#(in)consistency final boss
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i can feel it in his aura
idek
hienstly
i’ve been so disconnected from myself i haven’t even been preforming well in school
SCHOOL PMO
I HAVE TO GO BACK TOMORROW

duuude when are u getting on summer break
KEEP pushing og
cant have any loose ends
this is literally like my 3rd week into summer breakm
bri
like
idk
cuz
it’s exam week and like exam review is tomorrow so technically that’s the last day
but like i don’t have exams so i don’t go at all
but i have to go tomorrow to get my frigging mug from art class
and give my art summative to frigging mr papa
ooh damn
i see
wait how do you not know ur last day of school tho 😭
is it diff in canada
uhh
yeah cuz highschool is funky with its last weeks
cuz if you have exams you go
but if no exams u don’t go
idek bro
i just be going fr
what even ever bruh i almost failed grade 9 but at least schools over
bro
like everybody at my school is gay
it’s astronomical
I chuckled at this
almost tho
u got this og

chris zoo❤️🩹
dude acually looks so dead 😭
gslp HELP wasnt ur profile like chris's left foot or something
imdont know how long ago that was
oh man
Oh yeahOU YAAH
IT WAS PERI BRO
PETI
IM CRING
IK WHRA YOURE TALKING ABOUT i dont have that pic of chris foot anymore
ts so wild how did bro remember
oh i feel so honoured 
so i saw everytime
zLOL
when u were online
ok don’t make me tear up
sooo inspire ❤️
how’d you know
LMAO
something like that
ummm
on
first photo
the
bro
i’m wesring a black tee shit and uhhpants
yes
thank you bro 
BROOO 😔 😔 😔 😔
ts frying me
i was very chuzz in uh
grade 4 and 5
it’s almost funny
npbody looks good in those years 
ok real
I HAD A FUCKASS BOB IN 5TH
sigh luzz (lesbian huzz) don’t fw me i think i look too straight
so dont worry
bro i should sue whoever gave me bangs they were BAD
we are LITERALLY the same
i feel like they wouldnt even look bad on u
ngl
no never again i actually have trauama oh my gosh
😭
real my forum message count went form 900 words to 2000 bro
time flies type
oh wow
we just be talking fr
one time i was talking to this person online for like 4 hours straight without realizing
hooly yap sesh
convo must’ve been GOOD good
dude
we were just talking about woke people and how china should be abolished
LMAOAOOO
someone should do a ted talk about ts
dude i MIGHT get a mute for this
do
ok
i feel like a mod is gonna spawn in here
but do they ACTUALLY check journals
moderators donut mind us…
word
-# shhhh he might hear you…
LOL
no bc i just said something dumb and i was like oh lmao i thought there was a mod in chat for a sec
I SEE
RYNX
START YTYPING
THAT WAS ACTUALLY NIGHTMARE FUEL
URBAN LEGEN
HAHAHADN
kuchisake onna
whatever thee hell her name was
did you just cast a spell upon me
maybe
LOLOL
WHAT. did you do.
lowkey just hexxed you idk
BROOO 😭
ts too peak

bruh its like theyre being ai generated
im in this server with all the mocha and milk emotes
i’m at SCHOOL. 💔
my hair has been marinating for like 3 hours
i’m scared what if it all falls out.
my stylist done forgotten about me💔
1 month till after hours till dawn with twin
we’re gonna go early so we get like the light bracelets or whatever
the weeknd merch is so flickin expensive
100 dollars for a jersey bro
fries
lowk i used to hate what i saw in the mirror but now i lowk fw it
my new hair changed me fr
fiday night funkin
getting freaky on a friday night yeah
YAYYYY
YAYAYAY
ok umm idrk how we’re gonna play tg tho i was kinda spazzing out trying to play with ine of my friends
ill try to figure it out tmr
yesb
lowk when there’s ac going off in the background
i start singing the intro to coming down by the weeknd
i can so faintly hear him singing, “alll aloooonee… aaalll aloneeeee… alll alllooneee…”
abel ❤️

