just a warning on what i'm discussing in here!
depressing topics (wont get into detail), mommy issues, SH, thats mainly it im not sure..
#luzias yip yap
frigid jasper
so since i made this today im just gonna bring up what happened last night since i wasnt here then.
last night I got yelled at by my mother for the simplest thing that I didnt attend to and i usually get upset easily, like I cry easily and I just snap. so last night I relapsed after a month of being clean. im still disappointed in myself for doing that. ive tried coping mechanisms but i honestly dont think they work? any advice is welcome <3
frigid jasper
so earlier today I did it again but it wasnt as bad as it was last night, i think im slowly improving. my friend noticed something felt wrong about me so I told her everything thats happened and she said shes proud of me for opening up and telling her that
i hope it doesnt make her think less of me
forgot to mention but i FINALLY cleaned up my arms, they were so messy.
frigid jasper
i woke up and my scars look not as bad as yesterday somehow, like they arent extremely red but u can still see them. tomorrow i have canning for baseball and I hope we raise atleast 500 dollars! it might not happen but i have hope <3
frigid jasper
relapsed again, im so cooked gang
frigid jasper
my arm is so itchy where i harmed myself brodie 😞😞
i do NOT wanna scratch right on top of them bc its gonna HURT
frigid jasper
trying very hard not to harm myself because im 9 hours clean
trying to make it to a day!!!
frigid jasper
18 hours clean!!
Try not to become a person of success, but rather try to become a person of value. – Albert Einstein #iamsober
frigid jasper
i need to do it
oh my god
im trying really hard not to harm myself
i cant help myself
my arm feels numb
frigid jasper
i got henna today
i know its supposed to be on your palm but i didnt want the artist to see my scars
frigid jasper
||relapsed||
fresh sonnet
Girl I'm not much of an sh-er but one way to limit that behavior you can try to setting times eg. Every morning it's easier then trying to jump straight to being clean
frigid jasper
hey guys
its been awhile
ive been doing alright
ive been clean for a week!
im so so so proud of myself
frigid jasper
forgot to log this but relapsed literally hours after
that's embarrassing
anywhooo
frigid jasper
im in the hospital rn
ive been here for i think 2 days?
2 or 3
ive been in a dark place
my mom found out about my ||s/h|| when it was really visible so she took me here
theyve just been helping me heal because it was really bad
i dont feel okay
im never okay
i feel like such a fucking baby
ive always been a sensitive person
i hate everything about myself
i dont know how much more i can take
fresh sonnet
Bieng a sensitive sucks doesn't it what is the worst part about it? For you specifically
frigid jasper
Bieng a sensitive sucks doesn't it what is the worst part about it? For you spec...
sorry i didnt see this! its really difficult to handle for me, i get really stressed and sad about really simple stuff
this person at my school passed away from cancer in may that i didnt know well but i still felt sad about it yk
i know its still sad but idk if thats just me
fresh sonnet
I see well honestly I don't have a solution bieng very empathetic sucks
frigid jasper
wow its been awhile