#all or nothing

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ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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kitty :<

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it was so scared of me

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bro i js be loving the sun fr

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praise the sun

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i will never live somewhere where its cloudy 24/7

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seattle 💔

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new york is pretty grim

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san francisco

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singapore is so glorious i hope i can live there one day

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fuckass

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my nose has those white things

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3h on youtube

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its so over

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bruh

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1 minute on safari

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no hours on tiktok or instagram its gotta be over for me fr

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i love old style roblox games

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like the 2014 ttypr

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combat initation is so peak

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initiate combat

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i have such a deep connection with combat initation i dont even know why

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i guess its because theres so much interactive features in the game

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and like

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idk i mean i dont really HAVE to play with friends i can just play solo or with other people without having to speak to them that much

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i like how theres so much variety the more u play

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the equipment is so peak and you get to upgrade them the more rounds u go and the more u level up or reach a certain ampunt of kills with the weapon u get more features

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scatterblaster my beloved scatterblaster

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i also love bee swarm and its not like those copy and paste brainrot games like beat the obby with a bike or something

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with the same font and shit

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pop ups every single damn minute

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it looks hella outdated but its so classic

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i love it

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i loooove bss

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my legs

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are burning

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in the sun

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omg

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i got these linen pants from this store earlier and im so excited to try them on but they look hella long i might have to tailor them

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havinf a sewing machine is absolute peak

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ive already tailored some of my shirts

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i havent done any tailoring on my pants tho

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i have so many pants yet i only wear this fuckass beat up pairs of jeans my friend gave me

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dude i rleember

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i went to this jean store for like an hour trying to find the perfect jeans for me

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I LEFT THE STORE EMPTY HANDED BECAUSE OF THE TAX

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kinda glad i didnt get them cause they were from a skater store so everything there was hella

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like

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big as fuck

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i like baggy jeans but it gets to a certain point

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i dont wanna look like a fucking

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like

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parachute

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na

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this 7th grader

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told me wow ur jeans look so grunge

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they were my baggiest pair but after that i havent worn them since

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LMAOOO

ashen pecan
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like omggg ur sooooooo y2k 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

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fucking hell my

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actually idk what i was gonna complain about

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im somewhat scared for hs because im definitely gonna fall in love within the first 3 months 😭

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here i go again with my gravitating towards guys that are somewhat attractive and have a weird ass personality

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and then i leave the relationship saying i wish we just stayed friends

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classic

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this is so glorious

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i wish i could play the piano smh

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i havent played in decades im so rusty

ashen pecan
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ouch

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booooo i cut myself trying to cut a zucchini

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💔

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owch

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MY EYES ARE WATERING

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THE ONIONS

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THEY WERE NOT A PROPHECY

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ME VERSUS THE ONIONS

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THEYRE WINNING

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banana pluh

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ashen pecan
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i think i added too much tofu bruh

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this is actually so good

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i should open up a resturaunt

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fr

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this isnt a balanced meal tho unfortunately

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i should add like

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uh

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ramen

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:>

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i wonder where i can buy like authentic ramen

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i am NOT making that shit by scratc tho

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I GOT IT

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i can add rice

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if i dont have any rice

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wait

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what

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if i dont have any noodles

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LOL

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WHAT THE HELL I HAVE 7100 MESSAGES ON MY FORUM LMAO

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allat is just me talking

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thats

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insane

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not really i just send each word in one message

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wait give me a second

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4 tbsp sesame oil
3 tbsp brown sugar
6 tbsp soy sauce

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thats actually the goated beef seasoning

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yes its fucking weird theres sugar in there

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BUT ITS SO GOOD

ashen pecan
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meow

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mew

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i wanna play tlou again but

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i cried so badly when the game ended

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you can see the tears in my tlou eyes

ashen pecan
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☹️

ashen pecan
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arf arf

ashen pecan
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its hard to cry now

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i dont know why

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smh

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sorry mods

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imtouch deprived i wanna hug someone

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you are NEVER going to catch me huggin my family tho 💔

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we're so like

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cut off

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from any love language

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bro

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sometimes i jsut

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i just crave attention

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like people have made it seem so taboo to say that

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we all naturally want attention in some shape or form

