Why My life is terrible | The Therapy Center | Page 1

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I have schizophrenia, and I’ve had it for the past 2-3yrs. I was never diagnosed but, when I first realized I had it I considered it a fight. I felt like it was the devil and it wanted to end and destroy my life. Now 3 years later I still consider it a fight, but now I’m realizing the voices are a loud reflection of emptiness, in my soul. Emptiness is loud, but it gets louder.

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I wrote this last month. I give up quite a lot. I have no fight left. But i definitely don’t have enough guts to commit suicide. So I just sit and do nothing starring at a razor blade. Or a knife I wish I had a gun

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I look up to ezio auditore from assassin creed. I always admired his life story and the way he died. Even tho hes just a video game character

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My life story is just my misery. I hate the way I live the way I’m alive

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I feel like a fucking dumbass sometimes I spent years imagining my career. But I have nothing to show for it. I’m dumb and slow and worthless. And people wonder why I hit myself in the head with a hammer

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I wish I could just be normal, I wish my life could make sense and maybe I wouldn’t hit myself.

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I have the most ugly mental disorder

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UGLY

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HIDEOUS

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I hate the fact that I’m single.. I don’t think it’ll make me feel better no. But I’ll feel a lot better if I had someone by my side

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I feel like being in a relationship would atleast take my mind of a lot of things. I do things on my own but I never escape my head it’s 24 FUCKING 7

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