celest grotto
I am currently on break from college and I am in hell on earth in my own house. my brother is 13 and he can barely do anything without making it clear he is the smartest person in the room. he has a dog that barks at sounds we can't even hear and she has no leash control. when he takes her out, he won't pick up any of her waste she leaves behind. someone else has to come behind and do that for him. (we live in an apartment complex that needs animal waste picked up and bagged.) however, when I am home I am expected to walk the dog and pick up her waste without question sometimes, and most of the time i come visit or am staying over the summer, shes my responsibility to walk and feed and calm.
I don't have any room there, and I'm currently sleeping on the floor because sleeping on the couch is messing up my back. I cannot hide anywhere, I cannot be all by myself for a day, not without something that doesn't involve me being my responsibility. I lash out in anger, admittedly, but I always have to worry if this lashing out will be put against me, and pose me as a horrible sister.
I'm ready to just leave and never come back. In a way, disappearing forever is better than whatever is happening right now. I don't know if anyone can help me.
stoic lake