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oblique hatch Aug 13, 2025, 4:35 PM

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Haha lol okey just writing common life , and yeah like im old kinda.

Yeah basicly i love this girl so much bec she acompany me when i trough hard time , yeah basicly really hard time , i thought she abandone me lol bec of thats but she wont .

And yeahh she have alot of problem too and i think she not stable enough if im always tell story about me evryday like what i feel and anything.

And yeah she still young like 20, so she deserve better life and im always suport her like what i can capable of ill try always help her , and yeah basicly my body already breaking apart like strong at outside but like aglass inside , bec all of side effect my sickness bef.

Thats why i cant always make her sad or to think t much about me or anything so yeah mybe ill try writing in this , iguess

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Ahh yeahh idk about her i relly love her so much, likes o much , and i dont really have any pourpose in this life like im just like zombie lol, yeah she still young and deserve better future , hope this body can survive until i see herr happy and get better life.
Ughh im always feell so lonely evryday so depress and alot of pain plus my job make this worst lol.i just wanna with her like idk im so tired , i just can cryy evryday bec all this pain so make me feel better for a while . And i cant always tell her about all my condition evryday lol, bec she have alot of problem too, and im better with this, like i never compline about anything , except about her health.

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Hhh ill always try t help her,
She dont know all thiss consume me evryday , and my dad make all this worst, likehe comeback again and want me back again when he abandone me when im child lol. nooo

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And this day i felt relly lower like yeah fckk idk

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Hh adn i need rake care my scars too bec i have some accident bef lol and make my head bleeding and both hand have scars too nooo nooo nooo

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The problem iss im alonee uk how hard too take care all thiss shit ughh

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And sheee so far away lol, and who should I complain to?

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My cat? Hahahah lol,

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I must take a beth and etc doingg all shitt alone, and feeling all thiss alone uk im to long feel lonely , nooo

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But if i want i can get girl relly love me and do anything for me lol but i cant do thats lol bec she already betray me 1 time so i cant give her a second chance t late and idc , my friends? Their dont have time for thats, and basicly i have si many acquaintance, but the problem is they are mostly women and I'm really uncomfortable around women lol. If i love her its okey she can touch me but if not i cant lol , like bec i relly hate woman

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Even in hospital i scream t them like dont toch me i just let men t take care of me

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BTW IM NORMAL OKEY!!
I STILL LIKE WOMAN🤣

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And my woman have their world and life too soo basicly she busy very busy with anything her problem mental , anything , and yeahI can't expect anything from her, because she has his own problems and she is already overwhelmed with them. Like idk mybe she still need a lot of time with all her problem so i try always with her like fckk idk i just really love her so much

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I will always try to feel beside her, and accompany her all the time and help her, atleast make she feel better , ik im relly need help too here literly really need help like fck , icant do this alone like , i take care all my scars , and feell depress, feel alot of pain,lonely evrything, and make my food it self or buy it , and still need go to hospital to check my condition, work too,

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And my condition rn havee scars at my head and both hand lol and still in recovery from a previous illness. Like wtfff how i can do all this shit ,

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But live must go on , imalready promise with her t stay alive , but yeah i relly know my condition here and
Hope i can see her when she happy and get better life 😆

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II just need a little time with her to chat or talk thats make me better , but fck ik she have hard time too but yeah just a little time and she always dissapear like at middle chatting she dissapear always like thats , but yeah dont worry ik thats , atleast if make she better its okey she sril have along journey.

oblique hatch Aug 17, 2025, 3:57 PM

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Hhhh , wheni said i love her and i cant give my love again t other girls , she just laugh and said okey? Hahaha fck , wheni ask about it she not answer it ,

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Fckk soo whre i can find the answer?

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And my feeling love and miss her t much big and make me always lost control , i need take it back bec mt body really need a rest , im still in recovery and my body already breaking ughh how i can tell her i relly need her so much but i cant do thats , ik she cant take it anymore she was too tired and exhausted about evrything , and i cant make her more worst

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I just want to rest and sleep in his warm embrace forever, oh hunny im to tired very tired all my energy , allmy feelings , mybody my soul so fcking exhausted and uk im always suffers my whole life, so what i must t do?

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well I can only continue to live until the end comes and you know I always do the best for myself and you, hahahah fckk i just can laugh and cryying the same time evryday with all my pain 🤣

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I can only talk here and express all my complaints without other people knowing who I am lol,

oblique hatch Aug 18, 2025, 7:39 AM

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Ahh and finnaly i back to my true identity, stand strong stand tall and stand silent, sry hun this is the real me , cople month u just see weak side of me , now after i recovery im back t real me , unshakable, and unbreakable just need more time for recovery from my sickness and all side effect from siickness

oblique hatch Aug 18, 2025, 1:25 PM

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But i think she relly know if im already give all my hearth and my atention , t her , but yeah i hope she more appreciate me lol at least she not look down on me , and she can jist dissapear what ever u want? Haah no way , uk im already reach my limit soo good luck with thats hun, i relly know ur condition very well and ik u tired t, butyeah im so tired too soo good luck hun

oblique hatch Aug 18, 2025, 3:57 PM

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But remember if u really know me very weell ukit i relly love u deeply.

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today i had a nightmare ugh, i saw you with someone else and you have another account haha, and yeah i don't want to continue it was just a dream but you know i'm ready for anything, and you know whatever happens next is your decision.

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And im so proud t u hun ik u have alot of problem too and stiill text me but yeah im in same state

oblique hatch Aug 19, 2025, 12:09 AM

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Hh fck whyy this always happen t me , whenall going well problem comes again and hits me so hardd

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They know im weak rn fck,

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Ughh hunny i dont know i can really trough this ir not,

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This will cost my life hun

oblique hatch Aug 20, 2025, 8:24 AM

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hahaha I don't have the energy for all of this anymore, my family has left me since I was little and now even the place I consider home I don't feel safe, so where should I go? when I just want to be calmed down and understood at the lowest position he suddenly builds a wall and I'm so tired of always explaining anything.mybe she not mean thats but she didn't realize he had caused me pain doble.so good luck to myself haha fck my life

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I dont need anything anymore , imto tired with evrything.

oblique hatch Aug 20, 2025, 12:29 PM

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Ugh i relly love her but i need safe place too , soo yeahh idk how t tell her im to tired t do anything ugh, eveni cant sleep almost 2 days and not eat at all rn i dont have any mood t do anything i just on bed rn lol.

oblique hatch Aug 21, 2025, 8:05 AM

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Im done with evrything let me alive until my death come, please stay strong my body

oblique hatch Aug 21, 2025, 9:45 AM

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Fck im forget the real pourpose, iget it now

oblique hatch Aug 23, 2025, 1:00 PM

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ughh i relly miss her so much , hope she okey , but i belive one day she will happy 💗

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#My little journal lol