minor lynx
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Today, I'm hoping is a good day. I can't promise that. My mind changes every hour. I think I had am episode of splitting and blocking everyone I know besides a few people. Or maybe I'm just lying to myself.
Maybe I wasn't splitting.
And it was just a need of mine because I hated feeling trapped, not being able to block someone.
Anyway, not going to church because my Dad is sick.
Anyway I'll Journal here for now on instead of Venting. It's better for me to document everything.
1pm
I feel so suicidal and depressed
8○11○25
I am so fucking done
8○15○25
Why are people so desperate?
Everytime I go into the living room, my stepmother just want to talk and talk about her reaction to the TV. My mind says "I don't care" over and over. I straight up don't care.
Anyway.
I'm just going to observe this server for now and just vent on here. Since I have been having drama with people.
8○16○25
I have brought Uber eats. Needed a in real life journal and pens. I brought blue pens. I thought it be good to buy them. Tired of the black pens.
Right now I'm listening to dramatic music. It helps me. I'm also waiting for my mother's gift right now. Should arrive in the mail box today. Got to walk to the mail at 4pm.
I'm kind of worried about my stepmother right now. She says she has dementia but I don't think she does have it. Just worried about her mental health. She acts so dramatic. I don't act that way. I just keep it to myself. Why can't old people just have a little sympathy on how they are acting towards old people? That be so great.
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