I’ve always been shy and socially anxious, especially at school. I almost hate how humans are and how they act as it’s confusing and tiring to communicate to others. Sometimes I just draw a blank and never know what to say, even with my parents. I’ve also recently developed some kind of brain fog so I now feel disconnected from my emotions too, and it’s really hindered my ability to process things mentally at school (such as doing maths in my head). I can have pretty low moments where I just want to give up, yet I just somehow keep going the next day, probably because it’s usually a school day. Infact I can barely remember what I did at school the day before. Because of how I manage to move on, I can’t tell if I need help or if I’m just faking things. Is it just because of my lack of sleep, meaning if I fixed my sleep schedule everything will be fine? Also, sorry if this sounds weird, but i really want to rely on someone and be loved. I miss being held. No matter what I do, I just can’t connect with other humans.
#I don’t know what to do anymore
mild tinsel
timber willow
You're not faking things. If you were, you wouldn't be able to articulate how you felt as properly as opposed to just asking for attention from other people.
Unfortunately, social skills are just like a muscle and can only improve with constant stress. I deal with a similar discomfort whenever talking to my family. Especially my extended family, and I'll end up forgetting their birthdays a lot of the time.
In terms of your depressive episodes, it might be teenage hormones if you're around that age.
But getting a good amount of sleep 8-10 hours every night is extremely important.
Remembering what you learned in class the day before and just your mood in general should improve if you fix your sleep schedule.
It might not, which is why taking care of yourself in every aspect is equally important.
And the best advice for loneliness I can give is to put yourself out there.
But that could end up hurting you.
The good news is a lot of people feel the same way, so sometimes it just takes you being vulnerable FIRST.