#Hallucinations idk -update!

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plain tusk
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It may not sound like a big problem but it really makes me uncomfortable and it really messes with me. Since idk when (months) I started hearing someone heavily breathing infront of my closed bedroom door during night times. Like someone is trying to idk eavesdrop in case I’m doing smth. Or I hear footsteps/movement + the heavy breathing. I haven’t been diagnosed with anything since I didn’t go to any doctors bc of my mental health. I talked to my mom about it and she says it’s nothing bad and that I shouldn’t freak out about it sm and that our house is spiritually safe (idk what to call it). And she also told me to listen to prayers which I do. But as soo as I stop again those noises come back (the next night). I seriously don’t know what to do and I’m not even sure what I have so I’m mostly just curious though it still freaks me out a lot (can’t sleep bc of it) bc it just feels weird.

Ps : I know for a fact that there is not a real person behind my door even though those sounds are really realistic.our floor is not noisy, we don’t have any pets as well and it can’t be plumbing.

The most recent hallucinations : 06.08.25 - 02:38
12.08.25 - 00:20

UPDATE! : it was just a cursed porcelain doll that I collected :))
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regal kettle
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firstly thats your mind playing tricks on you

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i kinda went through something like this when i was 12

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i had hallucinations of entities and could hear scraches on my window

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and there were no trees

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its just bc of rumors or something has told you

plain tusk
plain tusk
regal kettle
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or creepy

plain tusk
regal kettle
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wierd

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any past truama

plain tusk
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The thing is that I always have nightmares

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Like really

plain tusk
regal kettle
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i used to

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i never now

regal kettle
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or what happened

plain tusk
regal kettle
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what you mean

plain tusk
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😭

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R@pe

regal kettle
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oh

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man im sorry

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wanna take this to dms

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or keep talking here its your choice

plain tusk
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Here is fine

plain tusk
regal kettle
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thats really cruel

regal kettle
plain tusk
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The thing is my name means purity and stuff and that that kind of stuff happened to me is ja making it sm worse

regal kettle
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closest thing for me is being manipulated

regal kettle
plain tusk
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I do it without noticing but I always bend it right again bc I am genuinely trying to change

regal kettle
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mb

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it was

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“who you were does not define who you are”

plain tusk
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Yeahhh

regal kettle
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and im doing my best to quit p*rn

plain tusk
regal kettle
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why?

plain tusk
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And I also started sh with 13 which kind of made me numb

regal kettle
plain tusk
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Selfsame

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Dang autocorrect

regal kettle
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i dont care if people curse as long as its not directed towards anyone

plain tusk
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Selfharm*

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With thirteen

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I kept going bc it „helped“ me

regal kettle
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i overdosed when i was 13

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i used to he broken but im doing better

plain tusk
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I love pills but I’m scared that they break me completely

regal kettle
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there not good

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dont take them

plain tusk
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Yeahh

regal kettle
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only prescribed or like medicine to help you feel better

plain tusk
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I eventually stopped taking meds but went back to selfharm

regal kettle
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why do you do that

plain tusk
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I started approving physically (Thai-boxing)

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But my mental state is just

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Idk

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Doing its own thing

regal kettle
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have people been treating you poorly

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or treating you like a toy

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or manipulation

plain tusk
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I get manipulated and manipulate back and overdo it

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I get really nasty what I’m not proud about at all

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Like

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I can quickly loose all type of empathy

regal kettle
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you know how it feels

plain tusk
regal kettle
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and you woudlnt want to feel that way right?

plain tusk
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And it’s mostly working

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regal kettle
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think about others before yourself, you never know what their going through

plain tusk
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I kind of have a story about that

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R u open to listen to anything?

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Don’t wanna overwhelm you 😭😭

regal kettle
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yeah of course

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its good no worries

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im just happy to help

plain tusk
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Back then when I was 14

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I met a girl on dc

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Her name was crispy

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She‘s Canadian

regal kettle
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And?

plain tusk
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So

regal kettle
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what happened

plain tusk
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NOT IN A RACIST WAY

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IM JUST TELLING STUFF ABOUT HER DWDW

plain tusk
regal kettle
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just start a little

plain tusk
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Okay we were best friends

regal kettle
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and build up

plain tusk
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She started crushing on me but I’m straight and had a bf for two years (he r@ped me but I didn’t know that it was r@pe)

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Crispy always crossed my ex bf‘s boundaries (he was rarely on dc but it did piss him off that she talks bad about him)

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The thing is

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She selfharms a lot

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A lot lot

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I did it a tiny bit

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She started getting weirder and weirder

regal kettle
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i thought about it

plain tusk
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Really jealous and mad

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It’s literally crazy

regal kettle
plain tusk
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I played with my irl friend (girl) princess tycoon on Roblox and she got so mad and really idk

regal kettle
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you didn’t deserve that

plain tusk
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And then

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It started

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One evening while k was asleep

regal kettle
plain tusk
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She leaked a picture of me in my server bc she thought k looked cute.

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It spread before she could delete it

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And I found out about it few days later

regal kettle
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people are cruel and dont think about others

plain tusk
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And I literally stopped functioning correctly and got really numb. I really felt nothing anymore not even hatred

regal kettle
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thats why im “picky” and really careful about friendships

plain tusk
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I just took her apart piece by piece

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First I made her go really crazy mad

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I didn’t insult her once while she was crashing out

regal kettle
plain tusk
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Insulting me from a to t

regal kettle
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?

plain tusk
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Z^

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Then I ignored her to cool off a bit

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And then

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Oh man

regal kettle
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im not that type of person, but leave her alone

plain tusk
regal kettle
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if someone is possessive like that dont stay with them

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block them

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or talk to someone trusted

plain tusk
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And then she sent me a picture of her arm being cut open and bloody

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To guilt trip me

regal kettle
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ok uh

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lets take this to dms

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okay?

plain tusk
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Ok ok