:32 PM

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how are you?

sand swan Nov 22, 2025, 2:32 PM

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Good

nocturne jay Nov 22, 2025, 2:33 PM

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thats good

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i didnt have nightmares when i slept last night

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im happy about that

sand swan Nov 22, 2025, 2:33 PM

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Nice

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Means you are getting better and having better thoughts

nocturne jay Nov 22, 2025, 2:52 PM

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i hope so

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I still need to apply to scholarships, grants, and a state federal aid

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for college

#(17+) i am recovering from being groomed