#all or nothing

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ashen pecan
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bro thats what im sayin like i was literally talking about when people say that they used to have a crush on you they still do

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like they still think about what they couldve had or something but its just less diluted now that its over

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at least thats what they make it seem like

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thats

round galleon
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oh pls i hope not be_smilefaded

ashen pecan
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crazy

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😭

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I WAS LITERALLY TALKING ABOUT THIS IN A VOICE MESSAGE I SENT

round galleon
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yeah and ik u said this before but yeah i don’t wanna get with him n just think privately to myself that we shoulda js stayed friends

ashen pecan
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i deleted it tho cause i was scared about moderation it was 12 minutes long HELP

round galleon
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LMFAO

ashen pecan
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wdym

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like

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with like rushed love n everything it’s js like. ion wanna suddenly be getting with somebody and finding out that i don’t actually love them

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BRO IDK

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BUT ION WANNA REGRET like

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the relationship

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cuz it was put on me so quickly

ashen pecan
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oh right you cant really like

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process it

round galleon
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yeah

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sometimes it’s fine to js stay friends bru

ashen pecan
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slow burn all the way 😭

round galleon
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why’s YESGYES

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LITERSLLT

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irl slow burn ❤️

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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i genuinely hate dating apps or forced chemistry

round galleon
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yeah ios i was friends with this dude here in ttc and he said he wanted me to be huzz after maybe like 2 months and i felt guilty and said bet

round galleon
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if it is then it won’t ladt

ashen pecan
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i feel like when epople get into a new environment like a new school or whatever a lot of ppl think about

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finding a relationship

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asap

ashen pecan
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😭

round galleon
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yeahh relationships should never be ur number 1 priority

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esp when you’re a young jit

ashen pecan
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right

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come on bruh do your homework

ashen pecan
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LO

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no butt like i feel like once you accept your own solitude and steady things with yourself and external factors

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then you’re ready

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for a relationship

ashen pecan
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"top or bottom" bro the only thing you need to do top to bottom is ur homeowrk

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if that’s what you desire

ashen pecan
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😭

round galleon
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HELP

ashen pecan
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check that shit twice too

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like santa

ashen pecan
round galleon
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i’m Sick

ashen pecan
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i'm Sick

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LOL

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hi sick 🥰

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idk like

ashen pecan
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no but deadass im not like aromantic or anything where i dont really want a relationship but i want to prioritize what i need first but still be open to a relationship

round galleon
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i used to be so lonely and that lowkey ruined my life cuz once i found somebody i started relying on him really heavy and he was literally my “favorite person” iykyk and when he left i js crumbled
n he did that shit to me THRICE and i kept letting him back in cuz i literally needed him

round galleon
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I GET YOU

ashen pecan
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i rmb when i had really bad mental illness but i didnt really want to essentially get better or i couldnt determine wwhat i had and i got into a relationship it was really bad

round galleon
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LITERALLY

ashen pecan
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tf

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round galleon
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us

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❤️‍🩹

ashen pecan
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i think i was talking about how i dont think mentally ill peopleshould get into relationships in here before

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im not saying theyre not deserving of llove

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or anything

round galleon
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yeahb again it’s a lot of pressure on your partner to keep u happy and everything

ashen pecan
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but if youre not trying to get better it kidna just shows what youre not going to do in a relationship and you could end up ruining yourself or the other person

round galleon
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it’s js harder to manage but not impossible ovuosuot

round galleon
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if it goes bad your progress in getting better will most definitely crumble or you’d ruin the other person

ashen pecan
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like you cant fix others the only perosn you can fix is urself

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amen

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no i literally live by that

ashen pecan
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do you really want to be in a relationship where the other person sees you as their whole world

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maybeit sounds all romantic

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but its the most draining thing ever

ashen pecan
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yeahh lowkeh

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idk like

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bro

ashen pecan
round galleon
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if i had a partner and they were into being the center of my universe then of course but like if they don’t specify that they’re ok with it

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then

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bro

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i’m not gonna be up their ass

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24/7

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boundaries

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basicallt

ashen pecan
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right you have to kinda let them know in advance before getting into a relationship

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thats kinda the thinga

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about rushing into things

round galleon
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yeahhh you don’t know what’s rlly going on till it happens

ashen pecan
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like i remember i was reading this thing online and this person was trans but they were about to get married to this guy and havent told them about theyre not cis

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Like! What!

