mystic horizon Oct 5, 2025, 10:21 PM

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i will vent my feelings , say how my day went , list my dreams etc there will be drama about friendship in here ee

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main thing why i joined here this community

I used to be friends with two people but I was rude to someone who tried hanging out with us I was like evil back then and they kicked me out it was good that they did they were still kind I was a devil back then and now I realised they are the best friends I’ve ever had and I’m now friends with this person I dislike I just don’t want to be lonely she does stuff I don’t like and I do wish I had my first friends still if wanna time travel to stay and be kind to everyone , I’ve tried joining other friend groups but I’m trying my best to be included but they won’t include me and the person who I was rude to is in my English class and we are friends and talk to each other in English because she forgives me and I love her for forgiving me and if she moves one set up she’ll be with her friends which is my first friends and even if I move up she won’t recognise me as much and you know cause she loves her friends I’m just sad I messed up with them and there is nothing to do I’m not happy with the friend I hang out with now
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05/10/25

tommorow is school im scared to go school im not really like in my school for some reason i feel so down right now i just wish i was freinds with them again or the person who i was rude to, when i go college i hope i find freinds like them , or maybe one of them leaves the group the person who i was rude to and comes to me (she still likes me we are like freinds but we just dont hang out with eachother) i really do miss being freinds with them im a kpop fan and so as 2 of them i miss talking and laughing with them i wish there was a time machine or if i just had one more chance , honestly i dont think ill find better freinds....ive just finished showering and had pizza it was nice but sigh i just wish i had once more chance really

mystic horizon Oct 6, 2025, 5:28 PM

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06/10/25

honestly today school was bad I hate it so much I’m not gonna lie I hate hanging out with the person I hang out with but I guess it’s a tiny bit better than being lonely I’ve just finished doing my tuition ahhh I can’t wait for holiday even though i don’t know when it is

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Maybe I’ll try focus on my study’s

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I want to get good

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I still don’t know what job I want lol sob cries

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It’s a bit late but it’s never too late till I’m out of school

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Right

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Ok bye imma go nap

mystic horizon Oct 8, 2025, 6:05 PM

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08/10/25

a teacher is ruining my life by saying i stink when i am hygenic the people are just gaslighting me my freinds and mum and dad said i smell good and my uniform is clean i feel so sad now people will hate me i am hygenic i shower very long showers 2 times a week i wear deodorant i wear perfume before every lesson i dont know why I smell bad in maths only its only it maths they literally called my parents and my parents was disappointed because I didn’t smelt anywhere near bad i hate the teacher so bad and the gaslighter im crying so bad why does it have to be me I hate this teacher i hate hate hate this teacher why is my life so ruined im trying my best to recover from a friendship break up and I got a friend I don’t really enjoy and now your adding this on please last year I was less hygenic than this year and now I’m stinky and apparently it only comes in maths okay what is this I hope the teacher realised who she favourites deeply

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I was texting my friend about it and she said it’s crazy aswell even tho I don’t really appreciate her sometimes because I was never wanted to be with her sometimes I do it kind of boosted my mood I just bought a 200 pound perfume hoping it will smell nice

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I’m really hygenic I wash my hands after I get dirt on it I’m just clean but I don’t know why people started targeting me or it was my desk that was stinky because I could say it was very suffocating smell coming from it

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I used to always put my hand up in maths but I won’t anymore I’ll just stay quiet I don’t want to do anything for my maths teacher I’ll just try in different lessons

mystic horizon Oct 9, 2025, 1:49 PM

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09/10/25

omg the person who I was rude to when I used to be friends with the other people asked to hang out with me forever since the other friends had been saying things behind her back but I don’t know cause the group I left my 2nd friends which I haven’t mentioned about basically I tried my best to include myself with them but they wouldn’t include me and the girl I hang out with now used to be friends with those peoples the times where I was rude to her and I don’t know I dont want to hang out with the 2nd friends istg they don’t even like me

mystic horizon Oct 11, 2025, 7:07 PM

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the girl who i was rude to lets called her jen (not her real name)

