So I am suffering from a addiction that starts with the P and ends with an N at the age of 15, and recently I crossed the line of legal and not legal content to watch, I deeply regret that and I wanna make sure i never do anything like it again after I nearly got in big trouble with authorities. Now how so I save myself from stuff like that, and dont give me some stuff like "turn to God' or something, I'm Muslim already.
#Addiction
agile cosmos
cosmic hound
What do you mean the line between legal or not legal?
versed vine
i'm struggling with it now i'm the same age as you i've been struggling with it since i was 8
agile cosmos
What do you mean the line between legal or not legal?
I started going for videos which are illegal once recently, I don't wanna do it again, not with kids, something else
And I was really just curious
cosmic hound
gore
agile cosmos
I thought to myself, why not just one peak
versed vine
curiosity challenges ones morality to keep away from the temptation curiosity brings
agile cosmos
i'm struggling with it now i'm the same age as you i've been struggling with it ...
I only found out about p### through school when I was 11
agile cosmos
Ok i was thinking the worst of the worst thats bad but not that bad
Ye but still illegal, once I got those vids sent to me reality hit me and I asked chatgpt how I should report them, but then I got a msg from chatgpt saying I got reported to authorities
So a bit scared atm
And I'm 15
So kind of early for me
versed vine
once i found out about p*rn it spiraled i got more curious to young and grasped the meaning of what it means for someone to truely be gone far before i was supposed to
agile cosmos
Would u say I'm gone far, from ur perspective
I'm trying to stop, i last month downloaded an app that blocks p*rn with ai recognition but I keep finding ways to bypass it
versed vine
i learned countless things i shouldn't have learned until i was older and it shaped me into an empty cynical person who told delusional kids my age the truth about the world no matter how much it hurt them
cosmic hound
Quin ur only young so i honestly would tell you to stay away from the p-n. Like everyones beliefs are different and stuff but just because everyone does it doesnt mean its ok. its unnatural and industry itself is dehumanising and also a lot of it stems from the exploitation of women. Also it really distorts your image of how intercourse should be and creates this standards youre not even aware of yourself
If you want to do yk that then imagination or maybe like books or something idk 🙏
like the animal thing was a one off and sometimes people get curious and stuff and its happened now and you didnt harm anyone in the process so its alright. Maybe just stick to regular. And try participating in new hobbies and occupy yourself around other people and do activities
versed vine
and in my eyes i thought when the truth hurts your doing it right
cosmic hound
I'm trying to stop, i last month downloaded an app that blocks p*rn with ai reco...
honestly i would recommend you to go out. Like go outside more often im guessing youre on summer break so volunteer or do something in the real world where youre surrounded by people and cant get tempted to do it
agile cosmos
Quin ur only young so i honestly would tell you to stay away from the p-n. Like ...
Yeah I've always told me friends at school that even tho I do it, sort of flexing it that I'm trying to better myself but sometimes they just straight up say no and it makes me think I'm not normal, and it does make me more sort of used to to prn which I feel like is gonna affect me in future relationships, it's just I always challenge myself to find different sorts of prn, it's always been legal ones up until now.
agile cosmos
honestly i would recommend you to go out. Like go outside more often im guessing...
Yeah but it's gotten to a point where I sexualize everything around me sometimes, I also think I might have pocd
cosmic hound
Yeah but ur not gonna pull it out in public yk 😭 you will be pre occupied
agile cosmos
Yeah I guess
cosmic hound
This sort of lack of discipline and addiction will not only affect your future relationships but also yourself in the future, and im not coming at you. Its a bad habit to have and not healthy at all. Youre only like 14/15 so hopefully you’ll be out of it when youre a bjt older but honestly take my advice about leaving the house