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😄

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WHAT 🥹 🥹 🥹 🥹

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she was actually a he

ashen pecan
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BRO I UNDERSTAND ITS NOT ALWAYS THE MOST EASIEST thing to go through when you tell someone youre trans but

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Um?

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you about to put on the DRESS bro spit it out 😭

ashen pecan
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LMAOO

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i honestly bro i can’t even imagine

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the guilt or paranoia of keeping a heavy secret like that

ashen pecan
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i dont like people who say that when they find out their partner is trans then they break up they say theyre transphobic

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that was so poorly worded

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my brain is like a factory chute

round galleon
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no literally i get that

ashen pecan
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like ?? dude your partner was lying to you about their entire existence

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ofc i’d be a little

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offset

ashen pecan
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like theres a GOOD CHUNK of the population who want to have kids in the future and stuff

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that kinda just throws it off

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YEAHH

ashen pecan
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i mean theres the make a baby in a lab or something

round galleon
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adoption ain’t rlly the same or anything

ashen pecan
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build a bae or some shit

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but that doesnt last either

round galleon
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or like having a woman birth a kid

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if i could build a huzz bro id build

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a crazy huzz

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bro id build vi from arcane

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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as a girl

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at birth

ashen pecan
# round galleon or like having a woman birth a kid

and vice versa i mean from this entire thing it seems like im only exclusively talking about transgender women but thats because i dont really see transgender men getting into these types of situation most of the time

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ios but then being gregnant is like a torture method but instead it’s like your body trying to kill you

ashen pecan
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ashen pecan
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i mean yeah thats definitely something that ruins a lot of peoples lies

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lives

ashen pecan
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bro this is kinda unrelated but i watched a 30 minute tiktok of this dude

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and he was infertile

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and when his female cousin had a baby

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he was named xander

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and the infertile dude went like nuts

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cuz he said he spiritually claimed the name xander for his unborn baby

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and he was like losing it over the name xander

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and he changed his name to xander and everything

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it was so good

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but continue

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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LFMAO

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just had to let everybody know

ashen pecan
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😭

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idont even know bruh i mean

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i definitely see myself having kids in the future but that sounds weird because im young and shit

round galleon
round galleon
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💔

ashen pecan
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but like idk when i was trans i didnt really wanna get surgery because i felt confused and i saw a lot of people like around age 16 and stuff getting surgery

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like uhh

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am i not

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what

ashen pecan
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i feel sad at the rising decline of having kids

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bro

round galleon
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yeahhb i get that ofc ur js a jit i dont even think top surgery or anything is even like

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offoered to younger people

ashen pecan
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i must be insane

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LMFAOOOO

ashen pecan
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thankfully

ashen pecan
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😭

round galleon
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yeah no like i don’t think that young people should be offered like t or estrogen or like

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transitional surgery

ashen pecan
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YEA BRUH

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imagine u is change ur mind

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and it’s done

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like bro

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OH SHIT

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🥹

ashen pecan
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LMAOAOA

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LOL

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LOL

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LOOOOOOOOOLLL

round galleon
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it’s over

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butt yeah like bro that shits like permanent

ashen pecan
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you literally do NOT know what youre getting into

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bro

round galleon
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RIGHT

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AND YOURE LTIERALLY A KID

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UR BODY FINAN GROW and shi

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chill

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your frontal lobe ain’t even developed

ashen pecan
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i saw this woman get her uter us removed and she regretted it for a really long time then she became someone who killed other peoples kids and stuff

round galleon
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it’s js to protect kids it’s not limiting or homophobic
it’s js kind of ??? safety

ashen pecan
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😭 😭

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that’s cray

ashen pecan
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ITS A REAL THING

