craggy wolf
This is Yunas Journal..
What will Yuna write about? Well, if it interests you it ranges from my college, maybe love-life, friendship.. the usual.
But this isn’t to degrade, cry out, reach for help (unless I ask of)
Just a journal that shows that Im here
August 10 2025
Its currently 7:47 am, And I’ve been wondering since 4 am If I’ll ever gain true friends or even be on the path I wish to be
Im just 18yrs old.. soon I’ll be 19 In a new college, freshman year. Being left on read by my peers in most group chat conversations.
Its not a Big deal obviously, everyone has their own lives yet I’m here wondering If I’ll ever gain friends in my freshman year
Im aware that if you give it some time, I will meet these new people who will potentially be my friends but at the same time, Ive always struggled keeping and befriending people.. hell I had to burst my own Social anxiety bubble in hopes to actually connect with people and its not necessarily the worst.. or the best either
Somehow.. being left on read by around 20+ freshman in my university made me want to crawl into a cave.. it’s not a big deal, why am I so stressed and bummed out about it?
Ive been worried since I know very well that I’ll struggle with connecting with new people since I believe Im also kind of Neurodivergent.. I often don’t understand jokes.. or flow that way
It just feels like im in middle school all over again
Friendship and connections is something I hold dear and near to my heart, yet when something in me feels wrong its as if the entire tower I’ve built comes crashing along
I believe I have a strong foundation in friendship.. but then again even the slightest thing thats out of place could ruin everything I tried to build
You know what they say.. perfectionism silently kills