me and twin finna be posted up at after hours till dawn in a month
ref stop making me miss something that never even happened
cuz with this money comes problems and with problems come solutions… and you know, when i’m faded i forget- forget what you mean to me
hope you know what you mean to me
pick up the phone
i’m all alone,
i always want you when i’m coming down
i feel like even with everything on the outside i am still undesirable and i feel. disgusting in my body. i just kinda wanna be ok with what i see in the mirror. but i can’t help but to see all the ugly inside as a result. i’m so blinded by my sin and filth that i can not even see myself anymore. i feel shame and guilt. it only grows stronger when i can not do anything but to convince myself that jesus will forgive me anyways. i am disgusting.
i kind of just want one day where i am not at war with myself. i just want one day where my parents aren’t telling me that they miss their little girl. i do too.
i am tired of hearing that i am like this become i get everything i do just so little as look at. i want help yet it is the only thing that isn’t available to me. i want to get better yet i can not do such thing. i want to feel normal yet i have forgotten the very essence that makes normal normal.
maybe one day it will get easier for me. i don’t like how empty my stomach feels every second i spend awake. it is not because i stopped eating yet i wish it was. i wish it was proof that i was getting skinny. yet it isnt. it is only the feeling of being so disgusting and undesirable that fuels me to starve. i want to feel skinny again. and so i will live off that terrible feeling even though i hate every second of it. maybe one day my parents will understand that i am not sleeping because i am only tired. one day they will understand that i want to escape the void in my gut too
maybe one day somebody will really see me
i am no longer afraid of doing it
i fear the thought of my mother finding me the most
it shouldn’t have ever gotten this bad
i was meant to be
her child
i cant see myself in her anymore
i cant
see
myself
i am sorry for everything. i let myself get this bad. i am upset that i never told you. now you have to see me like this. i wish that i could still be your girl, but you have given up on me. i gave you a reason to. you were always trying but i was too caught up in my own head to realize it. i hate myself for it every day, mom. i want you to be proud of me again
maybe
just this once
they all spend so much time and effort on me
just for me to cry everything that i’m good for away
i don’t really want to be like this
maybe
none of this was meant for me
i never deserved any of this
i am selfish
i wish i could just be normal again
maybe then
my parents would
like me
i hope that they know
i don’t want to
feel like this either
i want to stop
i really really
just want to stop
i don’t know if i want to be seen anymore
i just want to disappear
i don’t like when this happens
i shouldn’t regret about the past
i can not bear to think about the present
and the idea of a future does not exist in my mind
so where do i let it wander
sleep is meant for me
i wish this was all just a dream
i will wake up eventually
and maybe
my life is ok in the real world
CRASHOUT OVER 😂

ts edit so tuff
i love not you too
the song
drake is so tuff ngl
now that i’m thinking about it
maybe it was never normal to be really really clingy to my ex relationships
maybe thats why the last time somebody fw me i didn’t feel the same and shi even tho i liked him too

so maybe feeling like
just really close best friends is normal the entire time and i was just out doing it
chopped is my favorite new slang word
it’s hilarious i’m gonna keep it a buck
and the variations
huzz is mid but chopped is so funny
bro
syfm
shut your beautiful ass up twin ❤️🩹
i love ariana grande she’s my light and JOY ❤️