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😢

round galleon
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yeah no i feel like it’s so easy to regret such a drastic change in ur body anatomy

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my friends say they want that too

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cuz “no periods” but at what cost bro

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would you sacrifice one week of bleeding for ur entire future

ashen pecan
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no periods

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bro

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holds my face in anguish

round galleon
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no period🥹

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this has to be some form of hyperfeminism or something bro

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no babies

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no uterus

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no period

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no marriage

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no men

ashen pecan
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like

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uhh

round galleon
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yeahh around then

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i froget what it’s called

ashen pecan
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brodie g thinks this is a lifelong spell

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😭

round galleon
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like it finna stop anyways

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LMAOOO

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bounded to the shackles of menstrual cycles for an eternity

ashen pecan
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LIKE

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😭

ashen pecan
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OK

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WAIT

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I REALLY WANT TO SEND THI SIN A VOICEC MESSAGE

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BUT I CANT

round galleon
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dms

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?

ashen pecan
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OK

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WAIT

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ok bet

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yes

ashen pecan
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meyow

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i should got os elep

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its hot

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again

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its hot in my room but i dont wanna take off my blanket or else i feel nNAKED bruh

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i feel like a heated up honeybun inside a brown bag

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Can you kill someone with microwaved honey bun I need to know because these things can get crazy hot and we already know you can kill someone with a potato matpat make a food theory about this

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microwave me and throw me at someone

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im just a honeybun for real 😭🙏

vestal dragon
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hru

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false ❌

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
vestal dragon
vestal dragon
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idc

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kidding

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hahahahaha

ashen pecan
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do you wanna die

vestal dragon
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yes

ashen pecan
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no u don’t

vestal dragon
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yes i do

ashen pecan
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stop

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😭 🙏

vestal dragon
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nuh uh

ashen pecan
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yuh huh

vestal dragon
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nah ah

ashen pecan
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middle finger

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yoooooo my forum is at 10k messages

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that’s so comp

vestal dragon
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mega comp

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ultimate comp

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alpha comp

ashen pecan
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yuap

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:>

vestal dragon
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yap

ashen pecan
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how are u simnon

vestal dragon
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you?

ashen pecan
vestal dragon
ashen pecan
vestal dragon
ashen pecan
ashen pecan
vestal dragon
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damn

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im 10 hours ahead of u

ashen pecan
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whaa

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wya

vestal dragon
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isra-eel

ashen pecan
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did u have to censor that 😭

vestal dragon
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its a joke

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get it?

ashen pecan
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oh

vestal dragon
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israel but like

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isra-eel

ashen pecan
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i understand it now

vestal dragon
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like the animal

ashen pecan
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YOOOOOO

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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no i’m actually watching the video it’s lowkey

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factual

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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ayy

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i’m like halfway through with it but he points out that people just post their art when they know it looks bad and hates when people give out criticism

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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i mean personally i don’t post my art until it’s finished and if i do so it’s just

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i only post my art in #creating sometimes

ashen pecan
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should i go back to sleep

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sweat gland

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i should

vestal dragon
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maybe not

ashen pecan
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zzzzz

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i’m about to slap a kick me sign onto someone’s back bro

ashen pecan
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idek if i like this guy anymore

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bro

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hes going to another school and like

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i think he has anger issues or something

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it kinda feels like hes being performative and forcing himself to like the things that i do

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i really like airplanes and photography and it seems like he only knew a fragment of it before and he told me that he used to learn or do stuff just to impress other girls

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so im like

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bro

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and idk.

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the chemistry feels so dead 😭

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LETS GOO

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starbucks is NOT gonna have my 6 dollars and 25 cents today

vestal dragon
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or brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

ashen pecan
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i am literally an sr-71

vestal dragon
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a j36

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🤖

ashen pecan
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sick

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is that a military model

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idk my models anymore

ashen pecan
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yeooo YOOO UYOOOOOOOOOO

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THERES 2 WEEKS UNTIL SCHOOL

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me when

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time is actually passing

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?

