A little bit of venting | The Therapy Center | Page 1

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So, things are actually going really well in my relationship. I'm accepting the fact that I have OCD and obsessions, so I am more and more able to relax.

I guess I am just a bit scared because eventually, my boyfriend might move to South Korea for his master's degree in linguistics for two years. When we get there, god willing, we'll have had 2 years together, and the plan is the following:
First year we'll be LDR.
Second year I'll join him there and work remote if I am able to do that.
After that, we might remain there for a bit, maybe permanently. Maybe come back in Switzerland or Belgium instead of France, preferably Switzerland. It's all things we said in the beginning.

It's not a sure thing that he'll have to move, maybe we'll just stay in France. And I'm pretty sure I'd be able to do our original plan.
But holy shit it's scary.

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I didn't question it one bit before

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I'm still not but now that I'm slowly getting used to the idea of things going really well, the uncertainty is scary

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Ever so slowly I feel at ease around him more and more

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It suddenly makes it PAINFULLY real that I might lose him, even if he told me that he wouldn't leave me even if we don't meet for two years in the worst case scenario

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But I guess it's no use worrying about that now, we'll get there when we get there

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