Just for the context, I am a queer, closeted, Burmese teen from Myanmar who doesn't adhere to any sort of spiritual belief or religions or predefined set of beliefs, and I am really struggling to find community in my country, you know? And yeah, in order to belong, I might need to move out of my country as soon as possible. Like, really. Like, I spent most of my time scheming out ideas and timelines on what I'll do, what is needed to do, all of these stuff. Like, I schemed out all of these stuff, and sometimes it will frustrate me again and again because of how hard and suffocatingly harsh the path is going to be. And yeah, just for the context, Myanmar is conservative. Myanmar is a predominantly Buddhist conservative country where almost everyone believes in the same thing, and I rarely find any sense of community because of it, and I've completely felt disconnected, you know? Like, don't get me wrong, I love my culture, but again, I feel like I belong to no one else. Like, I feel like I am the black sheep, the scapegoat of the whole country.
#I need to leave or else I'll rot.
hasty quartz
And the country I'm aiming for is Canada. Just before anyone gets at me, I understand the fact that Canada is also in a fumble considering the inflation and housing crisis occurring there. But again, in terms of immigration, I feel like it's far more approachable and faster compared to other countries where you need at least 5 years of work experience. So yeah, I will plan it again and again. I will rewrite, I will re-edit my plan for my future again and again. And on top of that, all I want is to be free. That's all I'm asking. But many people in my country, people around me, don't understand it. They don't. They have their own definition and their advices aren't really helpful. And they only ended up dismissing me instead of assisting me. That's also one of the main reasons why I feel extremely disconnected from my own people. I feel extremely lonely in my own country. Sure, I'll still be lonely in Canada, but at least I'll be able to be myself, unapologetically, instead of being lonely and having to hide every single part of yourself. Like what you believe in, what you're interested in, all of these stuff. They're very core of you.