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IM SO EXCITED

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BRO

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IT JUST HIT TO ME THAT SCHOOL IS OCCURING SOON

ashen pecan
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im logging back on elden ring

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i think i

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might cry

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i hate playing this game but im gonna do iit

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just logged in and im already getting my shit rocked

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i love the graphics of this game but im scared as shit

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THIS FUCKING WOLDF IS BEATING MY ASS

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BRUH

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i

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this is the souls game rage

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bro

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i miss dark souls

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this game is too free for me

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like wdym its not only restricted to 4 directions

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THI]JASDIOFSAUHGIRDSG

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EFGJHSJDFBHCJBXHVCHJBVDFHJBGDHJFBHCVBN I CANT GET PAST THIS BOSS

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END

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IT'

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patience is not my virtue rn

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😭

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maybe i shouldnt be fighting a boss first thing after getting one lden ring

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afte rlike

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5 months

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💔

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omg

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i love this games freakng

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graphics

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you can never pay me to play elden ring

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bruh

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this is so

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ik this sounds like bs since im an early game player but holy shit

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it is not welcoming with open arms

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i might as well play sekiro instead

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nah i wish this game had explicit lore

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ik theres hella

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lore

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but you have to dig deep to find it i just wish it was like

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in game

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ok

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imn

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not gonna fight that guy

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i dont think

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i will be completing this game

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this yera

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or in this lifetime

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honestly i might as well sell the game

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or something

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i dont really like this

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😭\

ashen pecan
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gosh

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i love the

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take on me music video

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inwish my sketches looked so clean like that

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actually

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i wanna draw like zhc

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old zhc

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his art was so peak

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the amount of detail

vestal dragon
vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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i thought it was

ashen pecan
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im so bored i ahve nb to talk to 💔

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arigato

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should i isug

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just go to sleep

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its 6pm

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ik damn well if i try to sleep tonight ima be wide awake

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i still h

vestal dragon
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but for me its

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4:21 am

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🤑

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aight gn i really need to sleep

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im gonna pass out on my chair

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a boy like me needs his beauty rest 🤩

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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i have this burning urge to listen to classical music

vestal dragon
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😭

ashen pecan
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im tired of music rn

ashen pecan
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i have frriends from across the world

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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my closest online friends r always hella far away

ashen pecan
vestal dragon
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bro im boutta crash out

ashen pecan
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hy

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why

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go tew sleep

vestal dragon
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in more than a week

ashen pecan
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mayhybe

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ask her

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then

vestal dragon
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i DID

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thats the POINT

ashen pecan
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how many times

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ho

vestal dragon
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but nah "im busy"

ashen pecan
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mm

vestal dragon
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"im out with friends"

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"in [x] minutes"

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"tommorow"

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NAH

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ALL LIES

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IM BEING DECIEVED

ashen pecan
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she should def make time for u

vestal dragon
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ts a CRUMBLING

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MELTING

ashen pecan
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if shes ur girlfriebd idk

vestal dragon
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MICROWAVING

ashen pecan
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ita okay

vestal dragon
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relationship

ashen pecan
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dawg

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how long u two tf

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tg

vestal dragon
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shi like

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3 months

ashen pecan
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ugh my spelling is shit sorry im

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tired

vestal dragon
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3-5 months

ashen pecan
vestal dragon
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or 6

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im bad with time

ashen pecan
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and this only started recently

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?

vestal dragon
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ye

ashen pecan
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like she doesnt wanna call

vestal dragon
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like

ashen pecan
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ah

vestal dragon
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last month

ashen pecan
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n

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well you have to talk to her about it

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what u allow will continue to happen

vestal dragon
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again,

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i tried 😔

ashen pecan
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dide get into

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a serious conversation

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hey can we talk

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thats how yk itsbad

vestal dragon
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i always ask her to talk

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but NOPE

ashen pecan
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NO bruh not like

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a call

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literallt just communicate regarding this matter

vestal dragon
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yeah i even offered to meet up

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face to face

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she's not that far from me

ashen pecan
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🤦🏻‍♀️

vestal dragon
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i ASKED to call

ashen pecan
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i feel bad foru

vestal dragon
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and MULTIPLE times

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i lost all my hope in israeli women

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my country SUCKS

ashen pecan
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PO

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LOL

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bro

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dont say that dw 😭

vestal dragon
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nah cuz yk what happened on my first relationship?