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but like shes changed honestly

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she isnt as much fun as she was back then ngl she used to be active and yk fun to be around

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but idk shes less of that

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i dont wanna go back to school im stressing abt what will happen

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in the week

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i keep stressing so much and overthinking

mystic horizon Oct 11, 2025, 7:09 PM

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mystic horizon 08/10/25 a teacher is ruining my life by saying i stink when i am hygenic the p...

im scared abt this i forgot if i mentioned but i told my freinds to smell me a couple and they said i smelt fine

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i wish i had other problems instead of being called un-hygenic

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i cant calm down

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im gonna make sure i shower everyday instead of twice a week

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im just really scared to go back to school

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ugh im js so depressed

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like i wish i wasnt in school on that one day

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like i put on perfume before the lesson

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omg

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im so scared

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i wish i could skip seeing this week

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and time travel

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1 week

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honestly this school cares abt "mental health" while they let some students drown and they end up doing stuff while the school favors the popular kid

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I’m really down and sad

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I can’t stop thinking about it

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I wonder what it feels like to be happy

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Idk I wish there was some way to prevent this but I did try? I don’t know any reason why they called me unhygenic

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Honestly I hope maybe before Christmas it fixes and I’m normal again

mystic horizon Oct 12, 2025, 12:51 AM

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i wish i was a normal person well i am..

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but

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with no trouble

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maybe some freindship fall outs ig?

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and depression

mystic horizon Oct 12, 2025, 7:12 PM

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omge its school tmr and its night atm

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i wish i had a nice life ngl

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like happy

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i mean school can be boring

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but ill have freinds that care

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and make me happy

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without me trying my best

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and people to stop bullying me ig

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yeah

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my dream life

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a normal life

mystic horizon Oct 12, 2025, 8:09 PM

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ILL UPDATE YALL TMR

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on how the school day goes

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and hopefully it goes good and schools normal again

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im gonna do a longg shower

mystic horizon Oct 13, 2025, 12:00 AM

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Honestly my mom cares about a birds life more than mine

mystic horizon Oct 13, 2025, 7:16 AM

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Oh my god my bird died

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Well my favourite bird died

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Anyways I’m off to school

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Honestly I never thought anything worse would happen when it did

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I never realised the signs of hypothermia but it was right there

mystic horizon Oct 13, 2025, 3:24 PM

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I hate ms for life

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My favourite cousin gave the bird to my little brother as a gift

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And now my cousin will hate me

mystic horizon Oct 14, 2025, 11:11 PM

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Omg I got some tea to tell you

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Ok so let em address the people first since I do need to give them names

mystic horizon Oct 14, 2025, 11:13 PM

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mystic horizon **main thing why i joined here this community** I used to be friends with two ...

The girl I was rude to a bit ago - ellie

One old friend from the two friends here - jaz

The second old friend - nia

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Ok these aren’t their real names

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So

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So you know how ellie came and hang out with me yeah she leaked everything to me and said omg jaz kept being rude to her and was just back talking her even tho when I got kicked out jaz said oh but I like ellie actually I was just acting

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This isn’t even the craziest part

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So jaz also mocked Muslims and became a non Muslim (she was a Muslim but didn’t like do stuff just believed in it) she said she isn’t a Muslim anymore and Muslims are like fake etc

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Also when ellie was on call with jaz, ellie told jaz politely to stop calling her an idiot and jaz said “it’s my humour your just like (me)”

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Jaz also fat shames nia and nia looks sad when jaz fat shames her

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When I was friends with jaz and nia apparently whenever I texted nia , nia went on call with jaz and laughed about the texts I sent which was private texts since I considered nia my therapist (Ellie told me)

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Jaz has a good reputation in school and everyone likes her even tho jaz says shit about everyone , nia and jaz are like the worst duo to ever exist

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I just realised I escaped a trap because nia leaking my personal messages is way over the line

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They are so malicious the duo omg

