valid ledge
So today i had a pretty ok day got woken up at my day at 12 pm ive been all over the place laterly thoive not been being healthly barely taking my meds and my food and drinking problems ive also been struggling with basic hygine putting in my retainer at night and just being a normal and productive member of society i need a hair cut i also need to sleep properly so tn im going to stay up all the rest of tn and all day and go to sleep at 9pm and just restart my life again i was going though my old photo and stuff and i can see time and time again the people i asocietate with are always causing me greif and issues but my lonelness and my inability to let go is driving me down bad ppaths time and time again and in a part its my fault the ttc knows about my sutitons and the higher up took action which im really greatful for but i feel trap again i feel like im always presured into things way outside of my league and i can't stop it and also with friends that i don't have the corage of faling and since getting and losing contact with mari its killed me time and time again and at this point im ready to let everyone and everything go but i also feel really bad like im letting people down again and that all i do but idk what to do at this stage and im just lost
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