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THAT HO CHEATED ON ME CUH

ashen pecan
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oh goodness

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man

vestal dragon
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back

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to

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BACK

ashen pecan
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theres some bad apples there bro dont give up on ur nation

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💔

vestal dragon
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nah i fucking hate like 50% of the population

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either racist

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too extreme

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or absolute IDIOTS

ashen pecan
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are you planning on living soemwhere else then

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how old are you

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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great

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where

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ts country ass

vestal dragon
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britain?

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america?

ashen pecan
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how old are u tho

vestal dragon
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scandanavia?

ashen pecan
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america calm

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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ok soo

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when do u plan on leaving

vestal dragon
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after military service

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hopefully

ashen pecan
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whicj is

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which

vestal dragon
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when i turn 18

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till 21

ashen pecan
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im lowkey braindead rn

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im sorr

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waut

vestal dragon
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but i might request an extension to learn in university when i turn 18

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
vestal dragon
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idk maybe not

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people hate the idf nowadays

ashen pecan
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thewhat

vestal dragon
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not many good job opportunities from it too

vestal dragon
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yk...

ashen pecan
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oh

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mm

vestal dragon
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yah

ashen pecan
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yeah j get it

vestal dragon
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ppl dont like em

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i dont blame em too

ashen pecan
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ita been pretty rough

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recently

vestal dragon
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yup

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not tuff at all

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🙏

ashen pecan
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word

vestal dragon
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word twin

ashen pecan
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im about to shut down bruh its only 6pm 😭

vestal dragon
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what happened to matching with senna

ashen pecan
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so

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h

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my bitro ran out

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i had it on like per server prifile

vestal dragon
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oh

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rite

ashen pecan
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rite

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😭

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senan my goat

vestal dragon
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yuh twin

ashen pecan
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:)

vestal dragon
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reminds me of

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"born to say: 'hihihi!!!! :3'
but forced to say: 'yo wsg gng'"

ashen pecan
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wdym LO

vestal dragon
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reminded me of it

ashen pecan
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haiiii!!!!!!! :3 ^_^

vestal dragon
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for some reason

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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lmao

vestal dragon
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a hound of 5 boys

ashen pecan
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dw ur secrets safe with me

vestal dragon
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will approach me

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and beat the living hell outta me

ashen pecan
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ok bruh chill

vestal dragon
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until i turn into ground beef

ashen pecan
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😭💔

ashen pecan
vestal dragon
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which they will turn into smash burgers

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which they will ALSO beat up

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turning me into meat juice

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which they will blend up

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freeze

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and beat that up TOO

ashen pecan
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they fr devouring u

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i guess

vestal dragon
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until i pulvarize into NOTHING

ashen pecan
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ok but ur safe here bruddah

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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let out ur inner h>> ^^

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2what

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bro

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what was that format

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_<

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u get it

vestal dragon
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ts: ">_<"?

ashen pecan
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yes

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or whatever kawaii shit y on

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arigato

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nya itcgi nee san

vestal dragon
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ye my homeboys boutta turn me into space dust if i say that shi

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i CANNOT be caught lackin homie

ashen pecan
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ur safe with me

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im not one of them

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💔

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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no

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noo

vestal dragon
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THIEF!!!

ashen pecan
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how

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:<

vestal dragon
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sentenced to 5 years of: ":3", ">_<" and random cat messages

ashen pecan
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LMAO

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i wish cats were real

vestal dragon
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buh

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they are

ashen pecan
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i am almost home

