#complicated feelings…

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agile quiver
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Forest, if you see this, DO NOT READ ANY FURTHER, please….

censoring this just bc…

||so about a month ago, i went thru a bad breakup with my ex.. it was a long distance relationship, two years with WAY too many mental issues for us to last. the only reason we stayed together for so long was because we were both so dependent on each other. we ONLY had eachother. and now that we aren’t together, it kinda sucks. i mean sure, i have a boyfriend now thats in person but..he has full time school and i have part time school, and a job. we barely see eachother now. anyways, that’s not the point..||

||i miss him. holy shit i miss him. i feel so guilty for feeling this way but having someone go from being your everything to absolutely nothing is horrible and…i dont know what to do. i don’t wanna break my new boyfriends heart, but i feel so guilty for feeling like this. it sucks more than anything… secretly i wish i could have him back. that things wouldn’t have been doomed from the start. because they were. and it sucks…||

vast heron
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Hi! I get why you feel that way. Going from having someone be your whole world to suddenly not having them at all is a huge shift, and it makes sense that part of you still misses what you had, even if the relationship wasn’t healthy long term. Missing someone doesn’t mean you want them back, it just means your heart is still catching up to what your head already knows. Try to give yourself grace and time, because it’s normal to feel conflicted after a breakup. And don’t feel guilty for having emotions, it doesn’t mean you’re being unfair to your new boyfriend, it just means you’re still healing. Maybe instead of pushing the feelings away, let yourself process them, and over time they’ll sting less

agile quiver
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all of this, it just mskes me wish that me snd him could’ve actually worked out. that we couldve married eachother and everything

vast heron
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Aww,, I get that. When you’ve pictured a whole future with someone, it’s so painful to let that go, it feels like you’re grieving not just the person but the life you imagined together. It’s okay to mourn that, even if deep down you know it wasn’t meant to last. I think it shows how deeply you can love, and that’s not a bad thing at all. With time, those ‘what ifs’ won’t feel as sharp, and you’ll be able to carry the memories without it hurting this much

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vast heron
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