frail vine
Hi all! In like November my ex gf and I broke up after about 3 years together after a lot of crazy stuff happened for both of us while I was at school. It ended weirdly and we kept talking up until like early March because the weirdness of our breakup and life was starting to make my mental health decline really badly, so I stopped talking to her. I was kinda mean. I reached out again in early April thinking things would go differently and we could work things out, but it didn't feel like anything changed, so we stopped talking again. At the same time I met another person, and we hit it off and I decided to kinda pursue them? We're dating officially now, which has been going great but I feel like I kinda rushed into it?
Anyway! Last week I met up with my ex to bring some of her stuff to her, and we ended up talking for a while and she said a lot of stuff that made me question my decision to go into a new relationship with my current partner. From our interaction, it seems like she's changed a lot mentally after these last few months of us not dating, especially compared to who she was when we were dating. She said she can forgive and forget the past of our relationship and me being in one currently, and we could try again if I decided. My dillemma is that I really like this new person, and I want to see how that goes, but I also don't really know how the future will be with them, and the offer from my ex is very tempting, as that was all I really ever wanted for the last 6 months pretty much until I started dating this new person.
I really don't know what to do, or how to feel about this. Because on one hand, I don't want to lose the friendship and companionship of my ex since we worked really well together for a long time, but I don't know if I really believe her words that things will be different. On the other hand, I have a really good thing going on right now, and this person could be in my future for a while, and part of my wants to see how that goes. I don't know what to do because I don't want to give up what I currently have, but I also want to believe that what I already had could work again, but better this time. I feel like such a pos for not knowing what to do...
hoary prism