Ill explain in detail
#Dissociation
storm mirage
I don’t feel like myself at all, I feel like an entirely different person with an entirely different personality, identity, hell even an entirely different name and look. I hate myself and what I’ve become and I’ve been filled with nothing but rage and sadness when this persona shows it’s mug. I don’t know what to make of it honestly, but all I can say is that it ain’t ever easy dealing with him. I named him Shiuichi Kamiyama completely inspired by a japanese name. I know that’s kind of corny, but shuichi isn’t the only voice in my head, there’s kota, the light hearted one, and connor (my birth name), the introvert. These voices in my head constantly debate on things all the time, and none of them ever agree unless I take my meds. However, I refuse to take my meds now. Why? Because Im a piece of trash that deserves to suffer a fate worse than death. Ever since my mom passed away, Ive been so angry and resentful, and also deeply depressed. Its not that I resent her or Im angry at her, Im more angry at myself than anything, I feel like If I weren’t such a stubborn idiot and went to see her before she passed It’d all be okay.
Last time we spoke was on the phone, and Im livid with myself for even making it that way
west igloo
i think u might have a split personality or smthg? idk but u shouldn't grieve too much cuz its messing ur mental health, everyone has to leave one day from the earth uk that but still..idk i am sorry i am not much of a help here
storm mirage
i think u might have a split personality or smthg? idk but u shouldn't grieve to...
No, its alright, I appreciate you even responding tbh
But I do hear voices in my head constantly, and they develop every day
storm mirage
The voices in my head tell me how worthless I am all the time, and I try my best to act like I’m ok. Idk how to handle this at this point