#all or nothing
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it kind of already does
but i wish people at least put a little bit more thought into this
i get counselors or people doing presentations about it but it feels like the rhetoric isnt emphasized enough
"your brain releases a happy chemical called dopamine" ok tell me how that will ruin others lives and slow down or even stagnate them from improving in the future if they constantly consume it at a concerning rate
bro i sound like a nerd
but i was watching this video from
think before you sleep
my goat
oh my days
i love that guy
but he was talking about how addicts always lie or something and when it comes to trying to quit an addiction you have to frame it to make it desirable
to the person
like uh
smoking
well theres a lot of downsides to it already but you cant just tell a chronic smoker to stop doing it because its unhealthy
they know
its bad
but they will ocntinue doing it anyway because they believe they cannot get the same or even better gratification from another source thats healthier
yk
the phones ringing
with an accent
that just reminds me of unhealthy relationships
but im not gonna talk about that rn
anwyay
it has to fit their lifestyle and what will push them forward
because they will always get this moment before they relapse and they dont have anything that comes to mind thats strong enough for them to stop
i used to be hypersexual a while ago and it was
something else
but like
literally just applying what i said earlier
livign the way i used to wasnt ideal for me and there were unpromised goals i made for myself
it just made me feel even more miserable when i wouldnt show up for myself
be careful what you say to yourself because youre always listening
i really like being able to vocalize my thoughts in a journal
i think what makes it special is that anybody can just stop by and have a sip of my thought process
maybe it wont be as captivating to others
but
i still think it means a lot
i dont want this journal to just be something performative where i only write the good
but i really want to push others
if i cant do that through one on one conversations with people in venting then i can at least leave this here and hope that one day
well im not sure it even stays here after 3 days
but one day i wont be here or ill stop
ill stop journaling
i want to make change
i want to help others and i feel like whenever im giving advice to others in the same shoes as i was in im there
for myself
my younger self at least
maybe they wont listen but
if one day they remember what ive said thats enough for me
not saying im always going to be in the right or anything
everythings changing
i still have a lot to learn
and i think its amazing that i have all this access to knowledge
everythings already there i just need to push myself towards it
i love this song
i used to hate it but i took a look
at the lyrics
i cant do well when i think youre going to leave me
but i know i try
are you gonna leave me now
my photographer friend
hes the most dopest person i know from school
ngl
but he made a compilation of people signing his camera with their name through the lens
it was really creative
he just put this like plastic transparent block over it
and used a whiteboard marker
but it was with this song
and it was 8th graders signing off and
idk
it was really refreshing
i think hes the most humane person ive ever met and i really wish i could hangout with him more
he talks to me about how hes fatigued of those arrogant people from our school
like the popular ones
well
he hangs out with a selective amount of them
usually just a big group of them but he doesnt deeply emotionally invest himself into those friendships
he loves capturing the moment with his camera
and honestly
hes the best photographer
ive met
irl at least
no glaze
i used to like him a lot but
i think i realize that i like people that are real
people i can relate to
it gives me a hint of happiness that i know theres people out there
like me
im not alone
we got into the leadership class together and we were talking i was like yeaa
im so happy
and he said that they were gonna make a gc with everybody in it from leadership
but i dont rly like giving out my phone number and he asked me for my number
(it was through ig
and i was like noono i dont wanna join
and he was like what why
i wasnt really transparent but then he said
if you have any problems with anybody in that gc ill kick them out
like
oh my goodness
i was honestly speechless
eventually i gave him my number and he added me
a few hours later though he was like
you know what
i dont care fuck it
and i was really confused
but he was really frustrated that he wasnt being appreciated for his efforts in trying to put together the gc and everything
hes not the most emotional person i know so this was honestly like
not gonna say weird to see but it was unexpected
ill say that
but i think thats was one of the times i was emotionally available for someone
maybe im not emotionally available for others because im not as close as much with them
im not really just realizing that now but
yk
i havent put much thought into it
i told him like
dude
i dont actually remember what i said but i was like i appreciate you
so much
for what you contribute and the thing u said earlier made me feel really important
that was probably
one of the most beautiful interactions i had
i know its miniscule
but
it means so much to me that theres people
who care
who make me feel seen
and everyone deserves that type of person
i
i dont know how to express it
but
i want to be the reason why people still believe in good people
just like him
just like all the other kind souls ive met
my heart is so huge
i love seeing the good in people
i notice
i notice everything
i notice when youre sad
i notice when youre just a little bit off
i want to help
but
i cant disperse that
haha
im being so ironic
right now because i was just talking about how mindset changes everything
but its hard
im not saying i cant do it but its hard to do
its not hard its just new
i give a fuck
i cant sit here pretending that i dont when i do
i guess that black tea really did have an affect on me
its 11:40
i should go to sleep
im such a fucking yapper oh my days 😭
i think something ive noticed is that i treat this journal as if i were talking to someone
and i only
talk about myself when it comes to actually talking to someone
ekse
help
my converstaion skills
suck
ok
im gettin gsleepy now
my wpm is degrading to 80
uhhgvhhhh
take me to your bestfriends house
i HAAATEEEEE SWALLOWING PILLS
I STILL WANNA BE YOUR FAVORITE BOYYYY
love airplane mode
i wanna go to sf so badly
i can literally just go on a train to sf
tuffffff
i can NOT read crime and punishment anymore
reading crime and punishment feels like a crime and punishment
HAHAHAHAHAHA