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it doesnt have to be loud it can be subtle

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but

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ok theres literally nothing wrong with wanting attention

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but if it gets to the point where youre like constantly depraved of it and use it as a source of validation

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like your ONLY source

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or you take certain steps to gain the attention

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that are not

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NOT GOOD

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what am i saying

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im tired but

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im gonna say it anyway

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nobody has to get me

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fr

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but theres been some times where if i dont get attention or from my friends or partner i completely get numbed

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i hate when people act like they dont see me

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i hate being left out

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ok

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wait

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theres a difference between being left out and not getting attention

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at least a deprivation of it

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ig

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ive always been so distant when someone invites me to a group where i literally know nobody there because i dont get attention and nobody checks up on me

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its kinda left me to try and get other people interested in me

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like

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essentially so they dont miss out

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goodness

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that sounds so narcissistic

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am i a narc

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bruh

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guess what nobody fucking thought that

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lol

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and id always overexplain myself to people whenever theyd get the wrong idea of me

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like bro

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stop

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you are a loaf of fucking bread

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nobody actually cares

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i figured out that people enjoy mystery in relationships

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they want to learn more about the other person

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which also leads to branched out topics

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thats engagement

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right there

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the idea of mystery or i guess like captivation in stories or even videos are always utilized

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it keeps them hooked

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its not like an inverted triangle with news

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i remember i was watching this tedtalk and this girl like

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included EVERYTHING she wanted in a husband including same interests and everything

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it was very specific

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but then thi guy was reacting to it and he was like yeah and if she even got a guy like that she would hate him

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you dont want to know everything it just feels fabricated

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the little moments where you organically meet someone and

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you begin to realize that you might like them matter

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the organic and authenticity is so attractive

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and enticing

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thats why you should let friendships or relationships find their way to you

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not saying you shouldnt branch out and let everything come to you

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like youre some magnet

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but im saying that you dont need to go on these fuckass apps like

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tindr

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or going to a socialization server on fucking discord out of all places

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and expecting true and lengthy relationships

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nowadays people get so impatient and be like im never going to find love and nobody will love me for me

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YES

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THERES PEOPLE OUT

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THERE

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ITS JUST YOUR MINDSET

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DIPSHIT

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the first relationship ive ever gotten into i was devastated when he broke up with me

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and im not talking about a roblox relationship

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like

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i was fully emotionally invested into this guy and ive never felt that way about anyone else

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when he broke up with me i was so close

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so close to committing suicide

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i was actually

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a loaf of fucking broad

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bread

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i thought nobody would love me

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ever again

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and that stagnated me from meeting people because i thought i was unworthy of love

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its sad because theres people out there in the world who have so much potential in getting in a relationship but they dont think theyre worthy of love

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the same way i felt

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dont even get me on that fucking

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self isolation shit

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that shit hurts

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id genuinely rather lose my organs than go through that phase where i would always isolate myself from others

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i feel like theres

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been so many instances where i have felt like i was so scared to show my emotions and vulnerability to others

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that

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bro

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being able to feel safe and share my weaknesses to others is probably the most euphoric thing ever

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i get

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scared and weak

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theres nothing wrong with that because thats what makes me human man

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stop trying to evade and intellectualize your emotions because youre only going to cause a blockway to ur emotions

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before u know it

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its going to fucking explode dude

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and youre going to feel more vulnerable than ever

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ive always had this urge to always be in the right and appear as strong to others

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im not the smartest person ever

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i have so much to learn

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theres times where im weak and vulnerable but that doesnt make me less of who i am as a person

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i should probably go to sleep but i wanna keep on talking

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i love pretending like im talking to someone

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its hard talking about this kind of stuff to people

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i get too drained and i

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idk

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i like having this journal

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i feel like its an outlet for me

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i feel heard even if people dont always study everything i say

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i think thats the essence of being able to have a fraction of my thoughts

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just

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out here

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i dont think people listen

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what was i gonna say

ashen pecan
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i woke up to a FUCKING CHAINSAW

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🖕

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🖕🖕🖕🖕🖕vvv

ashen pecan
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i have finsihed my breakfast

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before 11 am

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dubau

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thanks daniel

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ashen pecan
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RAHHHHH

ashen pecan
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this is me btw

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wheres my misa!!!!!!!