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no they are

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nt

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R

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fuck

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fuci sake

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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my intestines are talking to me

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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:(

vestal dragon
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asap

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none of this is real

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this entire server

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is not really

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nothing you see here is real

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it is all fake

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fabricated reality

ashen pecan
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dead internet theory

vestal dragon
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in which you have been living in for 15 years

ashen pecan
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hun

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hum

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almost home

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so close

vestal dragon
vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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arghhh

ashen pecan
vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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really close

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like a percent

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away

vestal dragon
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thats tuff

ashen pecan
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Ijust sae

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saw e

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3 cats

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4 cats actually

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2 white cats 1 black cat and 1 mixed color cat

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z

vestal dragon
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you're having a stroke

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get home

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and shleep

ashen pecan
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a

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im not even that sleepy

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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im

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home

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finally

vestal dragon
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w w w w

ashen pecan
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im gonna blow off my head

vestal dragon
ashen pecan
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no

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waitbill brb

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ill getting high off of this

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FINALLY

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im

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on my beloved computer

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sorry my typing was absolutely terrible on my phone cause i couldnt see jack shit

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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BUT I CANT TAKE THIS PAPARAZZI JEEZ

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ITS LIKE THE CAMERAS ALWAYS OUT AND STARING AT ME

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AND IF I SAY THE WRONG THING THEYLL CUT MY TONGUE TIL IT BLEEDS

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gosh

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i love this song

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i should

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do a lot of things

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to compensate

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im gonna take a shower

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..

ashen pecan
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ive been kinda just

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thinking for too long

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how does someone come to a conlusion what their favorite color is

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i mean maybe it represents them as who they are/whats their aesthetic

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or like

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what makes them look good

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in a fashion sense

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these can all be individual but i still wonder what my favorite color is

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i dont really know maybe im just intellectualizing ANYTHING at this point

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but i want to know what makes a color like

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favorable

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to me at least

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because you can genuinely have colors that suit you whether its matching with your color scheme/undertones and whatnot

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ive always really liked dark red or maroon to be specific because people say that its like my signature color

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and it makes me look great

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it doesnt wash me out but i dont know if that would be my favorite color

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i dont know if i would have my whole room in maroon

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infact its just blues blacks and browns

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not gonna include white because whos favorite color is white bro

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thats like the canvas

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i think

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its also important to note that colors evoke or embody emotions as well

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its not subjective

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i mean

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red is for endangerment, to draw attention, anger (obviously), or boldness

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blue is associated as a moody tone and is relaxing

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yellow is

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well its fucking sunshines and rainbows

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who even made yellow

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bruh

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orange is like

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tbh i dont have a comment on that

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but you get the idea

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i mean its

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really

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all personal preference

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subjective is a broad term for this

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i also think that it reflects with experiences too

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a lot of people seem to associate things with people

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like this reminds me of them

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i think we just tie things to people like subconsciously

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or consciously

ashen pecan
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there was this girl who was like whenever she got sad she would think about her ex

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and then it said that we often associate people with these things because we tied them to it

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or its because her ex made her feel that way a lot

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i dont think ive heard of a lot of people experience that but its kinda true

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but that might just also mean whenever we're sad we just

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uh

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fuck im tired

ashen pecan
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a lot of people find the comfort in these kinds of activities like

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sulking in their negative memories or regrets

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just finding comfort in being sad

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hopeless

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because it gives them some sort of identity

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its like

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being sad is a prominent part of who they are

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and letting go of that thing would mean letting go of themselves

ashen pecan
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quiz

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TU EN MI CAMMAAAAA

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que tengo que hacer

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I LOVE THIS

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SONG

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mala is os good

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thats a lie

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38% match

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💀

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i kinda like green but

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bro

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i have nO green in my closet

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pls

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maybe this is a chance to expand on greeneries

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id probably opt for those like minimalist green male outfits

