Sure some of it is most when I've been drinking. But it comes up in normal times too. I think it's partially based in my depression and the fact I think my Father didn't raise me well, he taught me to try to be right all the time & their marriage was broken before I was even born just about.
I think most folks in my own family discount my own mental health problems, and maybe that's a big reason that I end up lashing out so easily - the childhood lack of good attention from my father & my adult treatment by the rest of the family discounting my problems often.
doesn't help that I'm the lone male child & youngest with 3 older sisters
#I have been depressed a long time; life is bad now - I get angry at folks a lot
alpine wigeon
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Thank you for being so open about this — it sounds like you’ve been carrying a lot for a long time. It makes so much sense that if you didn’t get the care and validation you needed growing up, and you feel overlooked by family now, it could come out as anger or frustration sometimes — especially when drinking lowers your guard.
It’s not fair that your feelings are discounted. Your mental health is real and important. You deserve to be heard and understood, not just told to be ‘right’ all the time. Have you ever thought about talking to a therapist or even just a trusted friend about it? You shouldn’t have to hold it all by yourself.
Even little things can help in the moment too — like writing down what you’re feeling when you’re upset, going for a quick walk, or just texting someone to vent. Small steps don’t fix everything, but they can help you feel a bit less alone in it. 💜
alpine wigeon
well I have gotten therapy some times over the years, and am now currently - put it's never seemed to be very helpful & even if a little bit it feels like throwing darts, sometimes you hit a good amount but often you just hit the 1 or 2 spot