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i hate when people pretend to be a girls girl and when you criticize other women you arent one

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like bai

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maybe you guys should learn what accountability is

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and normalize not being biased upon gender

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clearly you guys are dipshits

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like uhhhh sorry you cant take any criticism

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youre just a fucking narcissist

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i want someone who gaf abt what im saying and wont be like oh thats cool but im projecting because i legit dont know what to say to the history of britain

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i only have 2 close friends that i can vomit everything out to but then they leave me on read if i ramble for more than 20 minutes

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thats why i write in this

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smh

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fuck me already

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this is actually

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so fucking glorious

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LOL

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One sec bro

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iMMA HOP ON BSS

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DONT TALK TO ME

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dhmu

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im on bee swarm simulator

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ball ball ball

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ashen pecan
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WHAT???

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do you not fw bss...... sleep

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all or nothing

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chat

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chathcahtchathchatchathchat

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think before you sleep has to be the goatiest of the goat

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i love this guy so much hes so fucking

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i cant even put it into words hes so realistic

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i wanna punch this thing

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he be looking too smug and shit

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im listening to my old violin recs

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i think

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this is an awful time to have hearing

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wtf

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😭

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my soup was a little bit hot so i put ice cubes in it

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joking

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;please

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dont bring public executions back

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mnghhh

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I HAVE RISEn

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from the nap

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kity :>

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ashen pecan
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thats how i feel when

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i do everything

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water found in the ocean

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oreos are so fucking

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fire

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ashen pecan
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what

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please tell me

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ma'am

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WHAT are you doing on ghete

ashen pecan
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I WASNT ON IT

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trust bro

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um 971584057139953785

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it was on pinterest

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ok

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i believe you

ashen pecan
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needto

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thirst trap

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but i feel so weirdly looking

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i need a certain lighting

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i only look good in natural lighting

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bro i js

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i think it would be so chill if i was hanging out with someone and we went to a beach or something likek that to just talk

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i wish i had friends that werent so attached to their phones :/

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idc phone addiction is so bad

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addicts always lie i dont associate myself with people that are addicted to like drugs and stuff]

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like yeah its so funny ahahaha i ahve a phone addiction im on tiktok instagram snapchat and discord like 8 hours a day for each app

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thats

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insanely depricating

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sometimes i look at influencers online or those ppl that vlog their life online and i think their life is so great from the outside and then they cushion all of these bad attribute by mmaking it quirky like ahhahahahaa i always bedrot and doomscroll

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the fuck

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and they dont try to get better

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those ppl just

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give false promises

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give it to me likeyou need it baby......'

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i hate wasted potential...

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that shit crushes ur spirit it really does it

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im tired

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i always say i wanna be in a relationship but i only get infatuated

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i dont know how to love

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just hold me in your arms man

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oh what does it matter anyway if ii tell someone this

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i hate when i say this shit and then theyre suddenly more affectionate to me

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its like a facade

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because they know

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they know this will get me vulnerable

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no]

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no

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thats

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oh my gosh

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im just

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bro

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im pushing others away

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dude what side is my brain on

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wtf

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i wanna cry

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idk why

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i havent cried in a long time

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i cant

ashen pecan
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i run this why am i doing this

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to myself

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i think my tallking stage said he loved me on call

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once

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i just

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idk if i heard it]

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silly boy

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actually im gonna delete that

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damn

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ii love monkeytype

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discord server

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i got fast fingers too yk

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ok

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f

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chill

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the fastest my fingers could type was like 140 fo like

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15 seconds

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smh

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then it drops to 120

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the prohecies are getting to me

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too bad his other songs lowkey suck

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sry

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i shudlnt say

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that

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my hands arebig

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yure or yawe hands

ashen pecan
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theyre big for a female but average for a gmail

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whos a good girl

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i i am

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3 sets of whos a good girl

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calling a girl a good girl feels like an assault

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not my thing but maybe its someone elses

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oh yeah call me a good boy hawk tuah

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i said call me a good boy hawk tuah

ashen pecan
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sory continue

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ngl i would

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enjoy being called a good boy more than a good girl its lowk funny

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i just

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HELP MEEEE

ashen pecan
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took off like 10 yeras of my life

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typing this

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my chest started hurting

ashen pecan
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its being transmitted to u

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sorry bro

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ur on ur own

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DONT LEAVE ME HERE

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???