spamming the antifragile dance during grade 7 recess was my roman empire
ANTI TI TI TI FRAGILE
ANTI TI TI TI FRAGILE
ANTI TI TI TI FRAGILE
anti fragile 👅 anti fragile 👅
ts
and i want u to know baybehh
i i love u like a love song baby
i i love u like a love song baby
i i love u like a love song babhyyyyy
that was the STUPIDEST purchase i have made
in a very long time
oh my god im so cooked 😭
why does this have to hit me AFTER i make the purchase
what is this groupchat even about
ive been praying for times like this
farrrtttt i cleaned my room
da bois
why was i lowkey an npc today
i had no deep thoughts
i didnt even think at all today like
bro
i woke up at 5 pm
and i played roblox with my friends
thats literally it
im crying
i think im a little too aggressive and competitive even in things that dont matter
if i get even the smallest competition i make it my life goal to outdo them and shit on them
i hate when people are better than me icl
i will pretty much do anything to keep myself better than people
ESPECIALLY people i dont like
ok tbf i dont really dislike anybody to that extent
but yk
it gets bad
i have like a winner complex even though im a fucking loser ill keep it a buck
i dont like giving up either
i kind of just keep retrying a billion times
and eventually it gets sloppier and sloppier
but i will not stop until im number 1 again ugh i hate when people r better than me
i especially HATE HATE HATE when i get outmogged by a man
like when its a woman its a different thing i just kind of get lovestruck
but if its a RAGGIDY MAN BRO.
i will lose my shit
especially if my hg's bf or whatever tf
i hate when men look good it actually aggrivates me
i also hate
when people comment on my weight
"bro wdym youre fat youre so skinny dude i can see your bones"
first of all what
second of all why
third of all how
why. why why 😔 why man dont say that shit its gonna make me feel worse
i hate when people say im skinny and call me fat as a joke idc
its chill if its with some people
but if we aint even tight like that then i hope you know that youre the sole reason why im not eating for another week
ho.
how about THAT
why is every one of my new school friends so
like
.
unbearable, dare i say
can we lowkey just give me one break
"bro just do it alone, just go alone"
maybe just
be a friend as i label you as
not even complicated shi
can you not even like. wait for me to finish using the restroom.
not even when i need to stop by my locker bro.
you have NO life bro. where are you so eager to get to.
bruh
every single second of them makes it feel like im across the world from my good friends
i miss when being good people especially to your friends was the norm
this is NOT a tiktok trend bro can we lock in
i genuienly have one good friend at school and i appreciate her so much
lowkey i am a terrible person too
but not to people i call my friends
especially not to friends, to sharpen that
i will make mental notes of things that i can use to my advantage in mfs i dont like when they will inevitably argue with me
come here ho... im ready fo you... 
i like arguing
debates or like screaming matches i dont really care
i like feeling smart even though im not
oh how i wish to be like my popular friends
i love them so so so so much
theyre so nice
and theyre just so
ugh
i love them
i lowkey started becoming them
sometimes its kind of just like
bruh. being boring and like a white girl on tiktok
but its gen so nice
and i have my special interests but im just discreet about it
i dress like them a lot
like always, actually
oh shiiiiiiii its TOMORROW
i nede to poop
how to feel comfortable with your identity quickest route no borax
lowkey.
i
i dont even know
i am kind of
getting tired of telling people that i am not
what they think i am
but i also wish i was
what everybody thinks i am
i know i will never be comfortable enough to fully accept it
i am doing my best but i dont really think that it is enough
what even ever bro like
bro
iom all of them im all the genders
including the neo ones i dont even care
pls
one day
i just.
impulsively gave myself an eyebrow slit.
IM WRAK
oh gof m mom is going to muder me bro
uuyughh
god she’s so

yummers
masc women
sigh
I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW THAT U DRUNK
TELL ME WHAT U WANT SFTER THIS CLUUUB
YK I GET NASTYYYY YUH
i should
bruh
like
BROOO PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS
i can’t even bee
nonchalant
anymorr
not like i ever was
but bro
sigh
pls
you’re funny i’m investing in you
from now on address me as biblically accurate caitlyn from arcane
i saw a tiktok and ts girl said it
like to that tone
yk that one meme
tiktok is just
full of degenerates
“oh who said that” after saying a controversial opinion
but like i fear i got clocked
history with that mindset
HELP
LMAOOO
😭 🙏
this trend is lowkey really funny
and like the bacon avocado one where like
WHAT is the trend
yk
...
okay cait

WHAT DOES THAT
ok but genuinely does identity mean like
gender
in this context
yes
LMAOO
bro discord fucked me up SO bad like they brought the gun to my fist fight i have never been so like out of contact with myself until ts darn app
i feel like pronouns kind of just empower ur gender like
they are important
but
yeah
theyre both separated
i cant even with these bum ahh labels anymore bro 😔 can i just be senna
i mean like i was watching this guy called amir odom or something on
yt
and he was like
if gender is a spectrum why cant you just be yourself
i see a lot of people trying to figure out their identities within the
face of queer labels
but it gets too
right i just wanna be me that’s just what i want bro
profound it ends up messing ur head up
respect
no literally 😭
if you say that you identify as an animal and that is your gender i will respectfully stop talking to you because i don’t want to trigger you
foxgender
what
it gets to a point
i dont think i have a lot of experience when it comes to gender disassociation but i used to be trans at one point and i didnt really want to appear as
trans
i feel like the whole point of it is to be discrete and i felt obligated to say my label
i dont know if thats a similar experience
i laughed
bruh
no but when it comes to online stuff i just
i’m genderfluid butt like obviously i come off as a woman irl so everybody finna call me a girl
say their names because i dont wanna get my shit rocked
i’m like chill with that irl cuz like. why would i not be
but yk
TEALL
REAL
oh my god i’m so scared of really really woke people
i said ts like a trillion times but still
you’re so real doomsday please don’t die
yay ❤️🩹

