#journaling my teenage years :)

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polar sonnet
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!!

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Soo here's an introduction

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My name is Alyssa,I turn 14 next month,I'm kind of an extrovert or mabye an ambivert?

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I like movies which make me cry

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I used to like horror movies but smth happened and i don't like them anymore

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I have dated 2 guys (1 when I was really small) and 1 pretty recently

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I broke up with my ex after like a relationship of over 1 year and 4 months bc he was obsessed with his ex

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I kinda honestly changed as a person since I'm a teenager now

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It's super duper weird how much I can think now

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I look pretty mif

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Mid

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Like okay ish

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Probably a 6.5/10 ?

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I'm working on my glow up rn : ) and I can see some progress

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I'm trying to glow up because I like this guy

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His name is ||Nathaniel||

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Idk alot about him but he's a year older and super sweet and really really goodlooking

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Soo

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I wanna look good aswell

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Umm there's 1 person specifically and a bunch of other people I hate

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1st is my ex's ex ||leo||
2nd is a bunch of people actually,most of my friends in general but I've never told anyone and I never make them feel like I hate them but I just do

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My family life is okay

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Pretty messed up

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My sister's kinda mentally ill

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And she's kinda ruined my family

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But she's calm now so it's okay

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My dad is nice but he's got his own problems

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He's never really home bc of work

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My mom's super ignorant

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She doesn't give a shit about anyone and only cares about herself

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I mean

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It's not really her fault,she doesn't do it on purpose

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That's just how she is ig?

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She never really listens to anything I say

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And well yeah

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I'm kinda scared of them because my sister is a goody two shoes idk

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She's a pretty good child

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Unlike me

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I just want to live my life to the fullest

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But I always get compared to her

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So I have to be suppressed

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Well I'll start this journal actually when I turn 14

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Soo

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Stay tuned ig :3

polar sonnet
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Soo

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I felt like this needed to vent about this

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So here I go

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I just got new glasses yesterday

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I feel like they're too big ig

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But yeah can't do anything about it anyway

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And well im super embarassed to go in front of my crush with these

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I feel like he's gonna find me ugly and a nerd

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Anyway

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I'll probably be ugly for him either way

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And well I have to be honest

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I've never really fallen in love with a person

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Mabye because I'm still a teenager

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But yeah

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I've always fallen for the idea of a person

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Never a person in general

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Every single past crush

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Was just infatuation

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Or

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For their looks

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I don't even know them

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And well back to the glasses

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My mom was with me when I tried them

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And well

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She didn't tell me they were too big 💔

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Honestly she doesn't give a shit

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Soo

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Yeahh

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I'll just save up for another pair