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I feel bad for ellie cause I changed and thought jaz would go but she didn’t and ellie has already suffered a lot when i was bad but she did again because of jaz

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If everyone knew what jaz did no one would like her

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I feel bad for jaz mom

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And if nias mom found out about what jaz does i know she will do something crazy

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I don’t know how someone can be this malicious , backbiting ellie then ditching ellie then befriending ellie saying “i actually liked ellie” then proceeding to backbite ellie again,

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Honestly jaz thinks just because she is pretty she can do anything

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She looks innocent but really a demon possessed her

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Me and ellie was talking about it when ellie decided to hang out with me

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Honestly I’m disappointed in nia honestly and in jaz but what can I expect

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Nia was so kind to me and like yapped to me she was like a music person and ya

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I enjoyed her

mystic horizon Oct 15, 2025, 2:19 PM

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Update but I was talking to Ellie and we said that we feel like nia doesn’t really agree with jaz but nia just says yes since nia wants to stay with jaz

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Cause I do really like nia like she is so kind

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But I’m not sure because her leaking my messages with her and laughing about it make me feel yk tricked

mystic horizon Oct 15, 2025, 6:02 PM

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i js miss my bird omg

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i imagine sitting in sunset nearby the seashore knowing my baby birds there

mystic horizon Oct 15, 2025, 7:58 PM

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can someone come and vent to me abt a relationship here

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im bored

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idk but yes

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im nbored

mystic horizon Oct 15, 2025, 11:26 PM

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Honestly

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I didn’t even do my geography homework

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And it’s due tomorrow

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Does someone think I should

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I might have to come back when it’s free time or after school

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I’m lowkey lazzyyyy

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Anyways I just found out my white birds wings are damaged and she can’t fly properly

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I’m not sure if it’s temporarily or perm

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I’m so bored rn

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Ugh

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Me and Ellie keeps updating each other on nia and jaz

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Cause ya

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They don’t shut up talking about Ellie

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Honestly nia is really nice to be honest I really liked her but it feels like she’s poisoned by jaz and agrees to jaz all the time because nia wants to be with jaz

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Jaz used to be mature the first year of our friendship

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But the next year

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She changed and whenever I talked to her that year it’d usually end up as a fight I didn’t really know what to talk about with her but ya she did change so I started liking nia better

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Honestly I don’t know what happened to nia and what she thinks but I don’t know I feel like jaz is gonna be talking shit about nia

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Like I can feel it

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Like I don’t know what jaz has become

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But I really do like nia

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I don’t know why she would leak my text messages but ya

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I can slightly forgive that

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That’s the only thing she has done

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I just hope jaz has her downfall im not evil or anything

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She just needs her karma

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And I want best for nia and Ellie and me

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Imagine me, nia and Ellie became a trio

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I’d like that

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Because me and Ellie was talking about how we think that nia just agrees to jaz because she wants to be with jaz and that she doesn’t actually agree

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Just imagine me Ellie and nia

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I’d actually love that

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It seems so perfect

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But I’m not sure how it’ll happen

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I just wish it would happen

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Idk how nia would come and ya

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I mean if jaz talk shit about her probably but she does have friends who she also hangs out with at free time

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And she might stay with those

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People

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But if all of them and jaz talks shit about nia

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Nia might come to us

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Nia deserves better

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Cause like jaz does fat shame nia

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And nia does look sad when it happens

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Or if nias mum find about how bad of a person jaz is and forbid her from talking to jaz

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Ya

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Honestly life is doing pretty decent atm

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I mean lowkey I don’t think nia agrees that Ellie is too yk “annoying” as jaz says but Ellie told me if jaz said that to her in a nice way saying oh I don’t really like how you act etc could you change/leave it would’ve been way better and mature

mystic horizon Oct 16, 2025, 2:14 PM

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Today was nearly much Ellie wasn’t in today and I hang out with the friends I don’t like but ya

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I guess it’s a mid day

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I’m gonna bring my crochet kit tomorrow since Ellie is good at it