❤️🩹 it’s inspire
walking in a field full of land mines ahh
like they pose as the group thats the most accepting but when you say that you dont agree with their beliefs or actions they turn against you
its kinda hard to find people within the same lane because when you say that ur neutral people just think that you dont have a political opinion
😭
ts is so real im lowkey scared to even say that im christian at my school cuz i will get publicly stoned to death
no way
thats actually miserable
i went from a catholic school to js. a public highschool and bro lowkey everybody is atheist and woke
i am HORRIFIED
💔
LMAOAOAO
and i feel like the people have also just gotten worse
=
my christian friends are so so kind and they are human
but mfs here oh my god
one wrong word
it is over for my highschool career
yeah 💔 it’s ok don’t be sorry i hang out with my good friends a lot more
like they feel 'oppressed because of
keeping me sane
RIGHTTTTY
just reversed
it’s kind of crazy to also just subject every single christian to this kind of behavior when maybe only 1 wronged you in the past
what did we even DO 😭
yes
right
i feel like thats on both sides thpugh the generalization between the both is like
speaking
to a brick wall
RIGHT
they usually don’t even try to hear you out
god forbid i say ‘amen’ and suddenly their entire view on me changes
did jesus PERSONALLY shame you bro 💔
talking to me as if i was the one who killed your childhood fish
LMAOA
no but they dont have a problem with christians they just have problems with people associated with christianity
sigh and it’s always the same verses from the old testament about hating gay people or whatever
like it’s all cherry picked to make christianity look like a shitty religion
whatever person has shined a bad light on that will amplify to the rest of the people that follow it as well
yeah but then again we have to learn to separate them from just regular people
i feel like it’s almost selfish to assume that everybody that shares a common religion or anything with the person who wronged you is the same
men and women 😭
i was talking to my friend about this person who was like "all men do is cheat" dude
youre kinda just
showing what kind of people you attract 😭
😭 ZLOOOOL
LOL
i genuinely
have such a strong dislike for people who generalize large groups

upvote
its so
it makes me so fatigued
bring it in ❤️🩹



ok no jinx is too tuff i must become her
jinx before shimmer might be my spirit animal
WHY CANT I JUZT BECOME fictional CHARACTERS’!!!!!!
423.9K likes, 416 comments. ““Queen is he bothering u?” Worse actually I think the devil has reached me”
oops
sigh if only
if only
if. only.
if only.
did i mention im also canonically
- könig from cod
- pyramid head from silent hill
- claire redfield from resident evil
- graves from cod
- velvet from the third trolls movie
- caitlyn from arcane
- squirrelpaw from the warrior cats into the wild
hmmm
- mclaren senna gtr
- bmw m4 f82
- koenigsegg regera
damn
ugtffgggggffhgfghgghhhhhbbnnbhghhjgghhbnnnnnbbhgnnnghhggvgggghhgffgh
i have a very real, romantic crush on vi
i have so many thoughts that i cant put into words
may a woman like her find me…

vi the woman you are
this song is so good
god this song
fuuuuuuuuuuuuucckkkkkk
why is it so
UGH
nghfhgghfghhghh
SRTOPPPPPPUYGUGUGGHYGUUUGUGUUGHUHHYUYYUU
i want to look like this song
i’m lowkey so close to if
it
sigh
SIGH SIGH SIGH
AUGH THIS shit is so
fucking
god…
would it make me
desirable
then?
😂
ummmm
i wanna be my popular friends sooooo bad
even though i’m. one of them

said he likes crazy girls
but he hates when i act crazy ;-;
:((((((
i am a unicorn
i just wanna see you shine cuz i know you are a stargirl 😞
my friends r lowkey nasty
what do you mean
“i never wash my face. not even with water.” ho i touched that shit
…
normalize hygiene i think
what do you mean you never wash your face
what… do you not feel. disgusting.
i want another octobuddy
i want the double sided one
they’re so expensive dude
sigh
i wanna be a unicorn
CRIES
CREOSSUUUHHH
pls pls pls pls pls please please please please please please please

