first of all, sorry 4 my grammar mistakes. i am first year on the public health major, but i feel so lost i dont know what am i doing and i started to losing track of everything i am doing there, i dont even remember why i m chosing this major at the first, i dont even hv friends and im scared when it comes to group tasks bcs no one gonna really choose me bcs im off putting, and feels like shouldnt be there. and i think i delevoping social anxiety just being there, im afraid to go out and i can enjoy my life to the fullest there, its so abyssmal dogshit to think of that, my one year feels like fever dream its crazy, like im not even there, and i tried to uhm change my major and i did, im going to art major but im socially anxious rn, and art major actually requires interaction too, im used to being alone so im scared, but personally art major suits me than the public health major, i just.. feel the dejavu, i dont want anything going wrong in my art major just bcs im scared of being present, being there, and living a 'normal' Life. should i stay in my public health major or should i move to art major? tbh im scared of both, art major isnt easy tho,but i like drawing.... but i know its not enough.
#im so f scared w my life. should i move to art major w ts social anxiety?
lapis mirage
tbh, what can i lost if i didnt attend the art major i dreamed of? i feel so lifeless and somehow when i get the chance to get everything better, i feel like i shouldnt be better?
i still can draw even tho im not in the art major, but i guess my life will be so boring and im gonna be worse, can i still be saved
and im having trouble too with attention span, it feels worse when im just doomscrolling and bed rotting, i cant start something and im used to that but yk... if im in this state and iam mmoving to art major, i dont think im gonna be okay
how to get up from this state
if i stayed in this public health major..3 years is a long time, whats gonna happen to me?
lapis loom