lethal solstice
So I've (M17) been having these anxious thoughts riddling inside me and it's about between me and someone I know on here itself, me and her (F25) have a good friendship on here, it's really good, me and her are very close, believing we're each other's most important person and I just feel like something else whenever I get to speak to her.
For some reason, I've been feeling like a small part of me is trying to pull me away from her and saying she is just someone random, it's an inner crisis that I've been facing and I really don't know if I want to tackle that topic with her. It's just that she is so important to me and it feels like I'd be lost without her, I don't want something about my feelings for her, I need straight up advice because it feels like my bond with her just feels like it's dying down and that I want to do something to stop myself from feeling less close to her since I couldn't imagine myself without her. I know it does sound and look weird because of this situation but I just want to do something to stop this bond between me and her to fade away.
She understands how I feel about her and I actually like LIKE her a lot, I know it sounds weird but I just feel way too close to her and I do feel like maybe someone could at least give me straight up advice on how to prevent the bond between me and her to fade off. And sometimes due to the anxiety, I just have some fears on what may happen between us and how we both would feel if something different happened to either one of us but nevertheless, I still like LIKE her but I really don't know if I'm ready to have another one of these conversations with her again. She does assure me that there won't be anything to be concerned about our bond and I honestly really wish she can know more, even though she does, on how much I really like her.
It may sound weird, I know but I do have a belief that me and her are soulmates for how close me and her are. I really wanted to get this off my chest, I really did.