worthy wave
And here we are, my little journal. Never thought I would be getting into this. As the title says it is my story. What happens in the day in the life of Bala and how does his thought process works? I do not expect anyone to read this and if anyone reads this, thank you, I hope I can be of some interest. Now off we go.
20/08/2025
Excluded from a friend group this morning, to say the least. It was very expected. Not everyone is fit in for everyone, we do not click like puzzle pieces at times. Oh well, time to move on to the next as they say?
But I suppose, what defines a friend? Who am I looking for or what do I want? Needs I cannot answer, I suppose this is why I can never click with anyone. Though I try my best, really do. All of it is effort down the drain.
Sometimes I wish what it would be like if I lived life a little differently. What if I did not do that little screw up? Or what if I had done things a little differently? It keeps running in my head. Do I have an answer? No, but all I know is, there is one answer not related to the question- Things would have been different. That different is now a lost wish which I keep hoping for.
You know stuff is bad when someone as laid back as me has to resort to keeping an online forum post of a thing as a account to daily life. And I am not exactly sure the embarrasment I slightly feel knowing these are my words and thoughts right out in the open. People can read, and people in here DO read. Will my story be enough?
My name is Bala. And one day, this whole world is going to know my name.
worthy wave
21/08/2025
My head wanders in thought as I try to find the words to write here. It is the same old day. My college starts in 8 days. I am not too worried about it, except for the fact, I am thinking of how ways could go south. College is my last shot at making friends and having the best time of my life. It is with no doubt I can pull that skill off. After all, I am very extroverted. What if the people have their own groups or own buddies? I certainly do not want it go like my high-school days, that's for sure.
worthy wave
bump yeah