(t.w. drugs) Okay so basically, a year ago I used to go out with my older cousin a lot. This one day after I broke up with my ex-boyfriend he invited me to hang out with some friends of his, and when we got here, we sparked up ||weed|| and I had bad experiences with ||weed|| before but I thought this time would be better, it wasn't.
I started feeling sick and ||greened out|| a lot, making a scene in front of them. We got into a bus and at the terminal I was falling over, only my cousin helped me up, his friends left us behind, until he sat me down far away from everyone, I was sweating a lot but suddenly I felt better and the ||high|| started feeling good. After this, my cousin started acting weird and distant to me, telling me to shut up because I was talking a lot (because of the ||high||) and his friends were talking to me normally, until we reached a seat and they made a circle leaving me out of it, and I think they were talking about me, until I read the room and left.
They made fun of me, like I was a little kid, telling me to "text them when I'm home" and "you're not going to throw a tantrum on the way home are you?" And while I was walking away my cousin said "you're already 18, I don't have to babysit you" while his friends laughed. I went home by myself ||high as fuck|| and drank a whole carton of milk before falling asleep. When I woke up my lighter was gone and one of his friends probably stole it from me because they spoke before about how he always steals lighters from them.
I don't remember a lot of what happened that night, and that bothers me a lot. I don't know if I did something completely out of pocket or something, and I don't know why they acted the way they did, and I never had closure. I remember mentioning my ex boyfriend to one of his friends and he said something along the lines of how wrong it is for a man to date a man, so maybe homophobia played a huge part on what happened? I need help. You can be brutally honest, I don't care.
#I've been suffering with the memories of an experience with a group of people for a year now
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from what you’ve said I think that you just don’t take weed in a good way. I haven’t ever taken it so I don’t really know how it feels but i guess you’ve taken it only a few times. It’s okay to have “bad highs” you should ask your cousin what happened that night if you don’t remember. Maybe you should try taking less influence from stuff like that if you keep having bad experiences