ik its gonna get better but im snoring
part 3 gotta be the most boring of
all parts
yesterday i was trying to read before i slept but that shit was like
no….
just kill someone raskolnikov 🤣🤣😂😂😂
IM A GGGGGGG GG GENIUS
hes a genius
cause i love a woman like you
lip bite
dude
i love
graffiti
oh my days them light rays are doin sum action
REFRACTION
DUDE IM ABOUTA FREAKING GO CRAZY IM GONNA RELAPSE 😭😭😭
no
NO
noooo
i cant
i cant succumb…..
RE
RRRRRRR
REEEEEEEEEEEE GOD PLS HELP ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
no
i wont
THIS ISNT WHAT I WANT
FOR MY NATION
FOR MY PEOPLE
I WONT

I HAVE EVADED
FROM THE TEMPTATION
until next time
ill be stronger
fr
stupid ass. gay ass. cute ass. jit
NOOOOOO
something of the sort... 🙂↕️ ✋
lord is tuffer bro trust me
thats like 1 billion aura
like like
lord and savior
type but like im not saying im jesus type
GAY beserk
Nothing changed
beserk cannot be good bro
from everybody ive heard like. its
idek
nobody has convinced me to hear it out yet so it holds its title
NO
NOPO
LMAOO
i just wanted berserk emotes
PLEASE
it was the thr biggest berserk server
WHAT IS THAT 😭
just... embrace it...
EMBRACE what
It is
The ending is the main guy not getting the girl
He
Help her achieve her dreams
Payed off everything for her
And a whole bunch of other stuff
For 200+ CHAPTERS
Just to get rejected
lowkey if i was paid to be a gf id just be a gf
this is basically roblox edating in a nutshell these eboys be giving their all
life savings for a roblox egirl
He just wanted the other gurl
damn
Roblox edating is prime .2 gpa behavior
LOL
thats lowk my gpa rn like
bro.
my grade 9 year is cooked ima keep it transparent
i love my roblox girlfriend 
Actual birthday brain eating parasites stray away from dating on Roblox
wHAT
id only do it if the dude pays off my mortgage on like a penthouse
if im not getting shi for being wtih an eboy then why bother ima get e-played anywyas
💔
I'd fake date anyday if I got the money some of these ekittens got
LOLLL
You can call me Jossi!!
i mean... buy me a bmw m4 f82 and
peak
stares...
feels intimiated under your gaze
Oh
LMAO
Wait are you two having a moment
no please dont leave me with her she scares me
she sees red when shes angry
when my balls turn run, sag.
STOP
*Respectfully reads(with aura) (with rizz) (feminist btw) (7'11 btw)x
when my pants turn run, brown.
brooo word
jho word
did i mention i drive an electric car
why di you do this…
did i mention that i lended my private island to 500 orphans in need
When my pants turn brown run red
Those were orphans
job you one had
yes... ❤️
Had one hand job
My bad haha my bad
you got nothing on me
we are ALL DEAD
everybody is going to feel it ahh
ill be the captain
NOOOO
im the colonel
well
it says im lieutenant cause
caude…

WOAH!!!!
I put that stuff in my microwave
LOL
WLEPPLAO
dole
i meant lmao
dole mandarins 😭✌️

OH MY GODFFFF eat well
im jealosu
i went to cali just for canes and i didnt even frigging get it.
eats obnoxiously loud
NOOOOOO
i mean i dont have any nearby
i had to travel like an hour
for it
bro canes is like chick fil a but buff
https://youtu.be/0AxvEh-Wy7Q?si=E9Ug92T4e99m6kln 2:35 got me on a freaking choke hold i love it when songs have tuff outros
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I wrote this song two years ago in my bedroom in San C...
i keep on listening to 2017 animation songs 😭✌️
STRANGLES YOU
oh SHII WHAT THE HELL 😭 ✌️
heheu 

is this you irl ❤️🩹
HEL
On my way!
ill be waiting patiently 
DONT FART. in my face…
or or or…
what even is that
puffa fish :3
a reptilian of sorts...
me too icl
i.