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And might help me

mystic horizon Oct 16, 2025, 3:43 PM

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sigh im getting so sad

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whenever i mention a bird my mum keeps reminding me that one died "cus of me"

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i js wanna cry

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and harm ms whenever someone mentions it

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ive alr been harming myself

mystic horizon Oct 17, 2025, 3:24 PM

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i wasnt in school today

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😭

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cus i was sickk

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ANYWAYS MY FAV DC SERVER GOT TERMED OR LIKE YK ON LOCKDOWN

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cus someone paid a lot to get the owner of it banned on discord

mystic horizon Oct 19, 2025, 4:25 AM

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Ugh omg

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Why do I want to cry so bad

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I miss my bird

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It was partially my fault

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I keep on remembering the times with my bird

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Istg what if my cousin finds out

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Omg I don’t forgive myself at all

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I miss the bird

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It was LITREALLY everyone’s favourite bird out of the 5

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Yall I wanna time travel

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Just like time travel 2 weeks ago

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So I can save the birdie

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Ugh

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I’m lowk looking at pictures of the bird and I’m crying rn

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WHYYYY

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When my life goes good something just crushes it back down

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Lowk when my bird died I became friends with ellie

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LIKE I DID DREAM OF BECOMING FREINDS W ELLIE

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but ugh I’d rather my bird be alive than yeah

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WHYYY

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SOMEONE TELL ME WHY

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life’s so unfair omg

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So rigged

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And like ugh

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Why’s life like this

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I miss my bird

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AND WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE THE BIRD EVERYONE LOVES

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like I’m sorry why couldn’t it be like the bird no one ever touches

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Or like plays with

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OMGEE WHYYY?

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is my life playing with me

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Well if it is

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It ain’t funny

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It’s straight up annoying

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Honestly my problems is just about the guilt of my bird dying

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That’s the only problem

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main problem : the guilt of being partially the fault of my birds death and the sadness after my birds death I feel empty and just empty I don’t know who I am anymore?

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Why the fudge do I always have one problem in my life

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Like I don’t want one problem

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Bro this is so unfair fr

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It’s lowkey 5am

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And I haven’t slept

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Heh

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Uhm it doesn’t matter

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It was a Saturday

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Bro like if my bird didn’t die I’d be happily listening to drip by baby monster

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But like I’m depressed

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Ughhhhhhh

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Anyways to the cute baby bird that I ACCIDENTLY killed…

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I love you so much bro I didn’t mean for you to die like I didn’t know showering you for a few seconds under cold water in a cold weather would be serious it seems unbelievable at first to see how delicate you are but I do miss you and hope your doing good I’m taking more care of the other birds because of you it’s all because of you that I’m becoming someone more gentle and caring I really didn’t mean for that to happen we couldn’t go to the vet in time you died overnight I love you baby bird and everyone else we thought you wouldn’t die so early

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I feel so guilty and unforgiven

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Ugh I just wish I could give you all the food you ever want seeing you just turn around whenever I put bird food in the cage you look so happy then I love when you did your playful bites I wish you could bite me a million times I don’t care if I’ll be bruised I just want to see you

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My little baby I would let you out of the cage as long as you like I’ll do anything for you I’ll buy you a billion toys and hope you enjoy atleast one

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In the future I’ll get a bird and name it like you remembering me of you cause I don’t wanna ever forget you and I’ll act like that bird is you and I’ll treat it like a queen

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You used to be such a good duo with the other white cockatiel but now your not here the cockatiel misses you

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Ugh why am I crying again

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All my tears I’ve cried for you are all the regret for you I wish I didn’t do that to you

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I remember crying in the bathroom afterschool when I came back home because I couldn’t take that you were gone

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My little birdiee I love you

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I was lowk planning to buy you a leash so we could go outside

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But you died

mystic horizon Oct 19, 2025, 11:02 AM

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I miss my bird

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mystic horizon Oct 27, 2025, 12:35 AM