please
please…. please please please please please please please 
it’s not FAIR
LMFAO
MFAOO
LMFAO
LMFAOOO FAO
LMFAO
LMFAO TS
FHIS IS ACTUALLY SO FUNNY IM FRUINGN
YOU GON WATCH ME PULL UP ON YA BODY LIKE ITS SUMMER TAKE MY CLOTHES OFF GET U BLESSED LIKE HOLY WATER I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WERE WAITING FOR YOU KNOW I BEEN WAITING FOR U
IF U SAW MY TEARS WOULD U TOUCH ME
KISS ME ON THE MOUTH SAY U LOVE ME
LEAVE A MESSAGE SAY UR SORRY
HIT ME RIGHT BACK HIT ME RIGHT BACK
all alone 😔
all alone 😔
all alone 😔
all alone 😔
all alooooooooooneeeee 😔
i lowkey
hope i am pretty enough
i kind of want to be pretty like really bad
maybe then i would like looking at myself
and maybe then people would maybe like me too
not that they don’t already
just
more
i’m kind of done with having people only remotely like me. or just have mediocre feelings about me
i kind of want to be truly liked and understood
i can only get that with a few people now
and my heart doesn’t like that
me when trick my glorious queen
i love my oc
i lauv her
my two moods ahh
i don’t even care if people would like me if i was prettier
i just kind of want to like myself more
i don’t wanna avoid mirrors anymore
i want to have more photos of myself
and i want to be comfortable enough to give my close friends permission to post me
i wanna just feel comfortable in my own skin for once
i don’t know why i’m like this it’s not like i’m generally ugly
i just know that i don’t
want to be like this anymore
it’s so exhausting
it’s. bright outside.
why is it lowkey hard to find people who like the same stuff as me online
everybody likes obscure bands and underground artists but what if i listen to mainstream music
and to think that this situation would be completely turned upside down irl
everybody irl is just like me
but when it comes to making friends online..
i’ve only really met a select couple online who really like the things i do. and not just moderately, but on the same level as well
it’s so refreshing to feel like you belong with a group of people
i wish people could be born with unnatural hair colors
what do you mean pink or teal hair
from birth
that’s like actually my dream to have
i guess thats what makes finding them so special
on john
you’re one of them i fw you heavy
right back at you
i have like 2 online friends lmao
you dont always have to have relationships built off of same interests i think what matters the most is that you both have similar values and you feel comfortable saying anything to them
yeahh right obviously idm having friends that don’t like exactly what i like but it’s like a bonus
no i get it
lol
sorry that sounds passive aggresive
:Sob
but yeah i mean i think its pretty annoying finding friends online
LOL no not at all
type 😔
one thing that can narrow it down is just join communities within that same interest i guess
servers are
uh
depends which ones you join
dare i say i’m also scared of people who like the same things as me
car fans are usually toxic esp edm
ariana fans are HORRIFYING
travis and everybody else i like r practically the same
yeah but i get that
LMAOO
it’s a select few that i feel comfortable with
well yeah thats what im saying you also have to be aligned in values and being able to talk to them without walking on eggshells
do anything but join those servers made to find friends in 😭
those are the worst
its probably worse than tinder
pREASLORELAREAL
real
icl
i can’t even remember why i joined here in the first place
more than a year
oh 2021
i see
ok tbf i was probably crashing out over a dude
i’m currently waiting for my mom to FEED ME
oh lore drop
feed me… feed me….
it was just this dude from like 2 years ago
uh well i have this other account on here and i joined in 2021
no not 2021
jeez
2023
im so lagged when it comes to years
real 
oh i didnt even read that
fully
oohup
yeah i swear its always so weird looking back at past messages
and its either over the most obscene shit or something miniscule
LOOOL
yo that’s crazy i was like 11
sink: thank you
I WAS GOING TO SAY THAT
LOL
LMAIAO
ghats so real though
like i lowkey do not know
how to respond to high energy messages anymore it’s just
bruh
its alright at first or jus
if theyre happy
honestly
but if its like EVERY DAMN TEXT MESSAGE
what you so excited for twin. 😔 ✌️
oh i lowkey HATE that shit
its like ok if its every now and then but holy crap can we talk about something different than sending ig reels
i like talking to you because i can actually say some shit
real like why is it a literal chore to have genuine conversations now?? can we normalize attention spans and engaging in real conversations about real topics
but then when it omes to other people and they get an ounce of a deep thought or something theyre like
hah
ha
lol.
ACTUSLLY
ACTUALLY
THO
quotations
right man i don’t want shallow friendships anymore i wanna have a real emotional connection with people but apparently that is too much to ask for 😭
put it in the right words
ok and then theres the other side of the spectrum where its just like someone who intellectualizes everything and is wayy too philosophical
thankfully i havent met a lot of those poeple but
uh
it’s also kind of really really difficult to find a middle ground with people so it’s basically a really unfair gamble meeting new people
"i feel sad today" 'the concept of the "golden mean" in ethics, his definition of happiness as eudaimonia, and his view of humans as "political animals'
what did i just read
deadass tho 😭
i want to like
be able to have deeper and philosophical conversations but not that deep bro chill i’m just 14
fr
WOR
if it gets to the point where i have to google search every word you speak then we can NOT talk
no sometimes when i get too philosophical i feel like im being pretentious to others

right
but maybe in another life i’m rene descartes
what if you are
i am because i am thinking therefore i am heh.
ho is like one of my favorite words






