i needed a place to keep track of everything i have on my mind and this seems like a pretty cool place to do just that :3
#lil baby feels a lil sad
untold wasp
felt lost and confused and a little bit depressed today tho im not really sure why... got a prett small time test tomorro but im still anxious af to the point that im literally unable to do anything at all
making this journal was also a way to try and escape ig cuz i feel like doing literally anything other studying
i think my asthma's coming back too which is just an overall bummer
im tired too i suppose its all a little too much for me and i think
trying not to think about it in its entirety isnt really a solution
its just prolonging the inevitable crashout of the week
which topic are we gonna overthink and obsess over today!
i try to take a pause and
give myself some time sometimes
but i get scared easily
im afraid of what i
afraid of i i dont even know anymore because
i try my best to stop thinking and like reflect over myself
but i cant bring myself to actually do it
i think this also ties into my insomnia a little bit because ive conditioned myself into being afraid of sleeping
and turns out i physically cannot bring myself to sleep unless its 5 or 6 am
hooray :))
im not sure as to what im doing or what im supposed to be doing
it feels like time is slipping away from me and
i dont really have anyone(?)
theres no real friends i can
talk to?
i feel like i dont exist when im not talking to people
which is weird cuz too much interactions puts me out like a light it makes sooo tired
but i depend so much on it
is it validation maybe?
i think ill stop here for today
this is pretty fun lowkey <3