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sorry ill stay

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thank you….

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averts eye sight

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just popped my hip

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that was rejuvenating

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no like im actually gonna keep it a buck

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like i used to actually fein to be called a good girl and now it’s just oh lol thanks lol that’s so kind 😇 🥰

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UM

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im gonna end it

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LMAOA A

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n bruh

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hold on let me get that

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video where that girl goes bald and the other one is like girl me too

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cause

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somewhat same\

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LOL

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ok at least im not the only one

ashen pecan
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i just get really awkward when a guy calls me it cause

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they kinda know people be fw that 😭

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ew yeah frick no

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if it’s just like a fricking dude

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get away from me mane

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LIKEIMNOT A FUCKING dog

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its funny when a girl does it tho 💔

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e_happy grills

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i cant imagine a woman calling me a good girl

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like what’s the leverage like wdym when you say i can’t imagine

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you know what i flipping mean like

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wot

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sorry im like

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braindead rn

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LO

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LIKE LIKE

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like wdym by that

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more like j

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i cant imagine what i would react like or what kind of scenario

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id probably like it

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keep it stack

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ohhh

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LMAO

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ok i just couldn’t use context clues

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so i had to specify

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type

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naw all good

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that’s kind areal

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actually that’s so real

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like when does that even happen irl

ashen pecan
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i can only imagine it in call

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tbh

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me when a girl mistakes me as a boy in roblox and calls me a good boy

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that’s more reasonable

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ok real lilke

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that shi happened to me irl like maybe once or twice

ashen pecan
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WHT

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yeah like im like r_scratch

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idek

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but like more on call like u said

ashen pecan
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ii see

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bro this is the most dipshit conversation i feel like a fly

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LOL

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STOP I CANT

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public humiliation contest

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🥹

ashen pecan
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bring back public executions for me will you

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for US you mean

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we're gonna be like those 3 hole wood things

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where people throw tomatoes at u

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LMAOOO

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tickle you with feathers

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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LMFAOOOO

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3 hole WHAT

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JUST

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BRO

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I JUST OPENED IMAGES I

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I CANT RBEAHTE

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HELP ME

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I CHATRRU

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I CANT BREAHE

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😭I THOUGHT I WOULD SEE SOME WIKIPEDIA SHIT

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THIS THING HELLp

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UEAH

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I CANT

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i just got flashbanged with

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corn

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i crying

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this is like being splashed with cold water

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yeah well you searched three hole PUBLIC HUMILIATION

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😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭

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I THOUGHT THAT WAS LIKE

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AN EXECUTION THING

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ONLY

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BYE

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i HELP BRO

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JUST SEARCH MEDIEVAL TORTURE

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😭 😭

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LMAOFOA

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im such a dipshit btuh i hope i dont remember that tomorrow

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💀

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you are going to have a JOYRIDE reading this back

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NO

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np

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no

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present doomsday would not believe past doomsday

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or

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future doomsday idk

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im listening to classical music

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im a new person

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sophisticated

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and law abiding citizen

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with nothing incriminating

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ok…. i believe you….

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bro im so glad that i have common sense if i actually talked about other stuff about me id get imprisoned

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wdym lOL

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oh my days bruh this classical music is revolutionary

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beat drop and shit

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it sounds like a freaking

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movie music

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did beathoven really know about beat drops

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beethoven idk

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ngl

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i dont think ive heard any of his music

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i play the violin this feels taboo

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wddgm

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cause orchestra players usually play a lot of classical music

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oh ok bro idek what’s happening eith my brain

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i saw taboo and got VERY confused

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maybe im using the wrong wordig

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i think it’s prolly right

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IT AMELLS LIKE BACON

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ITS 1 AM???

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oh nvm somethings just burning

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m

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well now i wanna make bacon

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i need pale green eye contacts bu idk if its safe for my eye and i wanna use it for my FREAKING ELLIE COSP

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i forgot my

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password

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to my ipad.