hehehehe why are we higkey those bears
theyre us
i wanna be milk
amen 
my handwriting doesnt actually look like this it just needs to look somewhat neat
bro
my like
long term handwriting is bad
BAD
waif
i write like a founding father
😭😭
holy shit
yooo i cant read ts but youre prolly cooking 🔥 shakespeare level prolly
i could zoom in its probably about me hating everybody or myself
WHAT
and hating myself would only maximize my misery 💔💔
mean
LMAO what
i mean reference not j i dont know why i put joke
i just saw this and checked in here cause of it
WHAT THE HELL
HELP
EHW
LMFAOOOO
JVKCMKCJSJX
IM CRYING
I CANT BREAKTHE
HEL
NOOOOOO
IM WEAK
😭😭😭
HELLMEEE

YOU SCARED MES O BAD OH MYH GOF
WHY
BREOOOO WHEN IS AW THAT REACTION I THOUGHT IT WAS THAT GUY FRON EARLIER
AND THEN IT WAS MILK
milk jumpscare ahh
😭😭😭
so mods do moderate journals... write that down

-# ok we cant let them no..
know...
.
ok.
i think. im becoming schizophrenic. i cant take this im going to showr
ok take ur shower 😭✌️
I JUST
bro
i just threw my phone on this fragile object
IT WAS JUST ON MY EBD AND THEN I THREW MY PHONE ON IT HSLP
not gonna lie i read that at least five times and i just realized ebd is a missspellign of bed
what is he THINKING anour 😭
i think img oingto cry
that feeling whne
when
uh
you wanna do this sick ass thing
but then realize that you dont have the stuff for it and even though its probably like 5 dollars at walmart you still look for things to compensate with
(im working with oil paint)
now my paint brushes
are stiff...
and now my bitter hands cradle the brittles of what was everything
WOW
im just looking at my art and i
my goodness
its supposed to be
im supposed to draw the undertones first and then the highlights but bro just looks hollow
brooooo im a dipshit
😭
no
goodnight
im done with this paitning
for now
im gonna take a shower and practice mindfulness 🧟
im in my selfcare era 🧟
that girl 🧟
ateeeee
doing a 24 hour glow up just to walk by my ex boyfriend 🤪 🧟
grwm to confront my cheating bf
those are TOO suspenseful
brodie
brodie g looks malnoruished
i aint een gonna try to add the highlights yet because its just gonna get mixed in with the dark shit
oh this makes me ANGRY
OH WHO IS YOU
brooo
rbo
broooooooo im tired but not like that
they werent jokin when
they said that screens puts ur brain into a more conscious state
YOOOO I DONT WANNA WASH MY FACE OR BLOWDRUY MY HAIR
if i dont blowdry myhair
its going to look like
crazy tomorrow
if i wash my face imma be awake
i hate being awake during quiet hours
i shouldve been asleep 2 hours ago but i got home hellaaaa late
and i was out all day
i am
Defeated
should i jsut watch
one piece
its not gonna keep me. up for that long
its hard for me to binge shows
the last show ive binged was you
im literally joe
goldverg
everything i do is for you
when i find someone i like i scope everything they do from afar
i love
admiring

i sound like an addict
in a different font
no
this sounds like my tempting thoughts
go away
scram
i think i just want to process. everything
that happened today
broooooooo why is it lowkey 12 am tho 😅
its lit'
straightup
alright!
i dont know i fi want to be otsu or musashi
musashis hella dope
but
actually idk id wanna be musashi hes my goat but
the way he treats otsu is so cute
and the way he
talks abou ther
about her
"i think about her all the time"
😂
yo
LOO
ayeIM CRYING
me too cause whyd you lowkey say that
I CANT BREAHTW
whoooo said that bro…
everyone spam senna chill
death death death
what could this POSSIBLY mean 😭 ✌️
NO actually
death to steven prolly ❤️🩹
THANK you tho
im like
bro
im a quarter
awake
rn
dude i was just trying