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Bro

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I feel depressed because of school life

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I’m thinking back to it

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Friends I had last year don’t like me anymore

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Some people don’t like me last year they didn’t mind

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I’m just depressed

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I wish people like me and I was

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Happy

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In school

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Instead of overthinking if this person is comfortable sitting next to me

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I wish I was as happy as some people in this server

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With sarcasm and a normal life

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I wish I had someone to talk to

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Jennys sad journal

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Ellie thinks she’s to annoying since jaz and others say bad stuff about her that’s the only thing she is sad about

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And I’m sad about people not liking me , me being too ugly , me being smelly even tho I do try smell good by doing everything I can, people just hating me because of everything about me

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Jaz is so pretty and everyone loves her she has no problems ugh

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I know she is my exfreind but I just feel really jealous

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She’s so pretty unlike me

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I got a fat nose and acne my skin color

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Ugh just everything about me

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I wonder how people can look me in the face

mystic horizon Oct 31, 2025, 6:22 AM

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I miss my bird

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I think I’m just overthinking

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But I just miss him

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He was so talkative

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And was everyone’s favourite

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The worst thing is the guilt in me

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I hope you a good life little birdie

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It was never intentional

mystic horizon Nov 3, 2025, 2:12 AM

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Sigh

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I feel ugly

mystic horizon Nov 6, 2025, 3:51 PM

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Honestly I like nia a lot I like her vibe

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I don’t know if I like ellie I just sometimes gets the ick because she likes this friend who I don’t like who kinda annoys me I know and Ellie just lies aswell I like Ellie but I sometimes just think of wanting to be friends with nia

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Idm jaz to be honest some things ellie said weren’t true

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I wish I was in the trio

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I really do miss nia really

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She’s innocent

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She talks about books and music and other stuff

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She’s interesting to be around honestly

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But I don’t wanna seem like I’m too into her or like follow her eveywhere yk

mystic horizon Nov 11, 2025, 9:06 PM

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Yall I don’t know

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I don’t really like ellie anymore

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So you know how I hanged out with someone last year that I didn’t really like like but it was better than being alone then being lonely and I appreciated it well ellie now chooses that girl let’s call her lie for now so lie treats Ellie better then when we were a duo

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And like I don’t know ellie is kinda changing and becoming more like lie ish

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Ellie like chooses lie first and now we are a trio and I don’t really like trios

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Sigh I thought I was ellies first choice

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I was actually happy

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But I don’t know

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I also feel like people don’t like me for some reason

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People who I was friends with last year kinda gives me the cold shoulder this year

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Maybe because of the incident earlier this school year

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Ugh I wish I was pretty and popular in a good way

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Jennys journal NEED ADVICE

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Or I hope lie and I was friends I don’t know about ellie I mean she is nice probably her aswell but not in a trio

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Sigh I wish I was in an easy situation

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Only if I had my hair out people would compliment me but my parents won’t allow

mystic horizon Nov 11, 2025, 10:11 PM

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I feel so sad

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I wish I had a friend I liked

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Nia would probably be the best

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Just me and her as a bsf

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I don’t know if I’m weird for wanting me and her to become friends even though we aren’t close

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We used to be close if you read above above about all the drama

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Me and nia are like friends she likes me

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Today in maths we did this thing with lie cause me nia and lie are in the same maths class

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Ellie isn’t in our maths class

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But nia mainly talked to me

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Even tho jaz was like in the maths class nia jaz and a couple of people wanted to be a group but then the teacher told one to move and nia chose to move and i said i was sorry she move and then nia said she didn’t mind because she liked me ,

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I know that may not seem too much but it really sparkled something in me

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Like she doesn’t see me as just a freind who does nothing in her life but as someone who she genuinely likes

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I sometimes try talk to jaz small talk but I always end up embarrassing myself because I say like wanna be together but then someone came up to her so I couldn’t

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I just want to make up for what I have done to jaz after ignoring her

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Because I was too heart broken

