I feel upset.
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arctic lagoon
I think before dying i should atleast vent my thoughts somewhere.
😶Don't think that I'm about to self harm from dying i meant after I reach my dead age not like that self harm I'm not into that.
8-10-2025
I was happy to go to school I'm really very energetic always smiling person even though it's normal life there something inside me that keep me happy maybe it's because I have realised my worth and i love myself.
Today my benchmates, 4 total benchmate I'm included.
2of them doesn't seem to be supportive but envy.
Their own life is miserable yet i try to help them shine in but they don't want to value those people who value them.
I scored 34 out of 40 in my english test but I was absent yesterday and teacher showed our result yesterday and my benchmates checked my paper and reduces my mark into 30 and teacher didn't even checked I was mad because it was the second time they did this,today teacher said whoever was absent yesterday can check their mark I did and then i supported them for whatever and encouraged them ,they never got 25 above in any subject even I made a study group but it's upto them i tried my best as a friend. The 3rd benchmates is really nice she get good marks as I do and she has good personality I wish other were like that too kind,good,care for their friends.
The thing that upset me is that
I feel sorrow because alot of people envy me I want peace to be maintained and equality,they want to see other in their miserable state.
They don't like it when people are doing goodt even if you are friend of theirs.
It doesn't bother me but I have feelings too.
Sometimes it just get out like here.
Even though Im surrounded by these envy people I tend to stay happy because I see my worth I won't care about them if I caught them with real valid reason.
It's so tiring TT too much work, academic.
But to be strong I have to do what is suitable,I have to beat these envy people in every way ain't no way I'm losing and being depressed because of them they are not even someone for me.