LMAOOO
yo
i cannotc
converse with this guy
my friend said that he has like 5 girls hitting him up in his dms everytime they hangout
hes dragging the conversation BOROOOOOOOO
😂😂😭.... 
ladies ladies one at a time
sss ss s s ss
i would like to take a gander 😁
bro
trust me
leave him on read it will shred his ego he will give up eventually
yeah i am
not interested in a 7th grader
hes an edgar
😭
DUUUDE is saying that hes been trying to find a girl for my friend
NO U HAVE NOT
my intestines are talking to me
ewwwwwwww what a gerbert yo
i texted my friend
abotu it
it kinda freaked me out bc he said that he might bring his own ebike to ride with us but
ujhh
hehahu... not happening bud
THIS IS STILL ME KATE I LOVE YOU
why
WHY
WHYYYYY DOES JOE FALL IN LOVE WITH A NEW WOMAN EVERY SEASON
joe EVERY FUCKING TIME when he sees a white woman
except for marienne idk
me

PH YM DAYS ITS 1 30 AM
ik damn well after saying that im gonna put ts away and be wide awake
i need to cough
not in my direction

i was going to reassure you until you sent that monstrousity
BOI WHAT YOUSAY ABOUT PACKGOD
PACK HIM
😂
wait i am
you are not 5’1
i say as i gaslight you
boi im ASIAN 
ur like the 1%
HELP
😭 🫱
😂 ✌️
boi
wait a minute
how did bro have 2 different hairstyles in the span of 4 videos

yooo
that photos like
not phtoo
that video was from like 4 or something months ago
i dont post at all
not frequently
...
you’re so mysterious heh
real me ektber
oh frick i can’t bri i can’t imagine seeing my face like
bro
wdym i have to see mtself
chill
becoming a content creator on tiktok is extremely draining
why my friends so fine
😭
yeah oh bff rick no
like i think i would kms
mods don’t read this
famous people r like so
sad
like you have everything and also people up your butt in public crux they recognize you
i would never wanna be famous
nobut sometimes its so surprising seeing classmates or friends posting themselves
rrrr 
the thing about being famous is its nice at first or to think about but it just makes you more pressured
wehther its subconscious or not
ME ME me ME ME ME. EM ME ME LITERALLY ME
right
the weight of not weathering your name
i can’t live like that
if a ho don’t fw me they can tell me THEMSELVES TF
noonjbsjnjnjdsfmkfsn
mgnhnhhnsncmm
no
i thin k im going to start spiraling
no im not
i need
to go to sleep
ivve said
for the 5th time
m
for fucks sake
Korn reference?
oh my f
dude you is so good
the show
the series
penn is such an amazing actor 😭
I CANT WATCH ANY FUCKING EDITS OF HIM
I KEEP ON GETTING SPOILED
sorry mods im having a parasocial relationship
its like you know im there
triggerwarning blood

me too joe
do you know how much violence it took to be this gentle
mnghhhsdfnjnhhhh
nmznsdfnlsgjdjgugvndsjdnoq
im going to fall asleep
bruh
its almost 5 pm i dont know how im going to thug out 4 more hours
by that time im probably going to be wide awake
CHILLDDSWIJGHFAEIHGSEFG
DIASDFWHFJAHDJGHSAF
CHILLS
BRO
THEY STARTED PLAYING WASHING MACHINE HEART WHEN FUCKING
JOE KNCOEKD THIS GIRL OUT
BROOOOOO
BRO
im bored
so bored
im not even tired anymore
whats this curse
well i still have 2 or so hours to go
man i reminisce hard
so hard
i wish i couldve met zyzz
hes so dope
you know exactly what you do to me
am i infatuated
i feel like im missing osmeone ive never lost
tomorrow
what?
im dropping the series
bro
why do i have like 3 accessories on bruh
under or over 300 robux
why is bro posted up with jennie 😭
snickered
fake it till you make it king
bro i’m going to strangle you HOW do yo ulook so majestic with short hair AND long hair
yooo what’s up there 😂 ✌️
THANK you

i aint even viet 
im crying
bfo pho is like
i havent tried it in a while
is it js soup
TAKE THAT SHIT AWFFFF
LMAOO
and liek noodle
that damn stare
2 years ago
it’s ok i think you outmog me from 2 years ago
all pf these photos are more than 2 years old
bro i have more photos of chris than myself
chill 😓 aint nobody trying to mog at 12
or
i dont know how old i was in those phots
is that the aisan dude
lowk grade 9 was tuff
yes
we weren’t even supposed to go
but ❤️
it’s inspire icl
wait whta
bro. i hate taking photos of myself AUGH
like
YOOOO 

my hair is different now and like stuff
so like ion even rlly look like ts anymore


RAAAHHHHHHH