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About the break up of us

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It always ends up embarrassing me

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I sit next to her in history I sometimes think of talking to her in paired work but nothing comes out she doesn’t look like she wants to talk at the moment to me I don’t know if she will like ignore me or judge me if I just like talk about paired work

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I don’t know if I should just leave her I probably should as she moved on from me and wants nothing to do with me

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Maybe

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I’m not sure if she wants nothing to do with me

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I just want to be a small freind to her after ignoring her for a while after she said we should just stay friends

mystic horizon Nov 11, 2025, 10:20 PM

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Replying to my past self : it’s okay you eventually get the thought out of your mind and realise that no one takes it seriously it’s all good I’m recovering fast and I don’t really think of cookie my bird that much

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Still a bit of guilt in me

mystic horizon Nov 11, 2025, 10:24 PM

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mystic horizon Nia might come to us

I hope not I honestly don’t like trios that much I mean not gonna lie the best trio I had was nia and jaz the others… no…. The problem was I overreacted a lot with that trio we hanged out frequently after school I like it even if jaz talked to nia a bit more I should not care because you know

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I just don’t know with ellie I wish I liked her but I have this kind of empty feeling for her she’s nice and all but I don’t know

mystic horizon Nov 11, 2025, 10:25 PM

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mystic horizon She looks innocent but really a demon possessed her

I talked to jaz about this in private like a week ago and jaz told me that ellie was probably really mad and made up a bunch of lies and that it was all not true one incident

mystic horizon Nov 16, 2025, 1:39 AM

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Sigh gyall

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I don’t really like ellie too much

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And I sometimes compare myself to jaz she is so pretty

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And me…

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I’m just some ugly person

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Ellie just spams my text and does other stuff that kinda annoys me

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I hope I look pretty when I’m older

mystic horizon Dec 12, 2025, 7:27 PM

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elle and i are gonna hang out with another freind

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i dont rlly seem hyped like them

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i remember hanging out with jaz and nia one day like ts

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i miss them

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im a bit close to nia but not that much and unsure if jaz likes me anymore

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why did i have to mess up

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sorry jaz. im so sorry i hopethings were the way itwas

mystic horizon Dec 12, 2025, 10:52 PM

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I’m kinda hyped to hang out with them we were planning to go to the mall then to the others house not mine

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I asked my mum she kept saying who’s responsibility is it to keep me safe

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She never gets it

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She doesn’t want me to go

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She says she’ll go to the mall with me and my grandma will come aswell because they planned to

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I literally hate them

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Why do they have to be like this

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My parent

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My dad is cool

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I like my dad he isn’t overprotective

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Idk why parents can’t understand

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They force me to wear stuff I feel uncomfortable wearing

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I feel so sad

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I hate how my mum has to be like this just because my sister was like a bad kid

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Even tho all my friends are good

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She never understands it

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She always thinks I’ll become my sister

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If she keeps going like this then I’m turning like my sister

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If she lets me be free I won’t

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It’s her not me

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Just because my friend can’t go to my house that’s an excuse for my mum

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So I shouldn’t be able to go to their house

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My mom agreed my dad dropping me off

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I’ll ask my dad to like go on a bus with me

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To her house

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After the mall

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I feel so trapped

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I wish my mum was less strict her strictness isn’t helping me it’s just making me become more distant from her

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I don’t even share anything with her anymore

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Sometimes I love her it’s sometimes

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Sometimes I just wish she was better

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She could’ve been perfect

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It’s not like I vape when I go out with my friends

mystic horizon Dec 13, 2025, 12:58 AM

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Ugh I feel so trapped tho

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I know when I ask my mum if I can walk to my friends house then go with her to school she will say no I know she willl hit me with the same line

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Even if I got in trouble I know what to do

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Plus they have my location 24/7

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I feel so trapped

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I just can’t

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I really want to become social but according to her I should not because there is a .1 chance that someone will come and kidnap me

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Probably even lower

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Literally everyone has their own business to take care of

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Why would they kidnap people or like do something