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no nvm

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i didnt

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BRO IM IN A FUCKING HRORROR MOVIE I JUST DROPPED SOMETHING REALLY HEAVY ON THE GROUND AND ITS 3 AAM

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HELP

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HELP ME

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BRO

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I

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I PROBABLY JUST SOKE UP MY ENTIRE NEIGHBORHOOD AND CITY

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💔💔

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HELP I. EED TO COMPENSATE

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IM GONNA

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EXPLODE

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PLS MY DAD IS GONNA ROCK MY SHIT

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IDHIGNJDIGNJIDHFBUIHUDUCHVHDFUVEFJHGEFGHN

ashen pecan
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he chilling

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actually

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bro just went back to sleep

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naw but

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what if that was like sum

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me dropping to the floor cuz someone broke in through MY window

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i should gts

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bro genuinely just end my misery i can’t sleep

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i want a lavender matcha thank u

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😂😂😂😂🖕🖕🖕

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im really tired

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mmm

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KITTY!!!!!

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thirst trap finished bro😭✌️

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i woke up freling like shit

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goodness

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its 11 am rn

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ARBH I FEEL LIKE SHIT I NEED TO CONQUER THE WORLD

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this is my playpen

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wish this song was real

ashen pecan
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FR BRUH

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ITS so good

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BROOOO PLEASSE

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i didnt even realize all of them were connected ngl

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thats actualy sick

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ily takezo nobody can love u as much as i do

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nothing matters anymore

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im 6”4’

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i have a hellcat

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people care

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my abs and quadriceps are the hardest things to exist

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im going to snowbunny heaven

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literally nothing matters anymore bro

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i should just improvemaxx

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i dont wanna ropesmaxx

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im too disciplined for that

ashen pecan
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everything matters

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this is all that we have

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LO

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man im a catfish

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yk i

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om scared someone has used my face online

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😭

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catfishes always get exposed one way or another tho

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bro can i just

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get with an anime catgirl

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like just spawn a feisty stray catgirl in front of me already

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Just

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JUST GIVE ME THE FEISTY BUT MEEK CATGIRL PLEASE

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whos a good girl

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SOTP

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STOP

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one day ill js disappear and nobdoy will remember this 💔

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AHHHHHHGSGSHHDBCBNJ

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im only attracted to women that arent real or i have no chance with

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say my name baby

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HRIJSJSJIFJANRNFIOVLLAMFMCJFIV

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i

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beo sometimes i forget people actually see me as a person

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likenwdym the world existed before i was born and someone sees me walking

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😭

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dhmu if ur not a feline btw

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LMAOAOA

ashen pecan
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all mine

ashen pecan
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imso

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fucking tired

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bro

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i hate photoshop

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sm

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IM

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S

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AFGJODAFGJISDBGUHDFUGEQRTWRQT

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INJDFGNJKSNKJLXVNKDFHBUIHRGUINWDLFBNKNDVBNFIDCJ

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BRO

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WHAT

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THE

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FUCKK

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im

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gonna break my computer

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for fucks sake just

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pull the trigger on me alright

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already

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UFCK ME

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FUCK ME

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Hello why are you all gray

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WHO TOLD YOU

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YOU COULD BE GRAY

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vr im legit going to go. berserk

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CAN A CATGIRL JUST

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CONSOLE ME

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RIGHTNOW

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I NEED TO BE IN A WOMANS ARMS

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im actually gonna

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do somethingb ad

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im going to combine all of my paints

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thats what im gonna do

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ok i

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i just found out it had nothing to do with my photoshop

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im sorry

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adobe

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it was my printer this entire time

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i wanna cry so bad

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bro

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this is so

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i think

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this is gonna work

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no

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this will work

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im gonna cry

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its perfect

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it worked

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finally

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i think im actually gonna

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im too tired to do anything

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crying takes too much energy

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bro

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holy shit

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bro i need a d7500 so bad

ashen pecan
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like

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youre MINee and im going to shower you with every single ounce of praise and affection

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i chugged some caffiene earlier

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imma be up for a bit

ashen pecan
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my

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back is aching

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bro

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i got this wrap from starbucks cause i was hungry as hell

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it kinda sucks

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i think it was an egg sausage something

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wrap.

