#in my feels

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fervent mesa
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js dumping everything here so it feels like im talking to someone

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Found this in my notes app from 20 Nov 2024 😭

STOP LIKE HE LITERALLY FELL TO KNEES LIKE THAT ANIME SCENE ON TIKTOK WHERE THE DUDE FALLS TO HIS KNEES WHEN THE GIRL SAYS HIS NAME LIKE WHATTT AND BRO WAS JUMPING AROUND AND CLINGING TO THE WALL OR SUMN WHILE HIS FRIENDS LAUGHED AT HIM AND LIKE NO CUZ HOW DID I FUMBLE THAT OMDZZ I AM TWEAKING BRO PLS COME BACK 😭😭🙏

AND HE RAN TO ME IN HIS SKATES

ITS BEEN 5 DAYS MANNNN FUMBLE OF THE CENTURY

I think the context was me making a move on the lil eyecontactship i had going on with this random dude at the skating rink and i told him that i liked his jeans and then left it at that but as i was about to leave he asked for my ig but i didnt have my phone on me so i js told him my user and gapped it cuz i was in a hurry but i dont think he got it right man i shoulda jst typed it in his phone bro 🫩

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20th July 2025 i wrote this to C in my notes app like 20 days after we stopped talking

Do you remember when id always tell you about how i was so not locked in for physics and calc but now its gotten so much better and i actually got excellence for the one physics internal and ever since i switched to classes my calc has gotten so much better too im so happy and i think for integration i ac got it in the bag frl. Anyway i miss you alot i hope ur doing well.

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3 Aug 2025

Today i cleared up the basement.
There is still furniture to be thrown away but most of the space has been cleared. I think that cleaning helps me get out of my head and ground myself with the task at hand. It's almost therapeutic and i feel slightly happy about myself today with what l've accomplished which is better than most days.

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18 Aug 2025 notes app

Sometimes it feels like ill always end up being the one hurting the most whether i build up walls or love someone with all my heart.