Avoiding to grief

[grim wigeon]

My sister got killed by a semi-truck, she was my older sister and still young. I’m still in shock however i believe my sister is on vacation even though i’ve been visiting funeral homes, police stations, and collecting her stuff. All i hear is people telling me horrible things had happened to her and of course i cry. But, i have been avoiding her death and keep telling myself shes not dead. I’ve been struggling to stay home because of all the memories and those emotions start to rush through me. I’ve been struggling with depression before her death and i feel as it’s getting worse every single day. i’ve been bottling everything up and i feel as i’m getting worse every day.

[ruby venture]

Im so sorry this happened, I know it feels all horrible right now but just know she’s still with you, maybe lurking as a ghost or as a guardian watching over you. It’s okay to avoid grief, to be able to feel just a bit better- but in the future, you have to learn to accept it, for now, just let out everything and don’t bottle it up, my DMs are always open !

[grim wigeon]

i’m trying my best to but i never gone through this type of grief. I’ve seen family relative pass away and attended funerals but i was never close to them. I never thought i’ll be in this position ever. but, i believe until the funeral i’ll definitely breakdown. i’ll try my best not to bottle everything up and thank you