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GO

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I LOVE COSPLAYERS

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i hate but love that its such a niche hobby that u just

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create cosplays

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im going to a cosplay convention in like august but

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bro

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theres gonna be like hella voice actors there

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theres gonna be the jjk cast vas there

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and helluva boss va's 😭

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i dont watch it and i dont have a comment on it but thats pretty dope

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i dont ever wanna stop partaking in halloween stuff with costumes cause its just an excuse for me to wear a cosplay

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im kinda

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sad

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that people around my age are already beginning to drop trick or treating cause theyre 'too old'

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like bro

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yu

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are 14

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i still see college students doing costumes

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like

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idk w

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i dont wanna intellectualize this but i wonder if theres a psychology behind why people enjoy cosplaying

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even at an older age

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😭

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idrk why i like doing cosplays i guess its a way of expression and showing what my interests are

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also

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i just feell likeee

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idk i feel confident in cosplay cause its pushes away what you look like overall

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depends on the intricacy of the cosplay i guess

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cause i feel like if ur jut cosplaying some character like makima or a hot anime girl its just a change of style

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like the different wig and outfit

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no actually htat

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applies to a lot of costumes

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ahh

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i just mean from level one to level 2 or some shit

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this is somewhat more acceptable to subtle cosplaying

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other than the mark or whatever

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honestly

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if i did costume making that would be pretty sick

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i would feel really stressed out tho

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most of the time

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i should make an arcane prop

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or something

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i might make a valorant gun for my sister on christmas

ashen pecan
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idrk

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how to

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airpaint tho

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airbrussh

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i can always learn i guess

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2 hours and my nitros gone unamused

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ciaran and artorias r so cute

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i miss

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i miss dark souls

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i havent played the rest of the series yet

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i wish i could play ds1 for the first time again

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shit was beautiful

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i always see

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well iused to see videos on youtube about how dark souls changed thier life

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like ik it sounds hella stupid that a game would change ones life

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and you would think that they would be exaggerating

ashen pecan
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mb

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ds1 is ez

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but people talk about how the souls series is always known for how hard it is

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elden ring

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sekiro

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ds series

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bloodborne

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uh

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demon souls

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its all known for how difficult it is and it takes people months to a year to complete it

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a lot of people just give up at a hard boss

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but the poeple who have persisted throughout the game and kept on going when it was still hard were always able to beat the game

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you would think that after months or even years of trying something you once deemed impossible

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you would be able to do it

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in boss fights, just in general

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they have to memorize patterns and learn how to combat against them

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thats what makese the essence of the souls series

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how bitter the roots are but how tasteful the fruit is

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never give up bro

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i know it doesnt mean a lot because ppl can say that to everything

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if you feel like giving up just remember the reason you started

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dont give up just learn how to take a break

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if youre ever in pvp and you want to give up because youre on your last life while ur opponent is still on their first

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like

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still keep on going

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your opponent will start to become muddled with arrogance

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then their performance will start become more fastened and

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idk

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lesser quality

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just keep on going bro

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people tell me to stop pushing my limits but the point of life is to literally keep on pushing forward

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maybe not everybody will think that but

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if you think about it youre never going to be in the same spot

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like next year youre either going to be worse or better

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take the risk and see how it goes fr

ashen pecan
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its like running on a treadmill but you just keep on going and then when you start to get tired you naturally start falling behind but you just keep on pushing and

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everything hurts

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your body begins to resent itself and ur cortisol gets higher and higher

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then there comes the point where your performance is sloppy and you crash

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thats

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not good

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im not saying i always push myself and never give up but a word of advice from someone who has almost given up on everything

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i have to keep on going

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theres so many good memories i havent made yet

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this might be really sensitive information but im gonna say it anyway

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me and my dad got into a really bad argument and i was in 6th grade then i was crying in the bathroom this was like

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the first time i was thinking about self harm

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i got this eyebrow thing

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yk

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the thing where u

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uh

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shape ur eyebrows

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i didnt know that there would be vital areas in my wrist where the veins are the most prominent and i almost cut myself there really deep

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but i did it on my forearm instead

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i wanted someone to notice

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my friend wa telling me that people cut themselves in really noticable areas because they just want attention