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They really think they are protecting me but they are just isolating me from who I want to Ben

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Be

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If my mum ever says why don’t you go outside I’ll just respond because you never let me because you think people will kidnap me

mystic horizon Dec 13, 2025, 10:30 PM

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idk why i never feel happy

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i js never do

mystic horizon Dec 14, 2025, 8:48 PM

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not my lil bro mentioning the dead bird

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and blaming it on me

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wow

mystic horizon Jan 8, 2026, 3:40 AM

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Okay

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My goal for this year

be normal
be freinds with that new girl
have a less fat nose
not smell at all
befreind many people again
hopefully get that one girl to don’t mind me again
get people being nice to me
be completely normal

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Idk why this one girl don’t like me last year I talked to her she didn’t mind me she was like hmm idk idm you

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Now she hates me and when I’m near her she moves away idk what I did

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I just feel sad why she suddenly avoids me I feel like someone told smt about me

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I hate this school

foggy mountain Jan 8, 2026, 5:20 PM

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Goals that shouldn't be goals
Be normal
Have a less fat nose
Not smell at all (could be unrealistic mental health is a struggle)
Get people being nice to you

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I don't think you done anything wrong to get the girl to dislike you and if someone told something about you they a problem not you

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And also atleast you tried to make goals but you have to think about yourself be selfish a bit

mystic horizon Jan 9, 2026, 8:56 PM

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foggy mountain I don't think you done anything wrong to get the girl to dislike you and if some...

truee i just pray for a good reputation at school, i try look better hoping itll change but its just them people, i hate them all inside but i js dont care i want people liking me i genuienly like ppl who like me

mystic horizon Jan 9, 2026, 8:56 PM

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foggy mountain And also atleast you tried to make goals but you have to think about yourself be...

ill try!

mystic horizon May 7, 2026, 6:59 PM

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I’m back after a while something major has happened..

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Ellie came back to me because she got kicked out of the group with jaz and nia I thought she changed but she is like annoying to me she talks to me sometimes in this baby voice and says “omg jen don’t fly away” she’s shorter than me, she is super rude to this one girl who is autistic and kinda annoys us aswell I only like the autistic girl cs she yaps and I want smbody yapping to me, Ellie is so rude to her and always protective over me to her and is always acting better than the girl and bad talking her, like I get it she overreacts and is annoying sometimes but your talking to much bad stuff , I start like being uncomfortable around my Ellie and she gets quiet (also to add on she always eats my food whenever I bring but I bring food for me then I tell one do the person from my old trio about my feelings about her literally yesterday I wasn’t sure if they liked her or not or how it ended but she ended up saying same (I miss the trio so much but it kinda broke up since they both don’t really hang out they go with the same group but split up sometimes) Ellie is getting closer to this one group and that group is like close to my ex bffs let’s say (the one who I was in a trio with) and like she ditched me and said I’ll be right back but she was with them the whole time but I didn’t give a care because I was with the autistic girl and two other people who I like I js draw with them it’s fun later on I start talking to the people in my old trio and we kinda bond we were together in break talking about what Ellie did but we aren’t mine hanging out or anything they still are close and idk if I’ll ever hang out with them again

foggy mountain May 16, 2026, 11:06 AM

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What are you gonna do about the rude ones I also hate condescending ppl I'm sorry you are going through that

mystic horizon May 26, 2026, 11:04 PM

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foggy mountain What are you gonna do about the rude ones I also hate condescending ppl I'm sorr...

Honestly I don’t know I’m scared for what will happen in the future

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My home life is hell aswell

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I’m feeling pretty not good like I want to || Kms|| myself, I just never get recognised I always get scolded at I don’t think anyone even loves me the only thing making me happy is my pets and two of them died, I feel ugly my bsf left me for someone else everything is just ugh

#Jennys journal NEED ADVICE

main problem : the guilt of being partially the fault of my birds death and the sadness after my birds death I feel empty and just empty I don’t know who I am anymore?