She drank herself nonestop but the guy was trying to remove/diminish the drink and she was on her way home but the guy is telling her that he'll bring her home but she said no its okay she was declining but i guess she really cant stand anymore and she just went to the guys place just next door. I was okay back then until i wanted to speak with her to fix everything until she told me she kissed the guy. Its like someone shot me in the chess when i heard it. They both gave hickeys i was so furious i asked her so many questions like how are you able to do that to me I thought you love me i thought you wanted me but why did you do that. She said she wasnt on her mind but she remembers everything. I ask why didnt she even think of me. She was honest and sencere of what happened. She said she was very drunk she was overwelmed with thoughts plus she was thinking about her sickness so she just thought she'll just enjoy maybe its her last breath before the surgery. I was very very very broken. Im trying to understand her because i love her and we had future plans and she explained everything she will change shes very sorry that happened she thought we were in break up. I told her even we were in a break up we were chatting trying to fix. I said i wanted to fix my mistake and give you more time when i realized it. She really want to be with me and she do love me and shes scared she would hurt me if we're together again so right now we are really seperated and thinking of if we should rebuild. I want to but its very hard i dont even know if im lying to myself now because even if she did that at some point a part of me sees that she could change. To give her a chance to make up for her mistakes. Please i need answers.
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She's a beautiful, caring, sweet and smart person. Maybe she has somekind of moment she was empty thats why she did that. I know her and she is the perfect partner. How come she was able to do that to me.😭
Im trying to understand please i need answers
Now she needs more time to think about what she has done she has regretted it she's also confused. She said somethings are still missing in her and that she wants to fix herself first before she comes back to me hoping that i accept and forgives her.