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i dont think you understand how it feels to want help and to be noticed that youre not doing okay but cant put it into words

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i didnt want professional help like from a teacher or anything

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i wanted someone that cared to notice and be there for me

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i get it suicide hotlines do that

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but it matters more to me that someone knows who i am and im struggling

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just talking to someone from 988 didnt help me a lot because they just had the same shit like

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im so proud of you for reaching out

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or any of that cookie cutter shit

ashen pecan
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i have a deep cut in my arm now

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a scar

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i dont tell a lot of people about it because its not that prominent unless youre around me a lot

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i didnt feel anything when i cut myself

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for some reason

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not like mental numbness i didnt feel anything

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i think i was in a state of shock that i cut myself too deep

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it was white on the inside

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i was so scared

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there was so much blood

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i was on the floor hyperventilating and the blood was everywhere

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but i get a little bit proud of myself whenever i look at the scar

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it jsut shows me that no matter whatever i go through im going to keep on pushing

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if i cut myself in my wrist i wouldve not been here

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ive made so many precious memories with my friends and realized what i truly want in life

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im crying

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for the first time

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in a while

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jouranling helps a lot

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fr

ashen pecan
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overall i dont know how much i wouldve missed out on if i died that day

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i still have so much to live for

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i thought people were just bullshitting when they said that things would get better or i had so much to live for

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i do

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and i think thats what has helped me live in the moment more

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i wish i could talk about this with people when theyre going through a lot

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but

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i dont really want to pivot the focus onto me

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a lot of people say that i should do motivational speeches

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idrk about being a therapist chat 😭

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sob sesh is over i should probably try to go to sleep soon

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bro this protein borrito is hitting the spot

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HELPA

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normalize dropping the most grotesque things ever and then sending a selfie or thirst trap after

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my desk looks so hideous rn

ashen pecan
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i find it so interesting that you can also use it to compare it with music

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like

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in souls games you have to roll to dodge boss attacks

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and its very easy to do it early or late

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but back to the recognizing patterns

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you can obivoulsy compare that to music

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idk any instrument would work but im just gonna use the violin as an example

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or string instruments in general

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practicing music is almost adjacent to trying to defeat a boss or an elite enemy

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if you roll too early/late now you know what you need to improve on

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and you can use that in the next time you try to fight the enemy

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which is of course practicing again

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and indicating better technique or playing the right notes

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along with rhythm

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i mean you can obviously compare it to other games that have bosses or whatever but i

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i just wanted to say that fr

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bro i hate when im trying to rent out manga and its always the first book

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ALWAYS TAKEN

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no matter what itll always be taken

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and hten i just read it digitally

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i hate reading manga digitally

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its so

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idk i feel like its not as CAPTIvating

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also it doesnt really push you to read more of it when you can just,...

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close the tab

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and move on to another mang

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manga

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my sister said that if i was a fruit id be a banana

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idk what that means but hell yeah

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or a blueberry

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WHYSIITHEREAFUCKINGPIMPLE BY MY EAR

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IT HURTS

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PLS

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this is my playpen..

#

me after feeling masc then i realize im just a 14 year old girl that s 5'1" 😭

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LMAOAOA

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bro i

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the only thing thats saving me is my eyebrows and voice

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kitty

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also i finally spray painted the rest of my sword blcack

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black

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yippee

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its just \

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umm

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rotting outside rn bc i forgot about it

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am i a bad owner

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chat

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8 minutes

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how is it not gone

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maybe. i have another day

ashen pecan
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tlou

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the last of me

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she said fuck m elike im famous i said okay

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CHASE

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CHASE

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AFLALINGIC AUHHHHHAHHHH AHHHHHH AHHHHH

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CHASE ATLANTICAHHHH AGHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHH

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AHHHHHHHAHAHHHHH AHHHH

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AHHHHHHHHHHH

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chase atpenstic MENTIOENRR

ashen pecan
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chase atpenstic 💔

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d

ashen pecan
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too bright

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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pspsppsspps

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come here catgirl waterfallsob ......

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how do i summon one

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attagirl

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ffs im going to sleep goodnight

ashen pecan
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morning chT

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chat

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rise and haine

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shine

ashen pecan
ashen pecan
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yes!!!!

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