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asian might i add

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dude i l

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i love linen button ups

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theyre just so

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ahhghasgh

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ive been trying to find one but theyre all made for men and theyre too big on me

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i just feel like the fashion industry screws over a lot of womens clothing

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obviously

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fast fashion directs at women

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but idk they also make the quality really bad cause they know that theyre likely to have a lot of different staples

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too

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in contrast mens clothing are more durable

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cough jeans

ashen pecan
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or tops

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as in button ups

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specifically

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like idk i

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when i was looking for my graduation outfit a while ago i was trying to find a short sleeve button down that

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fit me but also didnt have those fuckass sleeves they have on womens

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they look circular

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or something

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i ended up just tailoring my own button up shirt

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because most of the button ups i wanted were either like 1. they had those bum ass sleeves 2. were cropped 3. just had long sleeves 4. too baggy

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i really hate tight sleeves bruh

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i was thinking of just getting my button up from brandy melville which was like

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ok

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good quality

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i guess

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but then the sleeves were way too short

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i was also trying to find a dark blue button up

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but they were around the collar if you know what i mean

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it just didnt go all the way down it was probably 3/8 of the shirt or something

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it was really hard to find one honestly

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i found mine in a little boys section of a fucking walmart 😭

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its still a little bit baggy on me but its okay

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its supposed to be for school uniform

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and im not trying to say that i dont wear any feminine clothing because i do and theres a handful good amount of brands that produce good quality clothing for women

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i just think something that fits me good is usually either an essential or athleisure

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tbh i dont really know what trends are anymore

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like

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i dont understand the whole idea of buying something once just to keep up with the fashion industry if you... dont like it?

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its fine to buy clothes that are on trend and stuff

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but if youre doijng it solely for performance youre not

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bro

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youre just wasting money and its either you give it to the thrift bins (which every thrifer complains about nowadays) or throw it away and then it goes in the landfills or you just have a pile of shit in ur closet

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youre better off just not buying it and being more responsible with your spendings and buying clothes that compliment your body, style and personality

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by personality it really just varies upon from person to person like i see a lot of people that feel really awkward or not confident in certain outfits like tight fitted things and vice versa

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i mean honestly finding personal style is

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a very long journey

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you might buy some staples that you dont like in the future and thats fine because you ventured out to other styles

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thats what creates a personal style

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tbh to this day i dont even know what my style is

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i think its just minimalistic with a change of color schemes

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my outfits i always have on rotation are like graphic tshirts and then some athleisure

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then jeans

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i only use one pair of jeans

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bro

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i really need to buy new jeans lol

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i used to just wear these really baggy jeans but i started to just go towards the ones that would fit with a lot of other outfits

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ngl i would lowkey be down to be emo or alternative 😭

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but i feel like a lot of stores that revolve around that aesthetic are like fast fashion

ashen pecan
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less maintenance with my outfits

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and style

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i only really branch out with outstanding outfits when its an event or traveling to places like sf

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i love putting makeup on like mascara and contour but i really hate having to take it off at the end of the day its just another annoying step i need to do

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because i take a shower and my mascara is waterproof so i have to use an oil cleanser to take it off

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water alone isnt enough my skin would literally

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go on fire and shrivel up

ashen pecan
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i think its so cool that people love to express themselves through fashion

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like there was this girl inn my school and she would literally dress up as real y2k every single fucking day lol

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she would wear hot pink sweatpants and hoodies

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shes so cool

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i would totally show her but i dont wanna show her face and stuff

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cause thats just

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weird

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u get the idea tho

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i love that

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expression through fashion can be so subtle but so loud

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at the same time

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this is just my conventional style every time i wanna feel subtle but pretty 😵‍💫

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i just dont have the money to get all of these fashion stuff

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for the style

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😢

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i was telling my friend about like

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if i was male gaze or female gaze

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and i was like idk i think i can be a fuckin shapeshifter

ashen pecan
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i think my face is js

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androgynous

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UGH THE URGE TO SEND LIKE

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A MILLION

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SELFIES

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R

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RN

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ok ill

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chill

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im getting kinda sleepy ;(

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i notice that in my photos where i appear to be more masculine or female gaze my eyes seem to be more sharper and my eyebrows are more prominent

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whereas when i have male gaze photos of myself i have a relaxed face with my lips parted or in a small curl

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dude my smile is so silly lol

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my smile is like wide and stuff

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dude i wish i could send photos of myself here bt im lowkey scared of someone stealing my pictures

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lol

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i dont think anyone will

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but im kinda cautious about posting my face on here especially since im been met with really weird people in my dms

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this might sound really entitled and narcissistic but im kinda scared to hold eye contact with people because im scared of attracting them

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i only hold eye contact with people i want to attract or gain their trust

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i have this really irrational fear of attracting the wrong people becaus emy body language comes off as attractive

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like if i really like someone i will try to hold eye contact with them for as long as i can

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unless they dont want to

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and they tend to avert their eyesight

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then i would avert mine every now and then to appear more humane

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i have a tendency to appear more humane to others by embodying traits like averted gaze and using filler words

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because i dont want to make them uncomfortable

ashen pecan
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thats definitely normal

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no

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im not weird

ashen pecan
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dont ask

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it was a gir onesie

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and she came up to me and she looked really scary to me like she was obivously around my age probably 14-16 but she was one of those ppl youd find on alternative tiktok and she just had a deadpan facial expression the entire time

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i dont know what she said but she was like i like your gir onesie, i have one at my house etc etc

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i felt bad because she was making me really uncomfortable 😭

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and i was trying ot be enthusiastic like oh yeah ahah i just bought this like today and i just wanted to wear this yk

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and she was like oh yeah?..

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LIKE

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BRO

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WHAT THE HELL

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she was literally towering me and stuff

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wait i was trying to find an example but this is lowkey like aura

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they actually look so sick wtf LOL

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bro im literally

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like

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i dont know why but im attracted to everybody but my own race

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especially when it comes to girls

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ESPECIALLY

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i dont think i know an asian thats lesbian that doesnt have a low taper fade

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UM ok ill stop

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sorry

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ive heard that when ppl are like attracted to anyone but their own race they dont find themselves attractive

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maybe i just wouldnt

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date myself

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?

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yk i find it

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really attractive when someone is a style but doesnt really embody the "weird" personality that always comes with it

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theyre just themselves

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goodness

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i love transparency

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dont try to be differ just be unqiue

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unique

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and it might sem like the same thing but it isnt

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if you keep on reaching for new ideas that you dont even like htat much but u like it because of the idea that its niche and fdifferent from everybody elses

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instead of aligning urself with what you like

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its fine to like popular artists

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its fine to like popular songs

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i think its so attractive when they integrate being unique and also being

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just

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conventional

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by their own volition

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they dont need to force themselves to be something

ashen pecan
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i dont really know how to put it into words

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honestly

ashen pecan
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ok

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i dont even know what to say anymore but there was this kid like last year

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they were a grade below me and stuff

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but they were so fucking cool like holy shit

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dude had the alternative outfits and stuff but they were genuinely so cool like

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idk

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when u see those people youd think that they want to embody the aesthetic of like hobbies around that

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rockstar boyfriend or girlfriend

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I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT IM SAYING YOU JUST GOTTA SEE IT FOR URSELF

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but they were in orchestra and they played the electric guitar and CELLO???

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i mean i didnt personally know them

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but it feels like nowadays people just find aesthetics like punk rock shit on pinterest and are pretentious they kinda force themselves into these hobbies to make them embody their aesthetic

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i also feel like it applies to the lgbtq community ive heard a lot of stories about when ppl were gay and saw all of this media with gay people forcing themselves to have that

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voice

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and personality

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like perioddd slayayyyyy

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👅

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so they felt like they had to embody that personality

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likkeee uhh

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brodie

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can this song fuck ME

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this execution was so rad